Argh

ARGGHHH i need a whole week of holiday
to read up on econs notes!!
SERIOUSLY AND URGENTLY!!!
Lecture at 5th chapter le leh
my brain is lagging at 2nd chapter!!
my brain is not made for econs man...
i should give up taking business in future.
NIE seems like a better choice -.-
zzz sianz.

but today quite good mood
coz i was doing maths most of the time
and i didnt touch econs...
oh have. at lecture. but coz my brain still at 2nd chap
so everything learnt recently didnt're register
coz foundation from front chapters are not steady yet.
well...all the best to myself -.-
ok enough of econs.
i realise i everyday mention econs sia.
tsk. shows how much i hate econs... :(
okok something else ba...

today went find mr ang for consultation
he ar so serious! hahahaha
mr ang appears more serious when he's teaching
as in during consultations la. appear. :P
awwww he's leaving soon...
less than 2 weeks left :(
oh TODAY IS THURSDAY?
aiyo why time goes so fast ar?
only left 3 lessons with him sia~ :(
not mrs tan not good but...But...BUt...BUT!!!
hahahahaha damn funny la
today maths lesson then sarah ask cher
whether he will miss us anot
then cher say ya la miss la
sth like tt la i cant rmb exactly haha. :D
wanted say sth else...
but mr ang might read this blog
so hmm nvm suan le HAHA :D
cya peeps :D

jiayou?

Yea i guess i really have to jy le
im used to low self confidence and self esteem in sec sku
but in jc got improvement haha
dunno y...
i come jc got quite a few changes
like...im more easily annoyed :P
but anyway my pt is.
must work hard!! :(
haiz. study study study sianz.
i wont de lor. im not that determined.
but. i'll keep trying
maybe i'll reach tt lvl of determination...soon.
argh...jys ba everyone (:

short post today!
shall end with: mr ang is a ckp cum meanie! HAHA :P

yeayea~

Hi peeps (:

this morning had scholarship interview
I FORGOT WEAR UNIFORM AND BRING TIE!!
DAMN FORGETFUL CAN!
so i exchanged shirt with fenghua lor :D hehe
thanks a lot to her sia
if not i no need go interview liao :D hahaha

then at the MOE HQ ar
i was freaking out haha
i get nervous really easily as always
me and elaine reached suppperr early
so had to wait for an hr or so
HENCE i sat on the oh-so-comfortable sofa
and fell asleep
elaine told me afterwards that my sleeping posture
was very unglam
those who were waiting for their
teaching scholarship interview kept staring at me
lols -.- zzzzz
wadeva not anyone i know at least hehe :P
mr ang was sort of encouraging me la
he say they are just humans so dun need scared HAHA
yea it worked for a short while...haha
the interview was crap
tough.
haha. stupid random ques haha
"how long have you been waiting outside?"
"erm..about 1 hr"
"wow that's long...what have you been thinking about?"
"er...about questions that might be asked"
"so what do you think we'll ask? name 3?"
"why i chose clep, why i like chinese....er..."
"ok these two questions...im sure u are very prepared for them
so we shan't ask you those two questions."
WTH RIGHT what a dumb start to the interview
shant elaborate the rest.
i said the story a lot of times in sku le
lazy type hehe :P

then juz now in sku ar damn pek chek la
dunno y very bad mood lor...
before maths lesson
i was trying to do econs
but I HATE ECONS!!! zzz
i see the questions i stone
i sianz i irritated i pek chek haha...
damn sianz can
I HATE ECONS!!
it takes away my will to study
takes away all interests
ECONS MAKES ME FEEL DUMB
LIKE REALLY REALLY DUMB! :((
and they keep telling me it's common sense
FINE LA
I DUMB LA NO COMMON SENSE CAN?!??!?
zzzzzzzzz
no one's helping man. gets on my nerves totally.

30/10 loves Mr Ang!

Seriously haha
30/10 loves mr ang la

coz mr ang going leave ma
then he ask us go appeal
so juz now i msg the class ask them
see if anyone has objections
obviously no one does!
and a few of them expressed their love
for mr ang HAHA
no la as in
well 30/10 really wants mr ang to stay!
godwin even ask him appeal to h1 maths too HAHA :D

so well need write petition! haha
elaine and veronica very kind la
both dun wan write -.-
so the holy task of writing the petition with me now
SIANZ HAHA ME ALSO LAZY PIG LEH!
argh i'll try to fork out time......haha
WE ALL WANT MR ANG TO STAY!
GET MRS GOH HERE TO READ LA! HAHA

