12/7

It's been so long since i've posted here, eh?
It's been long since mr ang posted on his blog too haha :D
guess everyone's busier, eh?

anyway
i had LOTS like LOTS to say
since it's been real long.
but now i shall just summarise hols part la.
well i did study.
but i slacked quite a bit too.
ok. quite a lot.
so. basically i was totally unprepared for the exams.
hence the results.

till now,
gotten back...
maths- 70%
chem-45%
cll-59%
yepp tt's about all...i think.
will get back econs and csc tmr
and gp on thursday.

well. haiz.
ok. econs.
i have no confidence of getting even 10%
seriously. or at most 15%. nothing more.
no exaggeration involved at all.
they dun quite believe me la.
but then.
cher's been going thru the essay answers these few days
haven finish but i looked at it already.
hence i know what i wrote and i know where i stand.
haiz.
i feel like saying some stuff
some usual stuff i would have said
but i noe i shouldnt
i have no right to anyway.
my fault totally.
i didnt prepare for econs.
almost totally didnt.
least i studied for was csc followed by econs.
well i studied first few chapters quite well though
esp elasticity.
i didnt touch GI at all
and everything about GI came out -.-
regret.

last tuesday talked to mr ang ma
and well of coz he was disappointed with my results
particularly maths.
many tot my score was not bad le
but im not satisfied with it either.
i lost a lot of marks that i did not have to.
a lot.
cher say mrs tan also disappointed wor :X
argh.
im really so sorry.
i failed myself too.
hence, i was so motivated that day haha.
this is the first time i felt so motivated...
and i got a feeling i will work hard this time.

and i did study that day
and for the rest of last week
i didnt even watch 宫心计 which was sth sort of must-watch de haha
last week i completed tutorials 16-18
and then i realised veron also finished tutorial 18.
argh cannot!!!
i must do more!!!

and then it was the weekends
haiz.
i dunno why but i was damn tired on sat
so i didnt do much work.
just did 2 csc articles and prepared for cll lesson
and a bit of maths
and then i fell asleep lols
i slacked thru the whole night man.
damn damn.
dad asked me go sing ma :X haha.
so i sang k at home for like 3 hrs -.-
lols.
then sunday
pw meeting.
we did work!
well we almost finished out storyboard
and i did almost half of the prototype of our game le.
used a lot anime elements
love it man :D
had been working on it this afternoon
before i come here post this too...
anyway then after that
my mum dun let me on com after dinner
so i couldnt continue doing...

she totally dun believe i will work hard leh.
tt is so demoralising.
she totally dun trust me
but i dun blame her la
coz i dun rly deserve her trust yet
to her la anyway
coz she always catch me slacking
she caught me watching show ytd lols.
but i was just resting a bit ma :X
she nvr sees me studying.
last week i study so much she everyday 11pm come home -.-
aiya anyway she totally dun believe me.

sunday night she took my ipod away to play
dun let me watch show ma.
then i felt so super guilty for slacking
so i did maths.
did tutorial 18 poyo and then read up on maths
finished reading parametric curve chapter
and then started on tutorial 19 lor
but i dunno how do some.
everytime i stuck on a question
i will keep thinking keep thinking.
and then usually i'll stop doing my work soon -.-
anyway then i do until 12+
mum scold le so i went sleep lor.

today school
ying en veron wanshan both watched world cup ytd sia
hahahaha then well they slept so little
poor thing :P
mr ang too HAHAHA
cher's beloved holland lost!
LOL
most people i asked is support spain de
so they were relatively happy haha
well shermaine also watched world cup ytd
and she loves holland apparently.
haha
awww its just world cup!
they will have another chance 4 yrs later HAHAHA
aiya at least get second ma! not bad le! :D
i nvr watched world cup o.O
if i had a chance i would actually
but my parents dun watch
so i nvr did.
i wont be allowed to stay up to watch it definitely
and i dunno any team so whatever
just listen to them talk about it haha
quite entertaining. :P

ahhhh anyway must work hard!!!
i MUST work hard!
today in school
i was talking to ying en
telling her i rly wanna mug liao.
i told her
i used to be in a science class
i used to be gd.
i used to be in top 10 even in science class
even in the top few classes.
i used to be in top 100 in school.
not very high position but at least always top 100 la.
now....haiz.
wth is this kind of results???
esp econs.....................
hence
i
have
to
buck
up.
i
know.
honestly.
i dun wan disappoint anyone again.
it felt really bad.
really bad.
but then.
ytd i was thinking.
now i study coz i know i should
i have to.
its like im forcing myself to study u know...
it doesnt help me to focus entirely at all
my brain easily drifts
ok. not really drift
just that i keep telling myself i must study :X
it will have effect still
but it wont have the best effect definitely.
best would be if im studying coz i like it
or just coz i want to.
more of a WANT then a MUST.
tt would be really gd.
i dunno what i should do too.
how should i achieve that?
anyone enlighten me? i'll think about it too...

PW.
our gpp havent exactly been approved
but cher say most probably can. no big prob
tt's y we started on it ma
now we're progressing rly well.
almost half done le leh
we're doing so great :D:D
haha im so happy la
BUT THEN
now got new individual task!
need do EoM sia
evaluation of materials
INDIVIDUAL!! ARGH :(
waste of time la
sure need spend so much time on it again.

and today got an email from sku.
econs lecture tt time also was mentioned
about elective programmes in term 3!!!!
so cool leh hahaha
i wan join!
i wanted join songwriting
but i realised need write melody.
i can't
so...forget it.
im considering about
"Entrepeneurial marketing"
"Get Connected"
and "Creative Problem Solving"
can put 2 choices and 1 will be selected.
well i think is creative problem solving
clashes with my lessons
dun think can skip lessons
so probably wont go for that.
but...
should i even apply?
i think it's interesting
and useful.
rly nice programmes.
but then.
would it be better to use the time on studying?
i have no idea...
haiz. have to consider.........