8/8/06

Haiz todae de 2.4 run arh ok la not really tt long lor lyk rather short leh but still can la...we ran so damn slow lor at last then i sprint...got position165 actually can 160 de but everyone cutcutcut then my time also push back...bad lor!
Then me and jos went library wen rui couldnt come coz she run le asthma attack and fainted poor gurl....then we go arh do cip lol 1hr 45mins shelf bks fun lor!vanessa and cherilynn also dere =) but they a while den go home le. we after tt borrow bk then cannot find bk for pw then we go tampines mall buy some things for kss b4 walking to de library. We search for a while but still cant find then go home lor waste a dae nth found...haiz..
I reach home arh shower le my dad let me plae com is he call me plae de lor! :P then my mum scold me sae exams coming still plae plae plae dun revise then started nagging and scolding me! My dad still happily sleeping in the living room...mum sae arh library cannot find then search in com la i sae is need bk she started nagging again then call me search! She talk so long forgot i said tt nid bk arh!!!!I very fed up now lor coz these few daes arh my mum keep so bad mood I made an effort to make it better make her smile and happier so tt lyk the family not so wad la but wad's de use she still lyk tt wad, scold scold scold i also dun answer back de lor i nvr did juz no response or walk away i noe also very rude la but i enough troubles le lor they lyk tt make me hate it more...hate the home hate life i hate everything!
Why are things so bad now? Wan to find something to vent on also cannot, cannot anyhow scream cannot hit things lol best way is to hurt myself but wad can i do la i not mad de lor now i understand y the ppl on tv show rite always hurt themselves to make things 'better' coz it's de best and onli way...especially for kids but wad can I do la kill myself meh....Nth is going well now le lor godwin still angry with me cant sumthing be rite???? =( :'(