i tot ytd was bad
today was worse
they both saw me cry lols.
bad.
really. lols.
i had so much to write here
but it's hard to get everything back.
i dun wan to anyway.
basically
my dad is a SUPER petty person
ytd dun wan spell camera for him only leh
then he went crazy today
so small thing...tsk
mum found out so much money(class de) with me
so she asked me why i go i/c money stuff etc
say i not responsible coz money cannot just lie on the table.
dangerous.
but it's home leh so she say she almost threw it away
lols they can leave my things alone.... -.-
then dad also join in
wth one line mum one line dad continuous
zzz -.-
then i say u think wan go uni rly just need results ar
then my mum shut up
my dad wth got worse.
say what i think he dunno anything ar etc
ya what. he rly doesnt know what.
then i go bathe
cried so super hard in there
come out ar
he ask me hand over my atm card sia
give lor big deal
then he ask for phone n ipod
WTH U CRAZY AR
i sot then give him la.
over my dead body man.
so i hold both on my hands tightly dun let him take
he say he'll get it anyway
wahtever u can try.
my mum then come into my room
close door
lecture me tsk.
haiz.
haiz.
haiz.
haiz.
烦阿烦，活着真烦...haiz.
then dinnertime
i wanted charge my ipod
but scare dad go take it
so i go lock it in my cupboard and
keep key in my pocket lols
i was being careful lor...
im not the only one who's become
very dependent of my ipod...
wanshan and elaine also LOL
today damn funny.
5 mins before chem lecture started
wanshan asked for my ipod
i was like WTH??? few mins left only leh!!!
i was thinking she's crazy
then elaine also ask
LOL???? HAHA damn funny...
anyway i slept thru half the lecture lols.
in front awake behind awake middle sleeping.
as usual.
:P
oh where was i.
erm ya dinner
after dinner he tell me
next time use com do work
off msn
cannot watch shows
latest 11.30pm must off
if not he going cut cable again.
wth lor.
*rolls eyes* x10000000
it feels so familiar
must be the 1000 times im hearing stuff like that.
*rolls eyes again*
then after dinner he gave me back my atm card.
he's so him man.
it's so his behaviour
EVERYTIME also like that.
few days later
after he appeased le ar
come tell me he scold me he also not happy de
stuff like that.
crap la.
so not happy then dun do it la.
why get angry over such a dumb thing man
make me cry until i cant see properly now lols
ok not that bad just eyes a little bit more tired
than it already is....
haiyo...
everything is bad like tt...
and ar
i dunno y la
now HOLS leh
ppl can relax and watch shows
and still do work what
why cant i?
why do my parents expect me to do work the whole day???
tt's so unfair.
they keep comparing me with others
then why dun they compare themselves? o.O
haiz
tt's too high expectations for them man...
2010-05-31
2010-05-30
im in a killing mood
let me murder someone
argh nvm that won't help
damn it la
i dunno what to say even.
crap.
relax...
haiz.
anyway.
ytd co concert
it was great.
they did a gd job
gave flowers to sarah elaine joscelin
havent pay mr ang back yet hehe. :P
as an erhu player
i specially took note of erhu only
they did pretty well la.
quite pro
but it just takes practice
it's all like this
erhu especially is not that that difficult.
it just takes practice :D
i miss my erhu................... :(
but i still wont go touch it de la :P
oh ya b4 concert.
mr ang send us go SCH from bedok interchange
veron damn bad with directions hehe
told her meet at bus stop oppo interchange
then she go wrong one -.-
anyway then coz cher drive us past bugis
so hehe we made him stop there
then we went food court for dinner
i went bossini say hi first
but only say charleen (morning went parkway say hi
on my way home from translation competition too! haha)
the rest went home le
think sook han was inside but i didnt wait la
i left for my dinner :D
and then veron couldnt find where they were sitting at -.-
LOL damn funny.
she actually has a tracking device in her phone
so that she can be found if she gets lost
LOL damn bad with directions apparently
then cher didnt noe how go SCH from there
see directory sia
i also seesee la but didnt manage to help
he found his way arnd. sianz.
cannot laugh at him hehe :P
after co concert he bring us home
he dropped shermaine first
then he changed cd to s.h.e. songs!! :D:D
not bad he got quite a lot! :D
he wanted to drive me home from expressway
but i dunno that way.
so i tried guiding him the way i know
the way dad usu goes o.O
not exactly but ya i was sort of on the right track
but he didnt trust me -.-
tsk~
i only made 1 mistake!!
oh and a few minor ones hehe :p
i ok with directions de lor!
usually la anyway.im better than a lot ppl.
tt's gd enough :p
but shermaine's pretty gd! haha
today morning
edited gpp that zhenyan sent me
it's still no gd.
so send shermaine
she didnt edit sia
wth lor.
it's NOT perfect can.
cant they put in more effort??
i BET $100000 this wont be approved yet.
aiya what they wan me do sia
argh dun care.
i going to submit it le.
we'll just keep editing the gpp till end of pw
and fail it together.
yay let's all die together~
we'll need a big enough coffin.
then afternoon
dad asked me go sing karaoke lols.
coz home got system.
he started singing la i went bathe
come out then my turn hehe
but i sing not nice
anyhow la.
quite fun though.
sang jj songs and s.h.e. songs
the system not very gd
coz the database not as gd as outside de
but it's free :D
and music not bad
dad on aircon summore
so haha not bad le la :P
then mum walk past me say
u a lot of time ar still playplayplay...
wth.
i so wanted to roll my eyes.
she also what
whole day complain say very tired
so much work to do
no time to rest
say we bully her
she do until no free time
then why is she always with my ipod? -.-
why is she always with my ipod IN FRONT OF TV
AND SITTING ON THE BED?
while i doing work.
lala~yea she's SOOOOO poor thing.
my life is 1000000 times better man
i bully her all day that i suck.
whatever. i cant be bothered
no matter how much i would have cared
it would all fade when things
are repeated SO MUCH.
after dinner i watching show on my ipod
then she scold me.
zzzz hols just started leh :(
cannot slack at all meh
EVERYTIME i slack a bit she also like that
no life man.
jc life is not a life anyway
but still.
argh irritating.
then my dad beside me using com
WORSE STILL
noisy leh
mum scold me he still add fuel
JOKINGLY.
ya like i care he jokin or not.
it still is adding fuel.
my mum always like that de
happy a while then like that
happy a while then like that
repeat that 100 times
and u'll get my point.
life is the same everyday.
she's like this everyday.
sianz. whats so difficult about being happier?
why cant she learn to let go of small things
and see just the big pictures
why cant she care about what she REALLY should
and ignore things she shouldnt?
she doesnt understand me at all. :(
is she really my mum?
morning i telling her
co concert got invite dance ppl to dance
then she ask me accusingly
so u also went down to dance la?
i was like wth???
what kind of person m i to her?!?!?!
crap.
argh.
seriously.
to her. im a
terrible person
terrible student
terrible daughter
haiz. yea la.
i know.
i suck.
fine i get your point.
my ipod full le memory full
yet i didnt delete the games she want
coz i know she want to play
today i go buy the full version for her summore
but she doesnt know anything man
if she really think im that bad ar
maybe i should be that bad to prove her right?
maybe she will be happier seeing me rebel.
wth.
she scold me for slacking le
and then took my ipod to play with watching tv now leh
sianz.
yesyesyes i noe
im a jc student
i got exams after hols.
but CAN'T I PLAY AT ALL?????
i want my life back!!!!
it's hols after all.......
i will study.......really.....
but before that...... :(
wan me study hard then leave me alone man.
im not totally without self discipline ok!
but i need to be in the right mood
then i can chiong
at least
i FINALLY get a BREAK from school leh
and she wants to deprive me of that little break.
even thurs last day of sku damn tiring
thanks to mardi gras
then friday got pulled out by her go temple
nvr do anything
ytd go competition then concert
ytd i go dinner then dirtied my white pants ma
this morning she ask me to wash it leh
i totally rolled my eyes lor
she didnt see it la coz i was back facing her
i kept quiet didnt say anything
i felt like screaming but whatever
coz after that she ask me about sku again
and ask me buck up etcetc
yea i should
then u leave the rest to urself can anot.
tsk.
maybe she's a superwoman in disguise
tt's y she expects her daughter to be one too.
when i was young
my family was happier...
dad will help mum with things at home
mum did sort of everything..with dad's help la
but she nvr did complain
we went out more often
though they quarrelled so often.
quarrels started increasing over the years.
dad now dun help at all
mum doing lesser yet she's complaining more
clothes are getting washed at half the speed of before
tables are wiped half as often
her work is half of before
she goes out with her fren double of before
but her complains is x4 of last time.
PLUS she expects me to do even more
when MY WORK is increasing now.
yay.
i should quit school
and do household chores at home
so they can both retire.
haiz.
usu parents tell others
about how great their kids are
no matter how bad they are
they wont make them sound that bad
my mum so opposite.
all she talks about is bad stuff
and makes me sounds damn damn bad.
i dunno what i do sia seriously.
i didnt commit any heavenly crime
i didnt do anything bad or what on purpose
i try my best to help her
i try to be gd le.
im just a lazy pig.
what's wrong with that?
im her child.
so it's not entirely my fault.
EH WAIT.
