One more thing...my cousin juz reminded me...
MY FATHER IS LYK SO BIASED?
my cousin come then treat him more lyk child i feel lyk a guest nia..
my cousin alwawys lyk pai ma pi say my mum so chio my father so handsome etcetc de so my father so n1 to him de...i used to be so jealous lo...lol...but hu cares le la he wan be biased then go ahead i DUN WAN TO CARE!
one thing, truthfully, i juz cried my heart out sia but didnt really heart outla =.=
i very scared tt i cant get the scholarship this yr very scared...
i dunno wad will happen, i dunno and im very scared.....
Thanks a lot eunice thx for encouraging me for the past hour! without you, i still crying de la...really...thx!! ><
2007-06-29
who are you?
Who are you? I really wan to shout at my dad sia...since young i've never shouted at them b4 i've never even tok back b4 until lyk last yr? but also jkjk tt type onli la and they sae i tok back...BE SATISFIED OVER THINGS U HAVE!
Since young, everytime i upset over them or angry or wad i juz hide and cry alone...even if my parents juz raise their voice nia i will cry de lo...then last yr my dad told me(in cl): ' you grow up already hor become big liao ar? last time raice voice u will cry now wont liao la...' i was lyk as if lo...i still do la BUT WHY SHLD I SHOW THOSE SO NOT UNDERSTANDING PARENTS? WHY SHOULD I?
Ppl always say that parents have unselfish and undying love for their children but why dont i see it? im going crazy la...WHO ARE YOU? ARE YOU REALLY MY FATHER? ARE YOU? WHERE DID ALL TT KIND OF LOVE GO?
wadeva fed up sia...eyes still hothot la juz now in the living rm tears almost drop but they didnt see...thank goodness lo...then i come my room use com ma then really cry le la but as usual silently...
If you are feeling really tired and in de first place not in a gd mood then which usually dinner is last person wash de then i was lyk first? Then, i go livng rm le usually is my dad wash de since is my mum cook de wad...
He will go watch tv first then wash de coz he super addicted to the ''Jiayou, Jinshun!'' then today my mother call him go wash he call me go fine la i noe this is small matter etc rite but is wad he say make me feel very....i dunno how to say la...i dun feel lyk i belong to them lo...wad does he treat me as?
He over there saying: 'I help you wash the dishes can...you muz score gd results la! You this yr dun get scholarship then u will get it from me' in chinese. I WAS LYK WADDE LA HELP ME WASH DISHES VERY BIG DEAL AR? HE NOT HOME ALSO ALL I WASH DE WAD... WAD'S THE BIG DEAL???!!?!!?
summore, my parents keep pressing me to get scholarship etc de make me so fed up...im stressed enough wif the hw and problems etc etc and they noe nth of them apparently...parents shld realise their children's moods etc shldnt they?
Then keep sae muz get scholarship de...I STUDY FOR MYSELF FOR MY FUTURE AND FOR THEIRS TOO!! EVEN IF I GET THE SCHOLARSHIP, MAYBE IT WILL BE OF SOME USE PROBABLY BUT HOW MUCH? THIS IS JUZ SEC SKU! AND NOW I DUN EVEN NOE WHY I STUDY!!??!
IM SOOOOOOOO FED UP................
This is the second incident tt my dad said sth tt makes me feel lyk im not his child liao le lo meaning saying lyk help me do thing is a chore lyk tt lyk will die lyk tt my mum also said b4 la...haizzz I really feel lyk crying out loud without caring them sia...but if i look back in the last 14 yrs of my life...i've nvr really did tt lo....crying out i mean anywhere....Its very sad to cry silently too coz it would be much better to cry out loud...
BUT...I CANT! AND I DEFINITELY CANT TOLERATE IT SERIOUSLY!
Since young, everytime i upset over them or angry or wad i juz hide and cry alone...even if my parents juz raise their voice nia i will cry de lo...then last yr my dad told me(in cl): ' you grow up already hor become big liao ar? last time raice voice u will cry now wont liao la...' i was lyk as if lo...i still do la BUT WHY SHLD I SHOW THOSE SO NOT UNDERSTANDING PARENTS? WHY SHOULD I?
Ppl always say that parents have unselfish and undying love for their children but why dont i see it? im going crazy la...WHO ARE YOU? ARE YOU REALLY MY FATHER? ARE YOU? WHERE DID ALL TT KIND OF LOVE GO?
wadeva fed up sia...eyes still hothot la juz now in the living rm tears almost drop but they didnt see...thank goodness lo...then i come my room use com ma then really cry le la but as usual silently...
If you are feeling really tired and in de first place not in a gd mood then which usually dinner is last person wash de then i was lyk first? Then, i go livng rm le usually is my dad wash de since is my mum cook de wad...
He will go watch tv first then wash de coz he super addicted to the ''Jiayou, Jinshun!'' then today my mother call him go wash he call me go fine la i noe this is small matter etc rite but is wad he say make me feel very....i dunno how to say la...i dun feel lyk i belong to them lo...wad does he treat me as?