hello

Feeling a little bit complicated o.O
but i've no idea why haha
ytd heard that some ppl in my class
found me scary o.O
some think i give them a lot of pressure o.o
what did i do??!?!
haha...
in sec sku maybe i was a bit too insensitive
as in i always forget to not be too loud
about some stuff...
but now i wont le ar...
i don't bother them le
or at least i really try not to.
so...hopefully they wont dislike me again. ;(
i always get disliked in class
for dumb reasons
it's irritating
and kinda childish haha
i was quite emo on friday but
after giving it some thought
im fine haha :D
anyway also not first time
this is the first time i actually really emo about it
coz this time
im positive i nvr do anything ma...
when i say im slacking
i am really slacking lols.
they nvr asked about usually de ma
always ask if got study for XXX test.
i really didnt so i say didnt lor.
but i usu got prac or at least do tutorials what...
tt helps. lols.
anyway i cant possibly
purposely score badly to please them what
so hope they leave me alone as i leave them alone
my studies my results shouldnt affect them in any way
they are affecting themselves...
O.O
aiya nvm haha

anyway hope mr ang doesn't leave 30/10 la seriously haha
he say MAYBE will take char's class leh :(((
tt's horrible.
if he take de class no gd fren still ok
i'll not tt much reaction.
but CHAR'S CLASS!!
tsk damn sianz
please don't let that come true.
it's quite hard to explain
y teaching my gd fren's class makes it worse la
but...it just does haha
if he has to take them
hope he continues to take us. :D
he say he cant do anything about it
though he also wanna stay with us...
but he say we can go appeal! haha
i need ask the class though
im feeling happy though
mr ang might be able to stay!!! :D:D:D
hehe hopefully...
it's not always can meet so nice n good teacher de lor
i have met a lot of nice teachers b4
but mr ang is chat de most de la :D haha~
anyway......juz hopefully ba (;

((:

Hmm i had a lot to say just now
but now i having mind block
cant rmb what i want type liao la -.-

zzz i only rmb a bit o.O
like...

Sometimes i feel like I don't belong to this world
don't belong anywhere
i look around and see everyone getting along
verry well with everyone...on the appearance at least
hahaah
but i can't o.O
haha but it's alright la
nothing new.
im always talking about the same stuff
im sick of talking about it too -.-

i cant rmb what else i wanna say le la!!
but hmm i hope mr ang don't leave our class.
a nice teacher can help retain interest for tt subject
and summore he's quite a gd teacher...
i scared he go le our class will standard drop more leh -.-
ask him giv tuition then also cannot
coz we are mrs tan's students and we both in tjc
it's inappropriate.
sianz. i scared my maths drop.
hopefully i can still catch up la...
i don't wanna disappoint him la
he think too highly of me le la -.-
must work harder!!!!
i'm too used to slacking already
suddenly want work hardhard also tough la -.-
but im trying...
today at library during free period ar
I ACTUALLY DID WORK LEH!! WOW LA HAHAHAHA

yea so hmm well
i wan to do well.
hopefully for all my subs but tt's IMPOSSIBLE
so well AT LEAST for maths....
JIAYOUUS EVERYONE!! :D
not easy but...try lor. :D
even if result not as good as what we really want...
as long as did our best then wont regret ba?
BUT i'm wondering about the did our best part LOL

my class...i think some people not very happy with me le lols
dunno la. not first time anyway.
but im not sure la. maybe i oversensitive...(i doubt so)
i didn't do anything lor...i just do my own stuff
nvr go bother them also...sianz.
so hard to please everyone :(

today my chinese birthday! i tot my parents forgot...
they forgot last year so i ate the "red eggs" and the noodles
1 week late hahaha
today they rmbed! so happy hahaha :D
then today dinner so fab can!!
got grill meat and stuff damn nice damn nice :D:D hehe :P

if i rmb anything else to add...
i'll come back...
i shall go research for gpp and PI stuff le.
SEE YOU PEOPLE ((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF :P

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!
I TURN 16 TODAY! SWEEET 16 hahah :D:D

I'm very happy :D
I was afraid my facebook would be pretty de at first
haha and i didnt know how many ppl would msg me...
but well i was surprised and really happy ((:
this morning quite a few ppl msg me
and i was esp surprised to see MR ANG's MSG!!! LOL
i was like damn shocked can hahahaha
then fb ar also quite a lot.
can tell a lot if saw on fb then wish de
but im still very happy they bothered to hehe :D:D
thanks a lot EVERYONE :D REALLY!! :D

kailun didnt buy cake for me today
but she bought ice cream waffle from good news cafe!
tt's fabulous too hehe my fav...sort of hahah :D:D
and got present from jos char they all too! SO NICE LA
I <3 IT!! :D:D THANKS MY DEAR GOOD FRIENDS :D:D
esp jos who picked it hahaha :D:D
it's a very sweeet and cute nicenice heart shaped necklace!!
last yr i got a heart shaped necklace from kev too hahahaha
and this yr i got another one! haha :D
nice sia :D thanks all of u!! :D:D really!! :D:D

just a few things

yepp as the title says...