TMR IS MONDAY.
DARN.
BAD. VERY BAD.
SIANZ.
TMR GOT SKU.
i wan to sleep and not wake up tmr.......................................................................................................................................................................
argh nvm that won't help
damn it la
i dunno what to say even.
crap.
relax...
haiz.
anyway.
ytd co concert
it was great.
they did a gd job
gave flowers to sarah elaine joscelin
havent pay mr ang back yet hehe. :P
as an erhu player
i specially took note of erhu only
they did pretty well la.
quite pro
but it just takes practice
it's all like this
erhu especially is not that that difficult.
it just takes practice :D
i miss my erhu................... :(
but i still wont go touch it de la :P
oh ya b4 concert.
mr ang send us go SCH from bedok interchange
veron damn bad with directions hehe
told her meet at bus stop oppo interchange
then she go wrong one -.-
anyway then coz cher drive us past bugis
so hehe we made him stop there
then we went food court for dinner
i went bossini say hi first
but only say charleen (morning went parkway say hi
on my way home from translation competition too! haha)
the rest went home le
think sook han was inside but i didnt wait la
i left for my dinner :D
and then veron couldnt find where they were sitting at -.-
LOL damn funny.
she actually has a tracking device in her phone
so that she can be found if she gets lost
LOL damn bad with directions apparently
then cher didnt noe how go SCH from there
see directory sia
i also seesee la but didnt manage to help
he found his way arnd. sianz.
cannot laugh at him hehe :P
after co concert he bring us home
he dropped shermaine first
then he changed cd to s.h.e. songs!! :D:D
not bad he got quite a lot! :D
he wanted to drive me home from expressway
but i dunno that way.
so i tried guiding him the way i know
the way dad usu goes o.O
not exactly but ya i was sort of on the right track
but he didnt trust me -.-
tsk~
i only made 1 mistake!!
oh and a few minor ones hehe :p
i ok with directions de lor!
usually la anyway.im better than a lot ppl.
tt's gd enough :p
but shermaine's pretty gd! haha
today morning
edited gpp that zhenyan sent me
it's still no gd.
so send shermaine
she didnt edit sia
wth lor.
it's NOT perfect can.
cant they put in more effort??
i BET $100000 this wont be approved yet.
aiya what they wan me do sia
argh dun care.
i going to submit it le.
we'll just keep editing the gpp till end of pw
and fail it together.
yay let's all die together~
we'll need a big enough coffin.
then afternoon
dad asked me go sing karaoke lols.
coz home got system.
he started singing la i went bathe
come out then my turn hehe
but i sing not nice
anyhow la.
quite fun though.
sang jj songs and s.h.e. songs
the system not very gd
coz the database not as gd as outside de
but it's free :D
and music not bad
dad on aircon summore
so haha not bad le la :P
then mum walk past me say
u a lot of time ar still playplayplay...
wth.
i so wanted to roll my eyes.
she also what
whole day complain say very tired
so much work to do
no time to rest
say we bully her
she do until no free time
then why is she always with my ipod? -.-
why is she always with my ipod IN FRONT OF TV
AND SITTING ON THE BED?
while i doing work.
lala~yea she's SOOOOO poor thing.
my life is 1000000 times better man
i bully her all day that i suck.
whatever. i cant be bothered
no matter how much i would have cared
it would all fade when things
are repeated SO MUCH.
after dinner i watching show on my ipod
then she scold me.
zzzz hols just started leh :(
cannot slack at all meh
EVERYTIME i slack a bit she also like that
no life man.
jc life is not a life anyway
but still.
argh irritating.
then my dad beside me using com
WORSE STILL
noisy leh
mum scold me he still add fuel
JOKINGLY.
ya like i care he jokin or not.
it still is adding fuel.
my mum always like that de
happy a while then like that
happy a while then like that
repeat that 100 times
and u'll get my point.
life is the same everyday.
she's like this everyday.
sianz. whats so difficult about being happier?
why cant she learn to let go of small things
and see just the big pictures
why cant she care about what she REALLY should
and ignore things she shouldnt?
she doesnt understand me at all. :(
is she really my mum?
morning i telling her
co concert got invite dance ppl to dance
then she ask me accusingly
so u also went down to dance la?
i was like wth???
what kind of person m i to her?!?!?!
crap.
argh.
seriously.
to her. im a
terrible person
terrible student
terrible daughter
haiz. yea la.
i know.
i suck.
fine i get your point.
my ipod full le memory full
yet i didnt delete the games she want
coz i know she want to play
today i go buy the full version for her summore
but she doesnt know anything man
if she really think im that bad ar
maybe i should be that bad to prove her right?
maybe she will be happier seeing me rebel.
wth.
she scold me for slacking le
and then took my ipod to play with watching tv now leh
sianz.
yesyesyes i noe
im a jc student
i got exams after hols.
but CAN'T I PLAY AT ALL?????
i want my life back!!!!
it's hols after all.......
i will study.......really.....
but before that...... :(
wan me study hard then leave me alone man.
im not totally without self discipline ok!
but i need to be in the right mood
then i can chiong
at least
i FINALLY get a BREAK from school leh
and she wants to deprive me of that little break.
even thurs last day of sku damn tiring
thanks to mardi gras
then friday got pulled out by her go temple
nvr do anything
ytd go competition then concert
ytd i go dinner then dirtied my white pants ma
this morning she ask me to wash it leh
i totally rolled my eyes lor
she didnt see it la coz i was back facing her
i kept quiet didnt say anything
i felt like screaming but whatever
coz after that she ask me about sku again
and ask me buck up etcetc
yea i should
then u leave the rest to urself can anot.
tsk.
maybe she's a superwoman in disguise
tt's y she expects her daughter to be one too.
when i was young
my family was happier...
dad will help mum with things at home
mum did sort of everything..with dad's help la
but she nvr did complain
we went out more often
though they quarrelled so often.
quarrels started increasing over the years.
dad now dun help at all
mum doing lesser yet she's complaining more
clothes are getting washed at half the speed of before
tables are wiped half as often
her work is half of before
she goes out with her fren double of before
but her complains is x4 of last time.
PLUS she expects me to do even more
when MY WORK is increasing now.
yay.
i should quit school
and do household chores at home
so they can both retire.
haiz.
usu parents tell others
about how great their kids are
no matter how bad they are
they wont make them sound that bad
my mum so opposite.
all she talks about is bad stuff
and makes me sounds damn damn bad.
i dunno what i do sia seriously.
i didnt commit any heavenly crime
i didnt do anything bad or what on purpose
i try my best to help her
i try to be gd le.
im just a lazy pig.
what's wrong with that?
im her child.
so it's not entirely my fault.
EH WAIT.
TMR IS MONDAY.
DARN.
BAD. VERY BAD.
SIANZ.
TMR GOT SKU.
i wan to sleep and not wake up tmr.......................................................................................................................................................................
2010-05-28
:((((((
what she wan la seriously
just that once
ONNNCEEEE i nvr pick up her call
then my phone sot
i didnt noe got missed call
so they bought my ticket to sg flyer.
i didnt even say i can go or i wan to go leh
then they bought my ticket
and expect me to be going meh
why should i
wan go anytime also can leh
co concert is just this 1 day leh.
go with them also sianz le la
at most give me the ticket
next time i wan go i can just get my fren go with me
whr got waste the ticket.
not like must throw away or sth what
sg flyer wont fly away ok!
wth.
i wan buy flowers for elaine they all
got anything wrong meh
she very mean leh.
only she can care for her friends
only her friends impt ar.
elaine is my best friend in class
and joscelin is my best friend like best friend...
two impt friends both performing tmr
and its co summore
of coz cannot miss la
why doesnt she understand?
she can go out with her friend whenever she wants to
and leave me n my dad alone
she can use money as she like with her friends
do whatever she wants
and then come scold me for putting my friends b4 family
scold me waste money
the flowers are NOT a waste of money
for goodness sake.
she say i now anyhow spend money
dun save money le.
but now dad give me atm card ma how save...
though she doesnt noe la.
she promised to buy my contacts de
how long le...almost half a yr le.
tt time ask her then she ask me ownself save money go buy.
i shouldnt have trusted her.
of coz she wouldnt wanna spend money on sth like that.
everything is unnecessary to her apparently.
but that's HERRR
i dun think that way
why everything must listen to her
i already very gd le leh :(
she was saying she very nice to let me go le
she can dun let me go de
i also can dun listen what
even she dun let.
i can still go de lor
but i didnt buy ticket yet that time
i waited till she gave her approval.
it's always like this.
i try to listen to her as much as possible.
and she takes everything for granted.
she sees only the bad things
and neglect everything else.
then why should i be a gd gal?
she doesnt see it anyway
she doesnt care anyway..
