UNWANTED!!

I'm an unwanted child...this idea just dawned on me just now when my father fetched zp(my cousin), my mum and me home...now me so bad mood...


Anyway today zp and his mum + me and my mum went takashimaya shopping...very fun!! Very long didnt shop and me bought 2 black shirts~~haha me and my mum gonna share the shirts! And she say she might want buy another one of one of the shirt coz we both like it a lot haha then next time we can wear out together!! So cool~~so nice~~Now so much closer to my mum le...love the feeling love the time...


Then after that my father come fetch us...he ar then nvr even call my name once on the whole trip home lo only care about zp...keep tok to him then me so sad...

I tot about it on the car ma...then the idea dawned on me lo...see ar im lyk 75% confirmed is adopted ma meaning my real parents don't want me...first evidence of unwanted...
second evidence is that time my parents keep quarrel until almost want divorce then my mum told me that if really divorce she will leave me wif my dad she don't want bring me along very hard work...............................=(
then third is my dad...he only like zp...might as well call zp live here wif him i go other place suan le...haiz...today my dad keep say all those 'i very teng zp' etcetc 'zp very guai' etcetc...make me feel so....AHHHHHHHh very upset leh...
Then when bathe ar i sit on the toiletbowl there cry lo...then bathe...haiz my eyes redred hothot lo luckily not spotted by them...haiz...i very upset leh...why am i an unwanted child??
Am I that bad? Why I just born already thrown away?Why my mum don't want bring me along wif her if got divorce?Why my dad also don't like me?(not like i like him...but tt's not the thing)

Ahhhhhhhhhh....me going crazy le la................