i think it's pretty sad that my class aka 30/10 is sort of split into two...
i dunno why la...should be coz of
the extremely diff thinking/tastes/preferences ba...
anyway ar it's just so sad. like...we are one class what...
but then for my group ar we also have our own opinions
but we've been asking for their opinions and trying our best to satisfy them le
some of our opinions are overlooked coz we have to use theirs
but i'm curious. why they never give in de ar -.-
and y are they still unhappy?
i'd rather everyone make it clear what they are unhappy about
and we can hold a PROPER discussion
it's MUCH better than saying it's ok it's ok when it's totally NOT ok
lols i never actually got angry at others before excluding my family la
i do get impatient with my good friends sometimes but tt's all lor
but this time i got pretty agitated lols
i dun really know y la...probably coz i see elaine getting soo
upset over all these
and yet people are not putting in effort to make all these better
it's like only their opinions matter....
no offense la seriously...just...well
im just a bit too agitated haha
but tt's ytd de thing la
now all fine all fine~
just some thoughts from yesterday la really.
now i dun really care :P other than the fact that
i probably won't wear the pullover often o.O
but hopefully it wouldn't become a waste of money lols...
but who wears pullovers and NOT take it off in singapore
when it's SO hot?
and it's so troublesome to take off!
aiya suan le. at most dump it at home lor :P
i don't wanna quarrel with them ((:
Pease is Harmony and Harmony is Lovely :D
hmm tt sounds nice o.O suddenly came up de hahahaha
okok next

elaine so poor thing as cg rep lor
like not very respected? dunno la
she's trying her best to make everyone happy le
hopefully the class will TRY to understand just A BIT?
i want to help her de today but she like don't really want us help
she just went with shubei aka the ass. cg rep.
haha nvm la. although i really wanted to help hahahaha
but well it's ok~ haha ((:
currently trying to edit the design for the class pullover...
coz many find it too plain le.
o.O but hopefully there won't be too much violent objections...
it's tiring leh..
esp when the jacket won the votings before de but those ALL werent counted
and this one which the pullover won is counted apparently...
haiyo im not supposed to keep mentioning this hahahaha
but wait one more thing.
i actually voted for White, Jacket, with Liou jing's design.
in the end result was Black, Pullover, with Jollin's desgin.
haha...irritating leh -.- haha.......nvm IT'S OK!!!!

haha today feeling quite emo.
lols. well. i really not sociable enough sia.
never know what to say.
dun even know how to chat lor damn sad.
like as in i really dunno what to chat about
what to say. how to break the silence without being too boring/irritating
i am at a loss most of the time lols.
but i really dunno what to do leh~
it's like i feel like such a failure la
im like so...dunno how mix with others like tt
dunno how make gd frens de :(
i don't exactly have a best friend
i don't have siblings etc
whatever i want to share i basically share with myself haha
i do tell some friends of coz but it's like i didn't say anything
usu it's overlooked or ignored etc coz it's not exactly impt/serious stuff
nobody likes to hear ppl grumble or what de ma
so hmm i don't share too deep-in emotions or stuff much.
no one to share with anyway. sad eh?

just now went mazarin briefing
saw joscelin and a lot of her classmates
they all like so close lor haha
anyway joscelin who used to be pretty quiet/shy in sec 1 (except when with gd frens)
talk and laugh with the guys so easily le sia haha
i was pretty surprised haha
i know she opened up a lot since sec3 when she joined CO comm
but still...haha
i envy her lor
she has changed :D more grown up like tt
able to make friends with everybody already
she really can chat with anyone and everyone leh haha
so she has lots of friends. she can share a lot of stuff with them de
not like me...haha (:
ya lor so just now emoemo le haha...
i feel like last time like tt leh
doesnt feel like i've changed at all
i'm still so tongue-tied around some people
like when 1-1 talk tt time la
i really dunno what to say

so ar so difficult make friends......
even some better terms de friends in class ar also not very close de
coz...well i am not good with natural, not good with mixing
i wonder when i'll learn how to be sociable like a young adult -.-
dunno when then i can really make new friends easily
and chat with people naturally and easily
i don't like awkwards silences
but i always experience them....it sucks leh
i feel like a social failure sometimes...

emo again?