:((((((((((((((((((((
what a waste of water.
just that once
ONNNCEEEE i nvr pick up her call
then my phone sot
i didnt noe got missed call
so they bought my ticket to sg flyer.
i didnt even say i can go or i wan to go leh
then they bought my ticket
and expect me to be going meh
why should i
wan go anytime also can leh
co concert is just this 1 day leh.
go with them also sianz le la
at most give me the ticket
next time i wan go i can just get my fren go with me
whr got waste the ticket.
not like must throw away or sth what
sg flyer wont fly away ok!
wth.
i wan buy flowers for elaine they all
got anything wrong meh
she very mean leh.
only she can care for her friends
only her friends impt ar.
elaine is my best friend in class
and joscelin is my best friend like best friend...
two impt friends both performing tmr
and its co summore
of coz cannot miss la
why doesnt she understand?
she can go out with her friend whenever she wants to
and leave me n my dad alone
she can use money as she like with her friends
do whatever she wants
and then come scold me for putting my friends b4 family
scold me waste money
the flowers are NOT a waste of money
for goodness sake.
she say i now anyhow spend money
dun save money le.
but now dad give me atm card ma how save...
though she doesnt noe la.
she promised to buy my contacts de
how long le...almost half a yr le.
tt time ask her then she ask me ownself save money go buy.
i shouldnt have trusted her.
of coz she wouldnt wanna spend money on sth like that.
everything is unnecessary to her apparently.
but that's HERRR
i dun think that way
why everything must listen to her
i already very gd le leh :(
she was saying she very nice to let me go le
she can dun let me go de
i also can dun listen what
even she dun let.
i can still go de lor
but i didnt buy ticket yet that time
i waited till she gave her approval.
it's always like this.
i try to listen to her as much as possible.
and she takes everything for granted.
she sees only the bad things
and neglect everything else.
then why should i be a gd gal?
she doesnt see it anyway
she doesnt care anyway..
:((((((((((((((((((((
what a waste of water.
feeling lazy
feeling lazy haha
today 1+ then wake up sia
and is coz my cousin called me
(my mum asked him call de la)
too tired ytd le la haha..
today shall just slack~
ytd mardi gras
too long to elaborate on.
basically i was in charge since elaine wasnt arnd
quite stressful but ok la
overall quite fun though super tiring.
think we made a loss. not sure yet. o.O
thanks EVERYONE for making my day (:
today 1+ then wake up sia
and is coz my cousin called me
(my mum asked him call de la)
too tired ytd le la haha..
today shall just slack~
ytd mardi gras
too long to elaborate on.
basically i was in charge since elaine wasnt arnd
quite stressful but ok la
overall quite fun though super tiring.
think we made a loss. not sure yet. o.O
thanks EVERYONE for making my day (:
2010-05-24
2010-05-23
not bad le :D
hmm
today nvr meet them after all..
shermaine ytd say after 2 then can
zhenyan got competition
then zk say she ytd very late reach home
today wan catch up on her work........
lols we all need to catch up what...
haiz.nvm
then wan meet on9
till now then going start sia lols
but i received their research le
hopefully it's gd enough.
gd luck.
but they have been very nice le actually :D
friday zhenyan and susan apologised for not having done much
lols. a bit funny. i just nvm la it's okay.
no need to apologise de la coz they is rl busy
not fake de ma.
haha...yea lor then ar
shermaine keep telling me
dun stress out they will try to help me
errr nice of her but hopefully they rly do o.O
zk thanks me all the time hahaha
and she does help a lot le la.
so yea not bad not bad...hehe. :P
class fund accounts don't tally!!
sianz im such a lousy treasurer -.-
argh. money leh!!!
then need colelct another $12 each from them
elaine super nice leh
i super touched!!
she sms whole class
help me explain y i need collect so much again
then ask them dun bully me
bully me= bully her then they will die horribly
HAHA so nice right?!?!?!
wow. haha.... :D:D comforting sia hahaha
today nvr meet them after all..
shermaine ytd say after 2 then can
zhenyan got competition
then zk say she ytd very late reach home
today wan catch up on her work........
lols we all need to catch up what...
haiz.nvm
then wan meet on9
till now then going start sia lols
but i received their research le
hopefully it's gd enough.
gd luck.
but they have been very nice le actually :D
friday zhenyan and susan apologised for not having done much
lols. a bit funny. i just nvm la it's okay.
no need to apologise de la coz they is rl busy
not fake de ma.
haha...yea lor then ar
shermaine keep telling me
dun stress out they will try to help me
errr nice of her but hopefully they rly do o.O
zk thanks me all the time hahaha
and she does help a lot le la.
so yea not bad not bad...hehe. :P
class fund accounts don't tally!!
sianz im such a lousy treasurer -.-
argh. money leh!!!
then need colelct another $12 each from them
elaine super nice leh
i super touched!!
she sms whole class
help me explain y i need collect so much again
then ask them dun bully me
bully me= bully her then they will die horribly
HAHA so nice right?!?!?!
wow. haha.... :D:D comforting sia hahaha
2010-05-20
feeling a bit...emo
as the title says.
in sku was ok
i cant rmb if anything happened
but got maths test.
i spent too much useless time on graphing
didnt plan my time well
so couldnt finish
got 7 marks not complete.
and 1 part of Q3 dunno how do. that's 4 marks
total 30.
well. HOPEFULLY i get 19 or 20 at least :((
it's damn bad le la.
but most ppl cant finish i think
and they dunno how do in front.
well it's rly irritating for me
coz I KNOW HOW DO
i just didnt have time.
its such a pity.
only that one part dunno lor... :(
haiz. nvm. i'll work harder.
i must do better.
i really have serious problems with
time management and presentation when it comes to math
i realise...
hopefully sth can be done -.-
my presentation very bad also!
always dunno how to present.
i understand what is asked
sort of know the answer
but i dunno whether can just write the answer alone
i dunno what they are looking for.
argh dumb areas.
as time passes by
i feel more and more determined
to study
to work hard
to do well.
but.
i can't do it just by this alone.
not when i have so much more to care about
i dun wanna neglect anything else...
i know my mum is tired.
she's old already
she's been thru a lot
at this age my dad is so annoyingly annoying
(sorry limited vocab :P)
he used to help mum a lot
and he didnt bother me de
even at that time there are quarrels and everything
but it only got worse over the years...
nothing has improved.
it has deteriorated instead...
now my dad doesnt help my mum with ANYTHING.
all he does is go to work
and give us money.
well it's very impt but seriously.
he comes home and slack for the rest of the day
slump in front of the tv till dinner
after dinner tv again then sleep.
then like to anyhow waste money.
we not happy about it
but he earned the money. what can we say?
he still can come tell me he very tired that day
the only chore he do at home now is wash plates
sometimes he lazy then even dishes also dun wan wash la
for goodness sake
WHO IS NOT TIRED?!?!?
he is relatively much slacker liao leh.
my mum is rly tired. he should noe!
my mum totally give up on him liao la.
gradually giving up on me too
i dunno what i did man.
i really dunno what she wants from me.
if i can i want to meet her requirements
i want to.
but im also tired.
and i rly dunno how to accomplish EVERYTHING...
now, i really just wanna conc on my studies
and NOTHING else
but then to go uni
we need a nice portfolio
we need leadership skills
we need interpersonal skills
we need a lot
we need to know how to pass interviews smoothly
im having trouble with that.
so i want to take up more leadership posts hopefully
or at least join events
build up character too.
but mum doesnt like it.
she always complains about me busy with too much stuff.
she doesnt like me coming home late for uselss stuff
she doesnt understand y i have to do all these
if can i also dun wan do ANY of it la
im a treasurer in class
im the PW leader
and then i have to balance sku work
which im having trouble with
while facing the very nice classmates
who put even more pressure on me
then my mum
who expects me to still help her with everything at home
IM REALLY NOT SUPERWOMAN LEH
i dunno what to do la seriously.
i dunno what she wants.
she puts so much pressure on my sku work de.
now she doesnt say it tt much
but i know. i know she wants me to do well.
i know she will be upset or even angry if otherwise.
so i try. i study.
but all she noes is to expect all those from me...
she hasnt shown ANY support at all.
she hasnt allowed me to conc on my studies at all.
she wants me to help her with home stuff
then how study?
24 hours is already not enough!
she sees me coming home late almost everyday
then sleep so late everyday
then cannot wake up every morning
and she scolds me for every one of those.
what can i say.
im too tired and exasperated to explain.
tt will take a long time.
but i really wanna tell her...
i hope. really hope.
that she can understand
TRY to understand maybe?
my dad is lost case la i dun care him le la
he totally hopeless le i just hope he leaves me alone
mum...i want to talk to her.
but i dunno how to put everything to her nicely.
i think. no, i WILL cry de.
sure cry de.
i want to let her know clearly
i want to tell her what i feel what i think
what i am going thru.
i want to tell her
i know she's tired too
i know my dad is making her even more tired.
he is disturbing both of us in every way.
it's quite sad he's so lonely at home pretty much ignored
but we cant help it. seriously.
cant take that much.
i also want to tell mum that
i hope to conc on my studies
and do well
do myself proud
do her proud
and earn lots of money for her next time :(
just now go bathe saw some stuff left for me to do
i felt so upset that i cried quite hard in the bathroom lols
feel like shouting and screaming everything out la
actually i was.
silent screaming.
i was shouting out all my tots but muted la lols.
haiz.
my eyes don't feel right now -.-
although i complain about my mum a lot
but i <3 her a lot ok :(
she has been trying hard for the family for the past i dunno how long.
she may not be doing a great job in some areas
but i know she tries hard.
i know she's having a hard time too
so i dun rly blame her la.
dad is another thing.
he's the one annoying everyone
to the extent that we too tired to bother about him la.
