who are you?

Who are you? I really wan to shout at my dad sia...since young i've never shouted at them b4 i've never even tok back b4 until lyk last yr? but also jkjk tt type onli la and they sae i tok back...BE SATISFIED OVER THINGS U HAVE!
Since young, everytime i upset over them or angry or wad i juz hide and cry alone...even if my parents juz raise their voice nia i will cry de lo...then last yr my dad told me(in cl): ' you grow up already hor become big liao ar? last time raice voice u will cry now wont liao la...' i was lyk as if lo...i still do la BUT WHY SHLD I SHOW THOSE SO NOT UNDERSTANDING PARENTS? WHY SHOULD I?
Ppl always say that parents have unselfish and undying love for their children but why dont i see it? im going crazy la...WHO ARE YOU? ARE YOU REALLY MY FATHER? ARE YOU? WHERE DID ALL TT KIND OF LOVE GO?
wadeva fed up sia...eyes still hothot la juz now in the living rm tears almost drop but they didnt see...thank goodness lo...then i come my room use com ma then really cry le la but as usual silently...
If you are feeling really tired and in de first place not in a gd mood then which usually dinner is last person wash de then i was lyk first? Then, i go livng rm le usually is my dad wash de since is my mum cook de wad...
He will go watch tv first then wash de coz he super addicted to the ''Jiayou, Jinshun!'' then today my mother call him go wash he call me go fine la i noe this is small matter etc rite but is wad he say make me feel very....i dunno how to say la...i dun feel lyk i belong to them lo...wad does he treat me as?
He over there saying: 'I help you wash the dishes can...you muz score gd results la! You this yr dun get scholarship then u will get it from me' in chinese. I WAS LYK WADDE LA HELP ME WASH DISHES VERY BIG DEAL AR? HE NOT HOME ALSO ALL I WASH DE WAD... WAD'S THE BIG DEAL???!!?!!?
summore, my parents keep pressing me to get scholarship etc de make me so fed up...im stressed enough wif the hw and problems etc etc and they noe nth of them apparently...parents shld realise their children's moods etc shldnt they?
Then keep sae muz get scholarship de...I STUDY FOR MYSELF FOR MY FUTURE AND FOR THEIRS TOO!! EVEN IF I GET THE SCHOLARSHIP, MAYBE IT WILL BE OF SOME USE PROBABLY BUT HOW MUCH? THIS IS JUZ SEC SKU! AND NOW I DUN EVEN NOE WHY I STUDY!!??!
IM SOOOOOOOO FED UP................
This is the second incident tt my dad said sth tt makes me feel lyk im not his child liao le lo meaning saying lyk help me do thing is a chore lyk tt lyk will die lyk tt my mum also said b4 la...haizzz I really feel lyk crying out loud without caring them sia...but if i look back in the last 14 yrs of my life...i've nvr really did tt lo....crying out i mean anywhere....Its very sad to cry silently too coz it would be much better to cry out loud...
BUT...I CANT! AND I DEFINITELY CANT TOLERATE IT SERIOUSLY!