He over there saying: 'I help you wash the dishes can...you muz score gd results la! You this yr dun get scholarship then u will get it from me' in chinese. I WAS LYK WADDE LA HELP ME WASH DISHES VERY BIG DEAL AR? HE NOT HOME ALSO ALL I WASH DE WAD... WAD'S THE BIG DEAL???!!?!!?
summore, my parents keep pressing me to get scholarship etc de make me so fed up...im stressed enough wif the hw and problems etc etc and they noe nth of them apparently...parents shld realise their children's moods etc shldnt they?
Then keep sae muz get scholarship de...I STUDY FOR MYSELF FOR MY FUTURE AND FOR THEIRS TOO!! EVEN IF I GET THE SCHOLARSHIP, MAYBE IT WILL BE OF SOME USE PROBABLY BUT HOW MUCH? THIS IS JUZ SEC SKU! AND NOW I DUN EVEN NOE WHY I STUDY!!??!
IM SOOOOOOOO FED UP................
This is the second incident tt my dad said sth tt makes me feel lyk im not his child liao le lo meaning saying lyk help me do thing is a chore lyk tt lyk will die lyk tt my mum also said b4 la...haizzz I really feel lyk crying out loud without caring them sia...but if i look back in the last 14 yrs of my life...i've nvr really did tt lo....crying out i mean anywhere....Its very sad to cry silently too coz it would be much better to cry out loud...
BUT...I CANT! AND I DEFINITELY CANT TOLERATE IT SERIOUSLY!
2007-06-28
Follow-up to previous
Today, I wrote the EL compo for the teen ink thing. 'my story, my life, my way'. I didnt know wad to write until ytd when i tot of my previous post lol which gave me the idea! ^^ Hope write about made a difference in my own life is alrite haha
I wrote about writing the ques on blog then some of the replies ppl gave me etc then say about my final conclusion and the change in the life ><
In the compo, the final conclusion is lyk er...half of real one but in real life im not lyk 'confirmed' about it la haha but tt's wad i wrote in the compo i eman the conclusion on how to live ur lfe ^^ Yepp way to live ur life...as in mine la haha
I write my conclusion is tt
Life is lyk a game, such as lyk er maple/ghostonline etc de. They also travel around and have frens. In the game, we fight but in real life we study. In the game, we lvl up and in real life it's quite similar in the sense that we go from pri 1 to 2 u see and those 'jobs' are lyk when you go from pri to sec isnt it?
SO IT'S ALL RATHER SIMILAR!! ^^ haha
tt's why so i was saying the way i wanted to live my life as in in the compo anyway, was to juz treat it as a game and juz work hard and study hard and CHIONG!! To lyk gain exp in game (knowledge in real) and then lvl up you see haha no la juz...it's an aspect tt i can see it from so tt at least there's a reason to live rite? a way to live? lol yepp tt's why lo...but im not sure it will be really used in real life haha coz lyk tt it's hard in the sense tt I have to curb my bad temper etc...lol im very bad at tt but I'LL TRY MY BEST!
anyone support me? haha jkjk ^^ i hope it works out anyway thx to all my frens anyway ^^ 1 more thing, in the game, the game sometimes do end rite lyk ur acc hacked or sth then in real life we die rite? BUT tt's why i 'work hard' (in compo) coz b4 you die ---or end game--- you'll enojy it rite? you'll chiong isnt it?
SO CHIONG PPL! MAKE THE BEST OF UR LIFE!
I seriously hope it works...^^
I wrote about writing the ques on blog then some of the replies ppl gave me etc then say about my final conclusion and the change in the life ><
In the compo, the final conclusion is lyk er...half of real one but in real life im not lyk 'confirmed' about it la haha but tt's wad i wrote in the compo i eman the conclusion on how to live ur lfe ^^ Yepp way to live ur life...as in mine la haha
I write my conclusion is tt
Life is lyk a game, such as lyk er maple/ghostonline etc de. They also travel around and have frens. In the game, we fight but in real life we study. In the game, we lvl up and in real life it's quite similar in the sense that we go from pri 1 to 2 u see and those 'jobs' are lyk when you go from pri to sec isnt it?
SO IT'S ALL RATHER SIMILAR!! ^^ haha
tt's why so i was saying the way i wanted to live my life as in in the compo anyway, was to juz treat it as a game and juz work hard and study hard and CHIONG!! To lyk gain exp in game (knowledge in real) and then lvl up you see haha no la juz...it's an aspect tt i can see it from so tt at least there's a reason to live rite? a way to live? lol yepp tt's why lo...but im not sure it will be really used in real life haha coz lyk tt it's hard in the sense tt I have to curb my bad temper etc...lol im very bad at tt but I'LL TRY MY BEST!
anyone support me? haha jkjk ^^ i hope it works out anyway thx to all my frens anyway ^^ 1 more thing, in the game, the game sometimes do end rite lyk ur acc hacked or sth then in real life we die rite? BUT tt's why i 'work hard' (in compo) coz b4 you die ---or end game--- you'll enojy it rite? you'll chiong isnt it?