mum not rly doing a gd job sometimes
she makes me wonder what happened to selfless love
haha...
but im not asking for that much.
she grumbles to me that no one cares about her
her leg was injured
she said it's still not fully well yet
but no one help her
no one asked her if she was ok etc
but she nvr said it was not ok.
tt time she injured i did ask her if she was alright
she jus doesnt rmb gd stuff
only the negative stuff shines at her face
etched in her memory...
i rmb that time she cut her toe and sortof fainted
dad was flustered...sort of.
i was worried i stayed around in the living room with them
my aunt came down help too.
i was trying to see if there's anything i can do.
i dun like it that she says we dun care about her.
the three of us are too similar.
tt's the problem.
we dunno how to express ourselves properly...
it's not that we dont care
but we dunno how express that care.
she doesnt either.
since young.
she NEVER cared about me before.
emotionally i mean.
to her i was leading a smooth and wonderful life since young
she nvr knew what i had gone thru
i guess i nvr shared
but i dun wanna bother her with more stuff
and some stuff...i just cant tell her.
i know what she will say.
it's rly annoying to share things with her sometimes.
no matter what i say,
even if it has NO relation to me AT ALL
she still can find sth to lecture me about
it annoys me a lot de lor.
so i usually just tell her usual stuff normal stuff
I NVR shared anything personal with her before.
coz she doesnt understand...
esp nowadays
she's having a hard time.
she's rly tired.
so she complained to me
she hope i can help her.
she says no one will care if she dies
she says me and my dad will regret treating her like tt now
she says we wont be able to do anything without her
coz she's doing everything now.
i kept quiet i nvr said anything. as usual.
i know i wont be able to control myself if i opened my mouth.
i'll get agitated. i will.
i so wanted to argue every point she made.
i wanted to tell her it's not true.
but what can i do?
i need to study. i want to
i want to do well. she wants me to do well.
my dad wants me to do well, but for the wrong reasons la.
so what should i do?
i have a lot to think about too;
i got a lot that i wanna tell her.
but seeing her so tired and everything
how can i tell her all these??
how can i tell her i wanna conc on my studies
tell her i cant help her with house stuff??
how can i let her know that
it's not that i dun care
but 我都自身难保了怎么帮她呀？
haiz.
i rly dunno what i can do.
i dunno what she wants me to do................
i want our small family of three to be happy :(
i see so many happy families around
and i rly envy them
coz i want that for our family too...
haiz. what can i do??
my parents are stubborn.
they are not ppl who accepts what others say easily
esp my dad. he doesnt listen AT ALL
so we dun bother saying already.
ears are shut anyway no point...
aiya.
aiya.
aiya. ;(( haiz.
talking about my family always makes me teary.
my parents totally no peace nowadays la.
they seldom talk de
if they talk also so hostile.
i dun like to talk to my dad also.
though he likes to bother me
i will talk to my mum sometimes
but she is so unresponsive
though i know she listens
and she isnt in the best of moods recently
so house isnt very nice now.
it's not a very conducive env to support my studying...
i cant study with a mood like this man
BUT TMR GOT CHEM TEST AND CLL TEST.............
argh. why today emo sia TSK!
just now just come fb
saw weijie's status
realise he got gf!
and they are like so...i duno how say.
i went read their walls and everything
they are having problems i think.
but when i see their stuff
i see what weijie writes...
the feeling i get is
they are so pure...
weijie really likes the girl A LOT apparently
the girl likes him a lot too
but there are problems somehow
they are on the verge of splitting.
wonder how it is now.
hope it works out.
weijie is a REEALLY nice guy la.
and from his words can tell
he really loves the girl
well he's 21 le anyway though he doesnt look like it haha :P
third time find him so mature...
but their type of love ar
so rare.
ok maybe it's not rare in msia
but it's totally impossible to find in sg la.
it's so 单纯，那么令人羡慕
那么美，清澈
it made me feel warm sort of
emoemo feeling haha
weijie has been rly great
great korkor.
that time he comfort me when jacket stolen
run down buy tissue for me etc
he's really that nice
but he always say he nvr like girls before
say he no gf
cheat de sia haha
i just asked him about it
he says his parents dun approve of the girl...
till now then can tts y he post on fb haha
they have their own problems too
but seems like it's ok le...
wish them all the best!
i believe they all deserve each other :D
great wonderful people like them deserve happiness...
at times like this when im feeling emo
really want someone to lean on...
i cant lean on my parents. i nvr did.
who else can i lean on?
i cant think of any :(
in sku was ok
i cant rmb if anything happened
but got maths test.
i spent too much useless time on graphing
didnt plan my time well
so couldnt finish
got 7 marks not complete.
and 1 part of Q3 dunno how do. that's 4 marks
total 30.
well. HOPEFULLY i get 19 or 20 at least :((
it's damn bad le la.
but most ppl cant finish i think
and they dunno how do in front.
well it's rly irritating for me
coz I KNOW HOW DO
i just didnt have time.
its such a pity.
only that one part dunno lor... :(
haiz. nvm. i'll work harder.
i must do better.
i really have serious problems with
time management and presentation when it comes to math
i realise...
hopefully sth can be done -.-
my presentation very bad also!
always dunno how to present.
i understand what is asked
sort of know the answer
but i dunno whether can just write the answer alone
i dunno what they are looking for.
argh dumb areas.
as time passes by
i feel more and more determined
to study
to work hard
to do well.
but.
i can't do it just by this alone.
not when i have so much more to care about
i dun wanna neglect anything else...
i know my mum is tired.
she's old already
she's been thru a lot
at this age my dad is so annoyingly annoying
(sorry limited vocab :P)
he used to help mum a lot
and he didnt bother me de
even at that time there are quarrels and everything
but it only got worse over the years...
nothing has improved.
it has deteriorated instead...
now my dad doesnt help my mum with ANYTHING.
all he does is go to work
and give us money.
well it's very impt but seriously.
he comes home and slack for the rest of the day
slump in front of the tv till dinner
after dinner tv again then sleep.
then like to anyhow waste money.
we not happy about it
but he earned the money. what can we say?
he still can come tell me he very tired that day
the only chore he do at home now is wash plates
sometimes he lazy then even dishes also dun wan wash la
for goodness sake
WHO IS NOT TIRED?!?!?
he is relatively much slacker liao leh.
my mum is rly tired. he should noe!
my mum totally give up on him liao la.
gradually giving up on me too
i dunno what i did man.
i really dunno what she wants from me.
if i can i want to meet her requirements
i want to.
but im also tired.
and i rly dunno how to accomplish EVERYTHING...
now, i really just wanna conc on my studies
and NOTHING else
but then to go uni
we need a nice portfolio
we need leadership skills
we need interpersonal skills
we need a lot
we need to know how to pass interviews smoothly
im having trouble with that.
so i want to take up more leadership posts hopefully
or at least join events
build up character too.
but mum doesnt like it.
she always complains about me busy with too much stuff.
she doesnt like me coming home late for uselss stuff
she doesnt understand y i have to do all these
if can i also dun wan do ANY of it la
im a treasurer in class
im the PW leader
and then i have to balance sku work
which im having trouble with
while facing the very nice classmates
who put even more pressure on me
then my mum
who expects me to still help her with everything at home
IM REALLY NOT SUPERWOMAN LEH
i dunno what to do la seriously.
i dunno what she wants.
she puts so much pressure on my sku work de.
now she doesnt say it tt much
but i know. i know she wants me to do well.
i know she will be upset or even angry if otherwise.
so i try. i study.
but all she noes is to expect all those from me...
she hasnt shown ANY support at all.
she hasnt allowed me to conc on my studies at all.
she wants me to help her with home stuff
then how study?
24 hours is already not enough!
she sees me coming home late almost everyday
then sleep so late everyday
then cannot wake up every morning
and she scolds me for every one of those.
what can i say.
im too tired and exasperated to explain.
tt will take a long time.
but i really wanna tell her...
i hope. really hope.
that she can understand
TRY to understand maybe?
my dad is lost case la i dun care him le la
he totally hopeless le i just hope he leaves me alone
mum...i want to talk to her.
but i dunno how to put everything to her nicely.
i think. no, i WILL cry de.
sure cry de.
i want to let her know clearly
i want to tell her what i feel what i think
what i am going thru.
i want to tell her
i know she's tired too
i know my dad is making her even more tired.
he is disturbing both of us in every way.
it's quite sad he's so lonely at home pretty much ignored
but we cant help it. seriously.
cant take that much.
i also want to tell mum that
i hope to conc on my studies
and do well
do myself proud
do her proud
and earn lots of money for her next time :(
just now go bathe saw some stuff left for me to do
i felt so upset that i cried quite hard in the bathroom lols
feel like shouting and screaming everything out la
actually i was.
silent screaming.
i was shouting out all my tots but muted la lols.
haiz.
my eyes don't feel right now -.-
although i complain about my mum a lot
but i <3 her a lot ok :(
she has been trying hard for the family for the past i dunno how long.
she may not be doing a great job in some areas
but i know she tries hard.
i know she's having a hard time too
so i dun rly blame her la.
dad is another thing.
he's the one annoying everyone
to the extent that we too tired to bother about him la.
mum not rly doing a gd job sometimes
she makes me wonder what happened to selfless love
haha...
but im not asking for that much.