Dunno why ar
i always suddenly
REALLY VERRYYY suddenly start emo-ing de leh lols

dunno la esp at night
will start to think this think tt
start think too much...haiz
always feel emptier and weaker at night de
coz tt's when there's peace
and my mind starts to wander
and all kinds of errant tots start to appear
i will start thinking too much at night de...

if not ar
sometimes juz feel down and emo ar
then feel like crying
cry finish normal again
sotsot de
like pms like tt LOL
haiya damn sianz
lols...sotsot de...

currently feeling like there's no one around me
like as in no one close at all...
sec sku clique HONESTLY isn't tt close
whole day suan here suan there
nvr share troubles or anything usu de
but it's the best liao le
and even tt split le
cg dun hav
cca diff have
everyone have their own social circles and all le
who cares about making new close friends?
and im not gd at making friends in the first place

so sad la. why i dun have nice social circles? haha xP
im not as fun as everyone else la eg. joyce lols
she extreme eg la but ya hahaha
i not gd at social stuff like this de la...
dunno how have fun hahaha
dunno how make friends esp gd friends
nvr know what to do...like damn failure la...

haiyo i dunno what i typing le la hahaah
damn crap sia what m i talking about.
difficult to put thoughts into words la
suan le ignore everything. none rly makes sense.
but i noe what im feeling anyway o.O
crazy me.
nvm.
i noe it will past soon -.- haha...

:D:D

YOOOZ! :D

Today went Orange Valley Nursing Home for LEO CLUB :D
It was quite fun la we sang songs, then teach the elderly fold origami
then let them play super mini bowling then left.
The elderly some damn dao but some very nice :D:D

After tt me n joyce went bugis went bossini say hi to them :D
then weijie + chiew ping+ joyce + me went mac there meet victor kor! :D:D
Yepp then stand there stone n crap a while le then
we went downstairs to find sth eat
in the end went CRYSTAL JADE :D
Joyce took damn long to decide whether she eating with us or not la
but anyway it was damn funny la
joyce NATURAL JOKER HAHA (i noe you will read this haha JOKER! XP)
Then her friend Clarence come join us so they both eat with us
DAMN FUNNY LA
he come then first thing
shake hands with kor and both over there intro
then shake with me LOL
it's so rare to see hahahahaha

anyway we went........oh ya toilet LOL
DAMN LONG QUEUE HAHA
then the two guys wait outside quite long time sia hahaha
then kor drive us go city hall
they go with me to buy S.H.E. album first :D:D
THEN THAT IDIOT JOYCE SAY WAN GO PENINSULA
then at first go wrong place
went to a super smelly place LOL
after tt found the place they go seesee guitar liao hor
THEN JUST LIKE TT U KNOW
WE WALK DAMMMMNNN FAR THEN GO THERE DO ALMOST NTH LA!
LOL
then walk back to suntec there
JOYCE SAY WAN GO ESPLANADE FIND SOMEWHR SIT DOWN
then we walkwalkwalk there again
THEN SHE DUN WAN GO IN ANY OF THE RESTAURANTS OR ANYTHING TO EAT
then she sit in the middle of nowhr just on the floor
HAHAHA DAMN IDIOT LA TSK~
hahahahaha
after tt we WALK BACK to suntec again
wth la like walkathon like tt.....

Hmm what did we do next~
Oh ya we went to mac in marina square :D
ate mcflurry and kor ordered a large coke LOL
then couldnt finish it hahahaha

Then well erm thx to me ar we walked 1 round back to same place in suntec
coz see wrong directions LOL
we wanted go fountain of wealth take pics ma haha

then....after tt we found it
walked around the fountain 3 times again :D
then played a liiitttllle bit with water LOL
then wanted ask the uncle take pic for us
then he go close tt thing sia
then in the end couldnt take there.
whole day we only took 1 grp photo seh....hahha
but there was one with joyce beside 2 dustbins
tt's called triplets LOL

whole trip today me n the two guys keep suaning joyce la LOL
damn funnnnyyy :D:D:D
they keep call her dustbin also LOL
a very fun day la.

BEST PART IS OUR RIDE HOME LOL
kor drive us ma then he couldnt find the way LOL
then took quite a long time to get back HAHA
but it was damn fun la
and we like keep insulting/stressing him haha like so bad la xPP
hehe but yea damn fun.
after me n joyce got down ar
CLARENCE TOOK 1 HR TO GET HOME SIA! LOL
from tamp to hougang TOOK 1 HR!!
LOLOLOL
hahahaha funny la.

but hor kor supposed to meet his frens ar 6.30 leh.
then he insist on sending us home so he went there late by like 1.5 hr?
so sorry sia!! :(
but he didnt tell us
juz now clarence just told us only lols....

anyway overall it was a great day
joyce damn centre of attention la LOL :D:D:D hahahaha