SO CHIONG PPL! MAKE THE BEST OF UR LIFE!
I seriously hope it works...^^
2007-06-25
What do we really understand?
What do we really understand?
Do we really know what we are living in this world for?
Do we really noe the purpose of even surviving in this world?
Have we ever tot of wad's our meaning in life? You see...we are born then lives for multiple of tens years and then we juz..go...so WHY did we even come in the first place?
Not much use isnt it? We come then do wad we want summore our parents still dun really let us do wad we want =.= then everything comes to an end summore when u go too early people still feel sad for you =.=ll so why shld we live??? I cant solve it...anyone care to gib me some replies?
One more thing, more to flirts anyway =.=ll
What do you know about 'love'??
I am rather confused by it le anyway...
Im sure a lot people cant really give me a satisfying answer if he/she really asks themselves that, right? If you can find such an answer, then mind telling me? Can discuss discuss...help me solve this too...
See ar, some people think that like someone is wan to be wif him/her, some ppl think is to just have someone as our company etcetc...The worst answer I've got that really made me very angry ar is when i ask him 'why start stead so early' coz i curious ma...
Then he reply: 'to get experience ma'
OMG I WAS LYK WTH!
Then the people he stead wif are wad? guinea pig ar? he doing experiment ar? very guo fen lo!
Haiz...another question...
How do you noe whether u lyk someone? I used to think i noe but now...i dun think so anymore le la i dunno anything about it anymore...really dunno le...
and one last one:
How do you differentiate friendship and love?
How do you noe which side it is on?
How do you noe where's the line?
How do you stand at one side and not cross over?
Nvm think too much haha ^^ sianz..
*sigh*
Do we really know what we are living in this world for?
Do we really noe the purpose of even surviving in this world?
Have we ever tot of wad's our meaning in life? You see...we are born then lives for multiple of tens years and then we juz..go...so WHY did we even come in the first place?
Not much use isnt it? We come then do wad we want summore our parents still dun really let us do wad we want =.= then everything comes to an end summore when u go too early people still feel sad for you =.=ll so why shld we live??? I cant solve it...anyone care to gib me some replies?
One more thing, more to flirts anyway =.=ll
What do you know about 'love'??
I am rather confused by it le anyway...
Im sure a lot people cant really give me a satisfying answer if he/she really asks themselves that, right? If you can find such an answer, then mind telling me? Can discuss discuss...help me solve this too...
See ar, some people think that like someone is wan to be wif him/her, some ppl think is to just have someone as our company etcetc...The worst answer I've got that really made me very angry ar is when i ask him 'why start stead so early' coz i curious ma...
Then he reply: 'to get experience ma'
OMG I WAS LYK WTH!
Then the people he stead wif are wad? guinea pig ar? he doing experiment ar? very guo fen lo!
Haiz...another question...
How do you noe whether u lyk someone? I used to think i noe but now...i dun think so anymore le la i dunno anything about it anymore...really dunno le...
and one last one:
How do you differentiate friendship and love?
How do you noe which side it is on?
How do you noe where's the line?
How do you stand at one side and not cross over?
Nvm think too much haha ^^ sianz..
*sigh*
2007-06-18
lalala~~
lalalala~~so long nvr post everyone complaining liao wor~~ =.=
aiyo nth to write ma...
and to eunice: i didnt put the links lyk tt on purpose...SERIOUS..!!
These few days so sianz sia specifically from ytd nite la lol dunno why juz very very very no mood...zzzz
These few days started to watch Naruto and quite addicted hahax very n1,I read comic de b4 but only until epi 26 ma so now watch anime! ><
These few days I want to train my audi skills to last time standard, but need do hw and i have no confidence with my cousin improving so fast...
These few days i juz very no mood la keep do hw if not watch youtube, when play audi then i so lousy le sianzzz
AHH~~~SIANZ!!
Anybody have good ways to cheer yourself up or lyk vent frusfration or wadeva de ma?!?!?!?!
aiyo nth to write ma...
and to eunice: i didnt put the links lyk tt on purpose...SERIOUS..!!
These few days so sianz sia specifically from ytd nite la lol dunno why juz very very very no mood...zzzz
These few days started to watch Naruto and quite addicted hahax very n1,I read comic de b4 but only until epi 26 ma so now watch anime! ><
These few days I want to train my audi skills to last time standard, but need do hw and i have no confidence with my cousin improving so fast...
These few days i juz very no mood la keep do hw if not watch youtube, when play audi then i so lousy le sianzzz
AHH~~~SIANZ!!
Anybody have good ways to cheer yourself up or lyk vent frusfration or wadeva de ma?!?!?!?!
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