she grumbles to me that no one cares about her
her leg was injured
she said it's still not fully well yet
but no one help her
no one asked her if she was ok etc
but she nvr said it was not ok.
tt time she injured i did ask her if she was alright
she jus doesnt rmb gd stuff
only the negative stuff shines at her face
etched in her memory...
i rmb that time she cut her toe and sortof fainted
dad was flustered...sort of.
i was worried i stayed around in the living room with them
my aunt came down help too.
i was trying to see if there's anything i can do.
i dun like it that she says we dun care about her.
the three of us are too similar.
tt's the problem.
we dunno how to express ourselves properly...
it's not that we dont care
but we dunno how express that care.
she doesnt either.
since young.
she NEVER cared about me before.
emotionally i mean.
to her i was leading a smooth and wonderful life since young
she nvr knew what i had gone thru
i guess i nvr shared
but i dun wanna bother her with more stuff
and some stuff...i just cant tell her.
i know what she will say.
it's rly annoying to share things with her sometimes.
no matter what i say,
even if it has NO relation to me AT ALL
she still can find sth to lecture me about
it annoys me a lot de lor.
so i usually just tell her usual stuff normal stuff
I NVR shared anything personal with her before.
coz she doesnt understand...
esp nowadays
she's having a hard time.
she's rly tired.
so she complained to me
she hope i can help her.
she says no one will care if she dies
she says me and my dad will regret treating her like tt now
she says we wont be able to do anything without her
coz she's doing everything now.
i kept quiet i nvr said anything. as usual.
i know i wont be able to control myself if i opened my mouth.
i'll get agitated. i will.
i so wanted to argue every point she made.
i wanted to tell her it's not true.
but what can i do?
i need to study. i want to
i want to do well. she wants me to do well.
my dad wants me to do well, but for the wrong reasons la.
so what should i do?
i have a lot to think about too;
i got a lot that i wanna tell her.
but seeing her so tired and everything
how can i tell her all these??
how can i tell her i wanna conc on my studies
tell her i cant help her with house stuff??
how can i let her know that
it's not that i dun care
but 我都自身难保了怎么帮她呀？
haiz.
i rly dunno what i can do.
i dunno what she wants me to do................
i want our small family of three to be happy :(
i see so many happy families around
and i rly envy them
coz i want that for our family too...
haiz. what can i do??
my parents are stubborn.
they are not ppl who accepts what others say easily
esp my dad. he doesnt listen AT ALL
so we dun bother saying already.
ears are shut anyway no point...
aiya.
aiya.
aiya. ;(( haiz.
talking about my family always makes me teary.
my parents totally no peace nowadays la.
they seldom talk de
if they talk also so hostile.
i dun like to talk to my dad also.
though he likes to bother me
i will talk to my mum sometimes
but she is so unresponsive
though i know she listens
and she isnt in the best of moods recently
so house isnt very nice now.
it's not a very conducive env to support my studying...
i cant study with a mood like this man
BUT TMR GOT CHEM TEST AND CLL TEST.............
argh. why today emo sia TSK!
just now just come fb
saw weijie's status
realise he got gf!
and they are like so...i duno how say.
i went read their walls and everything
they are having problems i think.
but when i see their stuff
i see what weijie writes...
the feeling i get is
they are so pure...
weijie really likes the girl A LOT apparently
the girl likes him a lot too
but there are problems somehow
they are on the verge of splitting.
wonder how it is now.
hope it works out.
weijie is a REEALLY nice guy la.
and from his words can tell
he really loves the girl
well he's 21 le anyway though he doesnt look like it haha :P
third time find him so mature...
but their type of love ar
so rare.
ok maybe it's not rare in msia
but it's totally impossible to find in sg la.
it's so 单纯，那么令人羡慕
那么美，清澈
it made me feel warm sort of
emoemo feeling haha
weijie has been rly great
great korkor.
that time he comfort me when jacket stolen
run down buy tissue for me etc
he's really that nice
but he always say he nvr like girls before
say he no gf
cheat de sia haha
i just asked him about it
he says his parents dun approve of the girl...
till now then can tts y he post on fb haha
they have their own problems too
but seems like it's ok le...
wish them all the best!
i believe they all deserve each other :D
great wonderful people like them deserve happiness...
at times like this when im feeling emo
really want someone to lean on...
i cant lean on my parents. i nvr did.
who else can i lean on?
i cant think of any :(
2010-05-18
2.4
today ran 2.4 for pe!!
mock napfa ma
6 rounds round the track
sianz sia
i dun like...
sec sku went east coast run much better
it's just 1 round
one LOONG round but ya haha
and the place nicer
i dun like going round and round...
and east coast only 2.2 hahaha :D:D
my timing was 15:x5
i dunno what's x i didn't hear properly
i think it's 5 not sure
so lousy :(
i sec sku although is 2.2 :P but
i think it was 13+ wor.
but not bad le la
i stopped three times. once to tie my shoelace
so rest a SHOORT while
second time is 5th round
very tired so rest a while.
last round stopped again at half the rnd
then walk a bit so that can chiong the rest :D
i always like that de la
muz last bit rest and then CHIONGG hahahaha
:D:D
today was feeling determined to study leh actually
esp for maths.
dunno y
probably coz veron is scaring me
as well as the maths god named koon hwa...
but then it was just for a while HAHAHA
think of gpp then sianz le
i on com play a while till now.
then hmm think going do gpp ba haiz.
at least csc is over.
today maths lecture
we finished the last bit of functions
then started on differentiation
the bit that's out of syllabus sucks man
dunno what cher talking
haha actually ok la
half understand but pretty confusing.
then actual stuff.
SO CHIM :(
linear, product, chain, quotient
basics we learnt before
i still okay with it
then all the weird trigo stuff come in
DIEDIEDIE.
i like trigo
i like differentiation
(I MUST BE MAD BUT YA...)
but i dun like them TOGETHER!!! :(
tsk...
MAIN THING IS
I DIDNT FALL ASLEEP TODAY!!! :D:D
oh well for maths at least
econs slept quite a lot.
chem also.
and others always get caught while i escape unscathed HAHA
chem i sleep a lot right in front of cher summore
she didnt catch me
but she did catch another girl!! LOL
one more thing.
today lunchtime ar
elaine was telling me something
i cant rmb what it is
then i made a very lame comment
as usual lor to me.
then she laughed!
i didnt mean it as a joke even
it was just a lame comment HAHA
i always do that what
then she say:"i didnt noe u can tell jokes"
then i was like HUH??
lols she dunno only lor.
lame comments are common for me...
it's just not that much around them
coz they pretty serious usu
and they dun rly say stuff that i can
make lame comments about. haha.
unlike shuting they all HAHA
anything also can de la :D hehe...
we are going to have clique outing soon!!
VESAK DAY!
OH MY I FORGOT ASK MUM
aiya sianz scared she scold.
and i wanna go CO CONCERT!!! :((( haiz.
anyway...back to the point.
vesak day think we going seoul garden
or sing k.
always k haha
i like la but my voice no gd la :(
and now like worse so hmm i shouldnt go haha :P
if not waste my money.
seoul garden would be gd enough :D:D:D
mock napfa ma
6 rounds round the track
sianz sia
i dun like...
sec sku went east coast run much better
it's just 1 round
one LOONG round but ya haha
and the place nicer
i dun like going round and round...
and east coast only 2.2 hahaha :D:D
my timing was 15:x5
i dunno what's x i didn't hear properly
i think it's 5 not sure
so lousy :(
i sec sku although is 2.2 :P but
i think it was 13+ wor.
but not bad le la
i stopped three times. once to tie my shoelace
so rest a SHOORT while
second time is 5th round
very tired so rest a while.
last round stopped again at half the rnd
then walk a bit so that can chiong the rest :D
i always like that de la
muz last bit rest and then CHIONGG hahahaha
:D:D
today was feeling determined to study leh actually
esp for maths.
dunno y
probably coz veron is scaring me
as well as the maths god named koon hwa...
but then it was just for a while HAHAHA
think of gpp then sianz le
i on com play a while till now.
then hmm think going do gpp ba haiz.
at least csc is over.
today maths lecture
we finished the last bit of functions
then started on differentiation
the bit that's out of syllabus sucks man
dunno what cher talking
haha actually ok la
half understand but pretty confusing.
then actual stuff.
SO CHIM :(
linear, product, chain, quotient
basics we learnt before
i still okay with it
then all the weird trigo stuff come in
DIEDIEDIE.
i like trigo
i like differentiation
(I MUST BE MAD BUT YA...)
but i dun like them TOGETHER!!! :(
tsk...
MAIN THING IS
I DIDNT FALL ASLEEP TODAY!!! :D:D
oh well for maths at least
econs slept quite a lot.
chem also.
and others always get caught while i escape unscathed HAHA
chem i sleep a lot right in front of cher summore
she didnt catch me
but she did catch another girl!! LOL
one more thing.
today lunchtime ar
elaine was telling me something
i cant rmb what it is
then i made a very lame comment
as usual lor to me.
then she laughed!
i didnt mean it as a joke even
it was just a lame comment HAHA
i always do that what
then she say:"i didnt noe u can tell jokes"
then i was like HUH??
lols she dunno only lor.
lame comments are common for me...
it's just not that much around them
coz they pretty serious usu
and they dun rly say stuff that i can
make lame comments about. haha.
unlike shuting they all HAHA
anything also can de la :D hehe...
we are going to have clique outing soon!!
