just a few things

yepp as the title says...

i think it's pretty sad that my class aka 30/10 is sort of split into two...
i dunno why la...should be coz of
the extremely diff thinking/tastes/preferences ba...
anyway ar it's just so sad. like...we are one class what...
but then for my group ar we also have our own opinions
but we've been asking for their opinions and trying our best to satisfy them le
some of our opinions are overlooked coz we have to use theirs
but i'm curious. why they never give in de ar -.-
and y are they still unhappy?
i'd rather everyone make it clear what they are unhappy about
and we can hold a PROPER discussion
it's MUCH better than saying it's ok it's ok when it's totally NOT ok
lols i never actually got angry at others before excluding my family la
i do get impatient with my good friends sometimes but tt's all lor
but this time i got pretty agitated lols
i dun really know y la...probably coz i see elaine getting soo
upset over all these
and yet people are not putting in effort to make all these better
it's like only their opinions matter....
no offense la seriously...just...well
im just a bit too agitated haha
but tt's ytd de thing la
now all fine all fine~
just some thoughts from yesterday la really.
now i dun really care :P other than the fact that
i probably won't wear the pullover often o.O
but hopefully it wouldn't become a waste of money lols...
but who wears pullovers and NOT take it off in singapore
when it's SO hot?
and it's so troublesome to take off!
aiya suan le. at most dump it at home lor :P
i don't wanna quarrel with them ((:
Pease is Harmony and Harmony is Lovely :D
hmm tt sounds nice o.O suddenly came up de hahahaha
okok next

elaine so poor thing as cg rep lor
like not very respected? dunno la
she's trying her best to make everyone happy le
hopefully the class will TRY to understand just A BIT?
i want to help her de today but she like don't really want us help
she just went with shubei aka the ass. cg rep.
haha nvm la. although i really wanted to help hahahaha
but well it's ok~ haha ((:
currently trying to edit the design for the class pullover...
coz many find it too plain le.
o.O but hopefully there won't be too much violent objections...
it's tiring leh..
esp when the jacket won the votings before de but those ALL werent counted
and this one which the pullover won is counted apparently...
haiyo im not supposed to keep mentioning this hahahaha
but wait one more thing.
i actually voted for White, Jacket, with Liou jing's design.
in the end result was Black, Pullover, with Jollin's desgin.
haha...irritating leh -.- haha.......nvm IT'S OK!!!!

haha today feeling quite emo.
lols. well. i really not sociable enough sia.
never know what to say.
dun even know how to chat lor damn sad.
like as in i really dunno what to chat about
what to say. how to break the silence without being too boring/irritating
i am at a loss most of the time lols.
but i really dunno what to do leh~
it's like i feel like such a failure la
im like so...dunno how mix with others like tt
dunno how make gd frens de :(
i don't exactly have a best friend
i don't have siblings etc
whatever i want to share i basically share with myself haha
i do tell some friends of coz but it's like i didn't say anything
usu it's overlooked or ignored etc coz it's not exactly impt/serious stuff
nobody likes to hear ppl grumble or what de ma
so hmm i don't share too deep-in emotions or stuff much.
no one to share with anyway. sad eh?

just now went mazarin briefing
saw joscelin and a lot of her classmates
they all like so close lor haha
anyway joscelin who used to be pretty quiet/shy in sec 1 (except when with gd frens)
talk and laugh with the guys so easily le sia haha
i was pretty surprised haha
i know she opened up a lot since sec3 when she joined CO comm
but still...haha
i envy her lor
she has changed :D more grown up like tt
able to make friends with everybody already
she really can chat with anyone and everyone leh haha
so she has lots of friends. she can share a lot of stuff with them de
not like me...haha (:
ya lor so just now emoemo le haha...
i feel like last time like tt leh
doesnt feel like i've changed at all
i'm still so tongue-tied around some people
like when 1-1 talk tt time la
i really dunno what to say

so ar so difficult make friends......
even some better terms de friends in class ar also not very close de
coz...well i am not good with natural, not good with mixing
i wonder when i'll learn how to be sociable like a young adult -.-
dunno when then i can really make new friends easily
and chat with people naturally and easily
i don't like awkwards silences
but i always experience them....it sucks leh
i feel like a social failure sometimes...