T.T

Damn it la.
what the heck.
what i do la.
my dad is being DAAAMMNNN irritating.
what does he noe la.
can't he try to understand ANYTHING??
juz 1 is better than nothing.
if not, then DUN BOTHER ME.
damn it.
can't tolerate him leh.
he rly can get champion in the
"make sihui cry" competition sia.
and i hate myself for getting upset la.
get upset so easily as always.
but it takes two hands to clap.
want me to change my temper not i put in effort can de lor...

i already very control le leh.
my temper is rly bad, i know.
so i try to control...
if i rly dun control,
i think i can rly shout bk at them or sth lor.
but i dun lor.
i rather keep quiet lor if not things will get worse.
but then they leh.
keep say i lian chou chou.
then what. they rather i flare up is it.
cant they put in some effort as well in
controlling THEIR temper?
mum doing pretty well.
dad leh. damn irritating la.
think he king ar. everything he right
he nvr does anything wrongly wor.
HELLO! what he did right la??!??!
zzz...*breathe in breathe out*
today wanted come post sth nice
coz today went out study ma.
juz wanted post sth casual.
in the end it started lyk this...

zzz...i could have explained...
but i said nth...
coz im not rly sure whether it helps.
or will it earn me more scoldings/naggings?
forget it la.
say all u wan la.
im the worst kid ever la.
dumbest ever. most rebellious.
worst kid one can ever have.
wadeva. i dun rly care now.
maybe later. not now.
*shakes head* dun wan think le.
annoying stuff...

today went out wif carol!!
went bedok library cafe dere
12+ they ask us wan order anything anot
coz we sit there very long lols so i go buy lunch lor.
after mine come then carol buy...
didnt rly do much there.
only did acs history paper Q1a and 1b nia.
after tt packed up go carol condo there de study room.
there better environment.
did emaths. almost finished paper 1.
so total...still not much done lols.
but well sure more than if im home de la.

tmr carol n shuting wanted come my house study.
in the end neither is coming -.-
zzz. so wad m i supposed to do?
anyone wan come?? T.T
mum will be home tmr...not much freedom eh?
so well force myself to study lor.
but when im alone,
i seriously cant get myself studying.
what to do. bo bian. jin liang lor.
keep no motivation de...
but i wan to score well for o lvls!!! rly wan to...
why no mood study?!!?! T.T T.T T.T

i need the marks ^^
i wan go Ngee Ann Poly!!
haven told my mum yet.
dunno she will let anot...
but then i wan poly leh...NP...
i wan accountancy...
char say its boring but i think it's fine what................
haha xDD wadeva la...
they offer scholarships to top 8-10 ppl according to o lvl score leh.
but then i think is according to ELR2B2 wor means i no hope haha.
coz my el no hope...
but then...still...
no matter wad also hav to score well ma...
juz now my dad say
你出去就真的要跟我读书，不然
考到老牙的成绩你就知道。
i was lyk wth. always lyk tt de...
i feel like shouting back
NO MATTER WHAT
I STILL WILL DO BETTER THAN YOU
you go study la study HARD
SCORE HIGHER THAN ME
THEN COME SCOLD ME LA!
zzzz *calm down*
haha.
aiya.
he always give stupid comments de.
i wasn't even talking to him can -.-
i was talking to my mum.
he interrupt what la.
they whole day contradicting themselves
to put everything to their benefit de.

wan control me then say im still a kid
wan me do things then say i grown up liao.
-.- so wat m i.
a while like 10 yr old kid a while lyk 20 yr old adult.
im in btw okay.
today got talk to carol a bit abt poly.
she say mature too fast.
isnt it better to be a kid for a longer time?
then i was like, i always not much of a kid anyway what.
i nvr rly felt like a kid lor.
mature faster even better.
maybe i'll get over my stupid temper.
maybe...
who cares la anyway.
wadeva happens...all will past..
im juz grumbling agn lols.. xPP

okay la dun bother you le.
wont hav more than 3 reading this anyway~
write for myself read ^^