VESAK DAY!
OH MY I FORGOT ASK MUM
aiya sianz scared she scold.
and i wanna go CO CONCERT!!! :((( haiz.
anyway...back to the point.
vesak day think we going seoul garden
or sing k.
always k haha
i like la but my voice no gd la :(
and now like worse so hmm i shouldnt go haha :P
if not waste my money.
seoul garden would be gd enough :D:D:D
2010-05-11
11/5/10
the supplier for the class tee
is soooo troublesome!!
supposed to meet him in bedok interchange at 6+ de
then he still with customer so cant make it
so ask us make cash deposit into his acc
bedok dun have!!!!coz mine is posb ma
then I SW SHUTING!
LOL LONG TIME NO SEE MAN
and she had to keep suaning me -.-
hahahaha but i did too la
i missed all of them........
it's so much nicer with them arnd.
they understand better.
heard she tops her class in mjc HAHA
im surprised :P hehe
but well...tt's great.
:D
anyway she brought me to the nearest bank
there got posb atm that can do cash deposit
so yepp done. haha THANKFULLY :D
I WAN MEET WITH ALL OF THEM AGAIN!!!! :(((
is soooo troublesome!!
supposed to meet him in bedok interchange at 6+ de
then he still with customer so cant make it
so ask us make cash deposit into his acc
bedok dun have!!!!coz mine is posb ma
then I SW SHUTING!
LOL LONG TIME NO SEE MAN
and she had to keep suaning me -.-
hahahaha but i did too la
i missed all of them........
it's so much nicer with them arnd.
they understand better.
heard she tops her class in mjc HAHA
im surprised :P hehe
but well...tt's great.
:D
anyway she brought me to the nearest bank
there got posb atm that can do cash deposit
so yepp done. haha THANKFULLY :D
I WAN MEET WITH ALL OF THEM AGAIN!!!! :(((
10/5/10
HELLO :D
this morning
couldnt wake up again
mum was as usual, very angry.
nagged la lols.
scolded me.
say wan go buy cane to wake me up -.-
wadeva~
she say i hear earphones too much
so deaf liao
cannot hear alarm
but tt's not the case
who can't hear the alarm is TRULY deaf.
it's loud
but it's music.....
so well haha
and the pt is
i was just REALLY VERY TIRED
tt's y i couldnt wake up...
nth got to do with alarm what~
really really tired
i just wanted to sleep
brain ignores signals from ear
that says the alarm is ringing, get up.
totally rejects that idea :P
whatever la dun care her.
i try to wake up...
try.
but it's hard
coz ytd was dng gpp till pretty late.
but my bad la
coz after that i went play for a while :P
coz i was feeling damn sianz
and being an "owl" i was feeling awake
so i went play.
i went the sims!! HAHAHA
old game la seriously. :P
anyway i created a family with
mr ang and his wife HAHAHAHAHA
it was quite fun HAHA
later go play a while if got time :P hehe
say until mr ang ar
im SOOO not used to the idea of him not being in sku
i keep forgetting...
every morning i will go canteen ma
almost always see him walk past de
now i cant look out anymore
and i cannot randomly disturb him
when he's in the staffroom
cannot ask him questions when there's any
it's so boring and irritating HAHA
no la. well.
it was quite entertaining to talk to him
nah, i mean disturb him. :P
but well suddenly all cannot le.
today after pw lecture
me n elaine walking towards lt2 for econs lecture
passed by mrs tan
i smiled at her i think elaine did too
so she smiled back. a bit.
elaine says she cannot recognise us :( lols.
so sad :(
i want mr ang back!!!
then we can enthu-ly shout HI MR ANG
HAHAHAHAHAHA
econs lecture
i was pretty awake de leh
very guai lor
i ownself read notes
nvr listen to lecturer HAHA
highlight the notes
(i always overhighlight)
godwin was amazed at the amt i highlight
as a lot ppl say
he asked me
why i dun just highlight whole paper HAAHAHA
whatever :PPPPP
tt's my way, my style :P
but after a while
i fell asleep -.-
hahahahahha
a while la
about ten mins haha
then woke up
continue.
didnt highlight much le
coz i missed a bit of the lecture
so i just listened to whatever the cher was saying
i realised that lecturer is quite okay.
well he's A BIT humourous
though he sounds a bit monotone
he seems nice. quite a good lecturer i guess
((: tt's gd.
OH YA TODAY ECONS TUTORIAL
coz last time no comparison
we could only say ms lai is not a gd teacher etc
now i can reeally say
MS LAI SUCKS MAN!
MRS LIM IS 1000X BETTER THAN MS LAI LA
#)(%*()Q&#%)(*&@#^)(*&
WHY MS LAI NOW THEN GO??!?!
make me fail 1 test and just pass for the other one.
hmph~
actually i think i wouldnt do well anyway
even if it was mrs lim teaching
HAHA
but she can explain well.
she's detailed
and she's experienced.
SHE CAN TEACH ECONS!!!!! HAHA
today she teach
i could really feeeeeell the difference
btw her and ms lai's teaching la
LOL GOOD RIDDANCE TO MS LAI :D hehe...
gp lesson was gp lesson
boring.
but pretty short.
then we went good news buy stuff hehe
ms ong was nice
but they scared get caught so ate at the cafe
which is really mean to ms ong
so we halfway then quickly sneak up back
if not ms ong gonna kill us :P
PW LESSON~
well discussed about gpp
me as the leader
was instructing stuff la
ms ong came and help us a lot today
so i told susan to take down some stuff etc lor
i had planned the schedule ytd le
but did so much editing today
coz apparently it wasnt good :P
now should be better le la
though shermaine not willing
to be in charge of written report :PPPP
whatever, dun care.
susan say her el no gd
i put zk then zk dun wan so i changed to shermaine
then aiya cannot keep change so fixed.
HAHA :P then plan for next meet up lor.
zhekang i/c this thing (game plot) so
yepp ask her arrange the meet up lor...
we talked a bit
there was digressing a bit la.
i told susan and zhenyan
that jct is so scary
coz the timetable is out le ma
it's damn scary
nvr had exams on the subs b4
i rly dunno what to expect
esp when im not coping well with econs.
and i havent studied for the rest yet either...
so i was rly worried...
i told susan and zhenyan
then they again,
dun believe me
say i will still score well de.
ask me shut up
lols everyone is the same la seriously
i think they mentioned maths
but i think i heard wrongly o.O
if they did mention maths
then i rly wanna roll my eyes
i have 6 exams leh
who says i am worried for maths in particular
always maths maths maths
so what IIFFFF i rly did well for maths???!
tt wasnt what got me rly worried what...
and for goodness sake
why zhenyan also like tt :(
she quite hardworking de
and she's pretty smart
her results are not bad leh
dun see her supporting me still :(
I WAN CHARLYNNNNNNNNN BACKKK
coz char is smarter
so she understands
my clique understands
they nvr responded like this
even if some of them are weaker
they wont be like this...
even char who is so damn much smarter
still complains and still worries...
why cant i.......................
tsk.
but there's no one i can complain to
without being asked to shut my mouth up.
lols. whatever
IM REALLY WORRIED WHAT
JCT IS SO DAMN SCARY!
MY BLOG!!! OH MY BLOG!!!!!!! HAHAHAHA
haiz.
CHEM AND CSC EXAM ON SAME DAY SUMMORE LEH
WTH LOR @)$!(*#%&(*#%^)#)^
and cll first paper!!!!
cham la
june i very busy leh
dunno enough time to study anot.
today went mazarin briefing
june 2 and june 4 for mazarin thing.............
june 7-10 is clep camp.
haiz so many days gone :(
my mum so bad mood nowadays leh how sia
today want stay back for briefing
so i called her to tell her ma
then she wasnt happy liao sia
how tell her
i june a lot things ar???!!?
and MOST IMPORTANTLY!!
need pay $43 for pullover + class tee leh..........
