BEST bdae ever...ha.ha.ha.

These few days so emo...wad i expected to be a best birthday turned out to be the worst...

What a fantastic bdae i had! (ytd)
Never knew what was happy b4 that...Ha.ha.ha.
Supposed to go out wif someone but didnt...i dunno why...i still dun really noe...
It was just a dream that didnt come true...
So went to temple with mum (the one i went since young) to help wif preparations coz today got event...mum say bdae go help is gd...anyway went in morn and left at 5+

Dad came and fetch us...so suei la it's lyk i so bad mood liao hor, when i go up the car, the song playing was 'bu1 zai4 chang3'...
match the situation...made me wanna cry la but as usual, i couldnt...
i looked out of window trying to hold back tears ma then saw a foreign worker lols he looked at me and saw tt i going to cry haha then stare at me lols till the car went pass =.=ll
mood: VERY out of sorts...
so totally weird la me...for ytd and today...
so not myself...i didnt know wad to think about
didnt know wad to do
didnt know i should do/think
didint noe how i shld be feeling...

Anyway went to somewhere in tampines st.11 (think so) to eat dinner.
It's a stall from the qiang3 tan1 show de, the first to get a jin1 pai2.
The food was nice =) esp the lala and sotong lols
Mood brightened a bit...and then go home revised physics...

Then put 50+ EL songs into my phone then received the sms I've been waiting for more than 2 days! Was so happy...but after the 2nd sms i received, no more again =.=ll
Then i REALLY dunno wad to think le...even more out of sorts can...+ emo

Today sms-ed again but things went so wrong I dunno wad happened...
Totally wrong from lyk an hr ago...wad's happening?
I dunno wad to do...how shld i be reacting?
Accept it lyk it is?
Treat it as a looong dream turned into a nightmare that i was waking up from?
Treat it as a return trip from...i-dunno-where?
I dunno...the most probable thing i can do is to accept it BUT i wan to at least know why ba?

I really think i so different these few days lols...emoemo de
not active lols
quite dead...
me being dead + my initials + the letter 'i' = dead fish= me

This ends my BEST BIRTHDAY EVER! ha.ha.ha.