TOMORROW LEH
HOWWWW
i dunno how tell mum
she sure scold me kill me or sth like tt la
havent asked yet :((
sure ask me can dun buy anot la.
i told her before we are getting a pullover actually
she's not happy with the idea
coz it's a pullover.
inconvenient and everything lols.
and $$$$$$$$
didnt let her know we got tee too yet leh
summore pay both tgt
DAMN EX :(
how???? HAHA
should ask my dad first
then pay tmr
wait mum gd mood then tell her.................
hehe.
always like this de.........
she bad mood
everything cannot
gd mood
all become ok la ok la
HAHAHA
i shall be patient........
this morning
couldnt wake up again
mum was as usual, very angry.
nagged la lols.
scolded me.
say wan go buy cane to wake me up -.-
wadeva~
she say i hear earphones too much
so deaf liao
cannot hear alarm
but tt's not the case
who can't hear the alarm is TRULY deaf.
it's loud
but it's music.....
so well haha
and the pt is
i was just REALLY VERY TIRED
tt's y i couldnt wake up...
nth got to do with alarm what~
really really tired
i just wanted to sleep
brain ignores signals from ear
that says the alarm is ringing, get up.
totally rejects that idea :P
whatever la dun care her.
i try to wake up...
try.
but it's hard
coz ytd was dng gpp till pretty late.
but my bad la
coz after that i went play for a while :P
coz i was feeling damn sianz
and being an "owl" i was feeling awake
so i went play.
i went the sims!! HAHAHA
old game la seriously. :P
anyway i created a family with
mr ang and his wife HAHAHAHAHA
it was quite fun HAHA
later go play a while if got time :P hehe
say until mr ang ar
im SOOO not used to the idea of him not being in sku
i keep forgetting...
every morning i will go canteen ma
almost always see him walk past de
now i cant look out anymore
and i cannot randomly disturb him
when he's in the staffroom
cannot ask him questions when there's any
it's so boring and irritating HAHA
no la. well.
it was quite entertaining to talk to him
nah, i mean disturb him. :P
but well suddenly all cannot le.
today after pw lecture
me n elaine walking towards lt2 for econs lecture
passed by mrs tan
i smiled at her i think elaine did too
so she smiled back. a bit.
elaine says she cannot recognise us :( lols.
so sad :(
i want mr ang back!!!
then we can enthu-ly shout HI MR ANG
HAHAHAHAHAHA
econs lecture
i was pretty awake de leh
very guai lor
i ownself read notes
nvr listen to lecturer HAHA
highlight the notes
(i always overhighlight)
godwin was amazed at the amt i highlight
as a lot ppl say
he asked me
why i dun just highlight whole paper HAAHAHA
whatever :PPPPP
tt's my way, my style :P
but after a while
i fell asleep -.-
hahahahahha
a while la
about ten mins haha
then woke up
continue.
didnt highlight much le
coz i missed a bit of the lecture
so i just listened to whatever the cher was saying
i realised that lecturer is quite okay.
well he's A BIT humourous
though he sounds a bit monotone
he seems nice. quite a good lecturer i guess
((: tt's gd.
OH YA TODAY ECONS TUTORIAL
coz last time no comparison
we could only say ms lai is not a gd teacher etc
now i can reeally say
MS LAI SUCKS MAN!
MRS LIM IS 1000X BETTER THAN MS LAI LA
#)(%*()Q&#%)(*&@#^)(*&
WHY MS LAI NOW THEN GO??!?!
make me fail 1 test and just pass for the other one.
hmph~
actually i think i wouldnt do well anyway
even if it was mrs lim teaching
HAHA
but she can explain well.
she's detailed
and she's experienced.
SHE CAN TEACH ECONS!!!!! HAHA
today she teach
i could really feeeeeell the difference
btw her and ms lai's teaching la
LOL GOOD RIDDANCE TO MS LAI :D hehe...
gp lesson was gp lesson
boring.
but pretty short.
then we went good news buy stuff hehe
ms ong was nice
but they scared get caught so ate at the cafe
which is really mean to ms ong
so we halfway then quickly sneak up back
if not ms ong gonna kill us :P
PW LESSON~
well discussed about gpp
me as the leader
was instructing stuff la
ms ong came and help us a lot today
so i told susan to take down some stuff etc lor
i had planned the schedule ytd le
but did so much editing today
coz apparently it wasnt good :P
now should be better le la
though shermaine not willing
to be in charge of written report :PPPP
whatever, dun care.
susan say her el no gd
i put zk then zk dun wan so i changed to shermaine
then aiya cannot keep change so fixed.
HAHA :P then plan for next meet up lor.
zhekang i/c this thing (game plot) so
yepp ask her arrange the meet up lor...
we talked a bit
there was digressing a bit la.
i told susan and zhenyan
that jct is so scary
coz the timetable is out le ma
it's damn scary
nvr had exams on the subs b4
i rly dunno what to expect
esp when im not coping well with econs.
and i havent studied for the rest yet either...
so i was rly worried...
i told susan and zhenyan
then they again,
dun believe me
say i will still score well de.
ask me shut up
lols everyone is the same la seriously
i think they mentioned maths
but i think i heard wrongly o.O
if they did mention maths
then i rly wanna roll my eyes
i have 6 exams leh
who says i am worried for maths in particular
always maths maths maths
so what IIFFFF i rly did well for maths???!
tt wasnt what got me rly worried what...
and for goodness sake
why zhenyan also like tt :(
she quite hardworking de
and she's pretty smart
her results are not bad leh
dun see her supporting me still :(
I WAN CHARLYNNNNNNNNN BACKKK
coz char is smarter
so she understands
my clique understands
they nvr responded like this
even if some of them are weaker
they wont be like this...
even char who is so damn much smarter
still complains and still worries...
why cant i.......................
tsk.
but there's no one i can complain to
without being asked to shut my mouth up.
lols. whatever
IM REALLY WORRIED WHAT
JCT IS SO DAMN SCARY!
MY BLOG!!! OH MY BLOG!!!!!!! HAHAHAHA
haiz.
CHEM AND CSC EXAM ON SAME DAY SUMMORE LEH
WTH LOR @)$!(*#%&(*#%^)#)^
and cll first paper!!!!
cham la
june i very busy leh
dunno enough time to study anot.
today went mazarin briefing
june 2 and june 4 for mazarin thing.............
june 7-10 is clep camp.
haiz so many days gone :(
my mum so bad mood nowadays leh how sia
today want stay back for briefing
so i called her to tell her ma
then she wasnt happy liao sia
how tell her
i june a lot things ar???!!?
and MOST IMPORTANTLY!!
need pay $43 for pullover + class tee leh..........
TOMORROW LEH
HOWWWW
i dunno how tell mum
she sure scold me kill me or sth like tt la
havent asked yet :((
sure ask me can dun buy anot la.
i told her before we are getting a pullover actually
she's not happy with the idea
coz it's a pullover.
inconvenient and everything lols.
and $$$$$$$$
didnt let her know we got tee too yet leh
summore pay both tgt
DAMN EX :(
how???? HAHA
should ask my dad first
then pay tmr
wait mum gd mood then tell her.................
hehe.
always like this de.........
she bad mood
everything cannot
gd mood
all become ok la ok la
HAHAHA
i shall be patient........
2010-05-04
Well not xactly well today
but much better :D
so yea i went to sku!! :D:D
it was fine la
coughed a bit here n there in morning
first period was chem
our actual teacher mrs sherry low came back from maternity leave
so had 1 round of intro first
and 30/10 HAS A NEW MEMBER :D
my first ever non-chinese classmate actually
think she's indian ba o.O
but in a class like ours
i wont get to know her well anyway
she's a senior o.O from 28/09 previously i think.
changed combi so redo J1 lor.
hopefully my chem will improve............
HOPEFULLY :D
MATHS LECTURE
halway thru sot leh
throat super super super itchy
so kept coughing and coughing
disturbed the people around me quite a bit i guess
so sorry but i couldnt help it
drank a lot of water.
i finished the whole bottle actually
but it didnt help i wonder y
i just couldnt stop coughing
argh.......
anyway we have 4 periods continuous break today ma
so we went library after lunch
slacked la actually
nvr rly do much :P
after that was maths lesson le la
i volunteered for question 7 ma
then the devil side of mr ang showed HAHA
no la he was joking but anyway
he say i think question 7 need present.
then he over there laughing
so i go OI him lor hahahahaha
damn evil. gu yi de :P
after tt he gave out the good news vouchers
whole class de
then maths rep
then cg rep
then best maths student aka me LOL
then very funny la.
coz shubei wasnt listening
so cher purposely ask her listen first
then say his fav student
shubei! then she was like yay
so happy la HAHA
after that i think cher didnt hear la
shubei say
他不是在跟我表白吧？HAHAHAHAHHAHHA
DAMN FUNNNNYYY LA HAHAHAHAHAHA
she damn cute la HAHAHA
PE! TODAY I MC FOR PE
THEN THEY GOT PE BREAK LEH?!??!?!?
WTH?!?!??!
I DAMN SUAY CAN!!!! TSSSKKK
THEY BULLY ME DE LOR!
basically they all went play captains ball tgt
only me n zhekang not with them
zk go join her fren somewhr else
so i watched them play captains ball
took a few photos too (:
might put them on fb someday
when i feel like it HAHA
got 1 unglam photo of sarah too HAHAHAHA
she danced to barbie girl
but i didnt capture that
SADLY HAHAHAHA
nvm i told mr ang to do that tmr! HAHAHAHA
MR ANG REALLY LEAVING LEH! petition failed
coz 1) we'll be banded into 3 classes after JCT
so no point la
2) if let us ar scared other classes follow suit
then very chaotic...
zzz but it's so sad :((((
but much better :D
so yea i went to sku!! :D:D
it was fine la
coughed a bit here n there in morning
first period was chem
our actual teacher mrs sherry low came back from maternity leave
so had 1 round of intro first
and 30/10 HAS A NEW MEMBER :D
my first ever non-chinese classmate actually
think she's indian ba o.O
but in a class like ours
i wont get to know her well anyway
she's a senior o.O from 28/09 previously i think.
changed combi so redo J1 lor.
hopefully my chem will improve............
HOPEFULLY :D
MATHS LECTURE
halway thru sot leh
throat super super super itchy
so kept coughing and coughing
disturbed the people around me quite a bit i guess
so sorry but i couldnt help it
drank a lot of water.
i finished the whole bottle actually
but it didnt help i wonder y
i just couldnt stop coughing
argh.......
anyway we have 4 periods continuous break today ma
so we went library after lunch
slacked la actually
nvr rly do much :P
after that was maths lesson le la
i volunteered for question 7 ma
then the devil side of mr ang showed HAHA
no la he was joking but anyway
he say i think question 7 need present.
then he over there laughing
so i go OI him lor hahahahaha
damn evil. gu yi de :P
after tt he gave out the good news vouchers
whole class de
then maths rep
then cg rep
then best maths student aka me LOL
then very funny la.
coz shubei wasnt listening
so cher purposely ask her listen first
then say his fav student
shubei! then she was like yay
so happy la HAHA
after that i think cher didnt hear la
shubei say
他不是在跟我表白吧？HAHAHAHAHHAHHA
DAMN FUNNNNYYY LA HAHAHAHAHAHA
she damn cute la HAHAHA
PE! TODAY I MC FOR PE
THEN THEY GOT PE BREAK LEH?!??!?!?
WTH?!?!??!
I DAMN SUAY CAN!!!! TSSSKKK
THEY BULLY ME DE LOR!
basically they all went play captains ball tgt
only me n zhekang not with them
zk go join her fren somewhr else
so i watched them play captains ball
took a few photos too (:
might put them on fb someday
when i feel like it HAHA
got 1 unglam photo of sarah too HAHAHAHA
she danced to barbie girl
but i didnt capture that
SADLY HAHAHAHA
nvm i told mr ang to do that tmr! HAHAHAHA
MR ANG REALLY LEAVING LEH! petition failed
coz 1) we'll be banded into 3 classes after JCT
so no point la
2) if let us ar scared other classes follow suit
then very chaotic...
zzz but it's so sad :((((
2010-05-01
30/4 + 1/5
today ran2.2km during pe! Got up slope summore!!
completed it in 14mins8sec hmm not bad ba? lols hope 2.4 will be fine.
But 2.4 is on track leh tt's bad.
last time in ahs ar 2.4 is run in east coast de
tt was better lor! haha :D
after pe ar i bought a very gasey apple juice
drink until so super bloated very uncomfortable o.O
zzz then after tt
my throat started to feel very uncomfortable.
badbad feeling...
then felt nauseous too
very sensitive to smells
as in easily nauseous when there are smells
no matter plesant or not
lunchtime mr ang advised me to get a fruit juice
so i bought watermelon juice.
it helped :D
after sku went find mr ang :D
let him browse thru the petition ma~
he looked really happy :D hahahaha
well then he went into staffroom again
coz i had to ask mrs goh out ma
mrs goh say hopes aren't high sia :(
so sad~why not high?!?! we all really want him to stay!
mrs goh say she will read the petition letter
in detail and see our class's sentiments first
but well hopes aren't high o.O
zzzzzz!!
after that met mr ang again
asked him a bit maths from the book then
sort of discussed the maths a bit o.o hmm..
i got a bad feeling about maths -.-
argh jy lor what else...
after that went wait for supplier for pullover.
i started coughing! that's bad
plus my throat uncomfortable ma
so even more nauseous. tsk...
anyway the supplier 1+ say reaching reaching
then after tt say 4 meet.
int he end we wait till like 4.30 like tt he also haven come
till about near 5 then he come
ealine had to leave so i helped her la
well he only brought 1 size leh!!!
so we aren't sure what size we can wear...
he say will give the measurements to elaine
the quality is good
but a bit thick...
it will be very warm!
aiya see how elaine wants it lor.
i juz ask him discuss with elaine haha...
coz i dunno what she wants.
argh i could feel myself getting sick
but i dun wanna mc for next week
hopefully will be fine by tuesday :D
i dun wan to miss any of mr ang's lessons!
precious time left! only 3 lessons :(
then we listened to shubei's singing
coz she recorded and put into her ipod ma
DAMN NICE :D shubei can actually sing :D
DAMN WELL summore wow we were truly surprised hehe
the voice doesnt quite fit her face
but well it was excellent
after that she and liou jing sang live :D hahahaha
i recorded a bit but too noisy so not nice :(
at night went see doctor!
queue damn long. apparently a lot ppl sick...
when we went our queue number is 16
doctor still seeing 5th.
so we went walk a bit then go back.
total waited like about an hour or so...
doctor say my throat inflammed
flu a bit and slight fever.
ytd take at clinic was 37.8...
so he gave me mc for today
coz today got flag day de initially.
oh and he actually excused me from 1 week pe!
that's like damn excellent?? hahahaha :D
but then two weeks later is mock napfa
dunno is good thing to miss pe anot
BUT CAN SLACK LEH!! HAHA
hmm im jus worried for broad jump la actually...
at night ate medicine
A LOT SIA!! :(
4 diff tablets and a cough syrup.
the fever de need eat 2 summore
so total is 5 tablets!! :(
the syrup and fever med will cause drowsiness de
so well was damn tired after tt
fell asleep sitting on my chair then sit on my floor
in mum's room and fell asleep again
11+ went sleep le.
1/5
yay no flag day today! :D
today 8+ mum woke me up before she went to pjs
asked me eat medicine and the porridge.
i eat the fever med ar
1st one no prob
2nd one weirdweird...
felt very nauseous once i eat
then really vomited
but i dunno what was it that i vomited la
looks like phlegm to me -.-
argh hope the medicine not all vomited out -.-
zzz
ate porridge then fell asleep for a short while again
thanks to the medicine -.-
then ate the rest of the med which are after food de
then here i am :D
looks like it will be hard to finish any work this weekend le la.
sianz :(
completed it in 14mins8sec hmm not bad ba? lols hope 2.4 will be fine.
But 2.4 is on track leh tt's bad.
last time in ahs ar 2.4 is run in east coast de
tt was better lor! haha :D
after pe ar i bought a very gasey apple juice
drink until so super bloated very uncomfortable o.O
zzz then after tt
my throat started to feel very uncomfortable.
badbad feeling...
then felt nauseous too
very sensitive to smells
as in easily nauseous when there are smells
no matter plesant or not
lunchtime mr ang advised me to get a fruit juice
so i bought watermelon juice.
it helped :D
after sku went find mr ang :D
let him browse thru the petition ma~
he looked really happy :D hahahaha
well then he went into staffroom again
coz i had to ask mrs goh out ma
mrs goh say hopes aren't high sia :(
so sad~why not high?!?! we all really want him to stay!
mrs goh say she will read the petition letter
in detail and see our class's sentiments first
but well hopes aren't high o.O
zzzzzz!!
after that met mr ang again
asked him a bit maths from the book then
sort of discussed the maths a bit o.o hmm..
i got a bad feeling about maths -.-
argh jy lor what else...
after that went wait for supplier for pullover.
i started coughing! that's bad
plus my throat uncomfortable ma
so even more nauseous. tsk...
anyway the supplier 1+ say reaching reaching
then after tt say 4 meet.
int he end we wait till like 4.30 like tt he also haven come
till about near 5 then he come
ealine had to leave so i helped her la
well he only brought 1 size leh!!!
so we aren't sure what size we can wear...
he say will give the measurements to elaine
the quality is good
but a bit thick...
it will be very warm!
aiya see how elaine wants it lor.
i juz ask him discuss with elaine haha...
coz i dunno what she wants.
argh i could feel myself getting sick
but i dun wanna mc for next week
hopefully will be fine by tuesday :D
i dun wan to miss any of mr ang's lessons!
precious time left! only 3 lessons :(
then we listened to shubei's singing
coz she recorded and put into her ipod ma
DAMN NICE :D shubei can actually sing :D
DAMN WELL summore wow we were truly surprised hehe
the voice doesnt quite fit her face
but well it was excellent
after that she and liou jing sang live :D hahahaha
i recorded a bit but too noisy so not nice :(
at night went see doctor!
queue damn long. apparently a lot ppl sick...
when we went our queue number is 16
doctor still seeing 5th.
so we went walk a bit then go back.
total waited like about an hour or so...
doctor say my throat inflammed
flu a bit and slight fever.
ytd take at clinic was 37.8...
so he gave me mc for today
coz today got flag day de initially.
oh and he actually excused me from 1 week pe!
that's like damn excellent?? hahahaha :D
but then two weeks later is mock napfa
dunno is good thing to miss pe anot
BUT CAN SLACK LEH!! HAHA
hmm im jus worried for broad jump la actually...
at night ate medicine
A LOT SIA!! :(
4 diff tablets and a cough syrup.
the fever de need eat 2 summore
so total is 5 tablets!! :(
the syrup and fever med will cause drowsiness de
so well was damn tired after tt
fell asleep sitting on my chair then sit on my floor
in mum's room and fell asleep again
11+ went sleep le.
1/5
yay no flag day today! :D
today 8+ mum woke me up before she went to pjs
asked me eat medicine and the porridge.
i eat the fever med ar
1st one no prob
2nd one weirdweird...
felt very nauseous once i eat
then really vomited
but i dunno what was it that i vomited la
looks like phlegm to me -.-
argh hope the medicine not all vomited out -.-
zzz
ate porridge then fell asleep for a short while again
thanks to the medicine -.-
then ate the rest of the med which are after food de
then here i am :D
looks like it will be hard to finish any work this weekend le la.
sianz :(
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