Been sick for like 2 weeks liao :(
SLacked so much in these two weeks la
coz eat med then keep sleeping
then nvr do work
then coz mum say sick dun stay back ma
in the end slacked damn a lot~~~~~
haiya. ya la
must start chionging again liao haiz
my seld-declared break is over then~
it shouldn't have existed anyway
HOW CAN I REST THIS YEAR -.-
zzz anyway too late.
i just gotta buck up again ya?(:
haiz. AAHHHH so lagging behind :(
okokokokok jy -.-
and well someone had been a distraction too~
yawn~i was distracted without feeling distracted LOL
whatever la
i dun care XD
as long as i get my studying done from TOMORROW ONWARDS
i. will. start. studying. again.
nono.
i. will. CONTINUE. my. studying.....
good luck to myself XDD
2011-02-14
THE JC LIGHTBULB JOKE XD
saw it again on fb today XDXD
DAMN FUNNY HAHAHAHAHA
it's sortof true XDDD
Q: How many RJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: 4 whole faculties. One to design the new bulb, one to
manufacture and test it out, one to write a proposal on it and one to market it.
Q: How many HCJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: The whole school. To compete with RJC.
Q: How many VJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: The whole school. One student to screw it in and the rest to cheer and wave flags and banners to give him/her support.
Q: How many NJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They can study without light.
Q: How many AJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: They’re too busy trying to be one of the top 5 JCs.
Q: How many ACJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They’ll rather use all their money to employ YJC to do it for them.
Q: How many YJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Only one teacher to tell them what a light bulb is in the first place and to demonstrate how to change the light bulb. (So how do you think they’re able to change it for ACJC?)
Q: How many CJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: They’ll prefer it to be darker. (Hmmmm?*raises eye-brows* )
Q: How many JJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Their physics is so bad that they made their macho male physics teacher cry.
Q: How many TPJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Would they even bother?
Q: How many SAJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They believe in praying for it.
Q: How many NYJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are still using oil lamps.
Q: How many SRJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: Huh, what litebarb?
Q: How many PJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: Heck the light bulb lah, the principal would do something about the rightbarbs. Let’s do 300 jumping jacks for not wearing the proper school attire.
Q: How many MJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are too busy trying to get promoted.
Q: How many IJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are Innovians. They’ll find ways out of the dark.
Q: Who wrote all this?
A: A TJCian.
Q: How many TJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They think they are already very bright.
DAMN FUNNY HAHAHAHAHA
it's sortof true XDDD
Q: How many RJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: 4 whole faculties. One to design the new bulb, one to
manufacture and test it out, one to write a proposal on it and one to market it.
Q: How many HCJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: The whole school. To compete with RJC.
Q: How many VJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: The whole school. One student to screw it in and the rest to cheer and wave flags and banners to give him/her support.
Q: How many NJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They can study without light.
Q: How many AJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: They’re too busy trying to be one of the top 5 JCs.
Q: How many ACJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They’ll rather use all their money to employ YJC to do it for them.
Q: How many YJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Only one teacher to tell them what a light bulb is in the first place and to demonstrate how to change the light bulb. (So how do you think they’re able to change it for ACJC?)
Q: How many CJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: They’ll prefer it to be darker. (Hmmmm?*raises eye-brows* )
Q: How many JJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Their physics is so bad that they made their macho male physics teacher cry.
Q: How many TPJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. Would they even bother?
Q: How many SAJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They believe in praying for it.
Q: How many NYJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are still using oil lamps.
Q: How many SRJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: Huh, what litebarb?
Q: How many PJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: Heck the light bulb lah, the principal would do something about the rightbarbs. Let’s do 300 jumping jacks for not wearing the proper school attire.
Q: How many MJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are too busy trying to get promoted.
Q: How many IJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They are Innovians. They’ll find ways out of the dark.
Q: Who wrote all this?
A: A TJCian.
Q: How many TJC students does it take to change a light bulb?
A: None. They think they are already very bright.
2011-01-16
This too will pass...
Well i have a cousin who became a monk
he asked me read this blog post he wrote
a very nice one(:
wanted to share so yea here it is.
it's LOOOONGGG but its really nice
so yea take some times n read it ba! :D
STARTS HERE :D:D
Felt like writing some things which may or may not relieve some friend's suffering. I may not be in the most qualified position to write about these topics because i might not have been through what they have gone through. But just pure intention to help them, with some simple reflections and changes in attitude towards life, relationships and crises. May this sharing help them.....
Love cover a very big part of our lives. Love for ourselves, love for our parents, friends and mates. But, do we really, know how to love, without hurting ourselves and others. Firstly I would like to say about two types of love. Conditional love, and Unconditional love.
Conditional love;
"I love you from the bottom of my heart........I love you forever....." We find these words coming frequently to our ears when we're in love with our mates. But, what does the love here means? Does it mean that we love them only if they love us, or do the way we want them to do, or love the feelings that we have inside us when we're with them? What are we in love with? The feelings when we're with them or they themselves no matter how stinky, rotten or smelly they are (after they finished a half marathon, *laughs*). The definition of love means to care for, to show friendliness or affection for another.....Many times in our life, we love the feeling when we're together or we love them coz they just make us happy with their monkey jokes (*laughs). I used to be a monkey also (*laugh*). Anyway thats why when whatever they do do not match with our feelings, or when we don't expect monkey shows but monkeys just run around jumping here and there, we suffer...we cannot endure it and get involve in a quarral. JUST because of feelings........See the impact of feelings? I'm not trying to say that when we love someone we do not have feelings, but the attachment to the feelings (which is impermanent) is the problem because we are grasping hold to something which is impermanent, which will disappear......but our attachment doesn't want it to disappear.......
When someone expects whatever is impossible as possible, they will surely fail their expectation and become disappointed because there is the law of nature, impermananc.....And when one doesn't want to face the reality of the law of nature happening around us, many suffer. Also.....with this conditional love attitude, many couples suffer......because it becomes a love game of controlling and wanting. Wanting my wife to be slimer....wanting my husband to be more sensitive......wanting my husband to be from a rich family........wanting him/her to make me feel this way or that way..........wanting my husband/wife to be only faithful to me.......wanting my husband to have a clean history of abstinence of sex before me.....wanting my mate to only be with me no matter he/she's happy or not..........My friends, THESE ARE IMPERMANENT AND HAVE A POSSIBILITY TO HAPPEN~Welcome to the real world....
I would like to share a story here at this point.....There was a young king, who had a problem of extreme emotions...... Whenever the country had a problem he could not solve and was hopeless, he would just go back to his room and sulk up and sob and get depressed for weeks and months......So when there was a crisis, all he could do was to get sooooo caught up in his emotions and just sulk up and get depressed.......On the other hand, when the country was prospering, he would party with his loyal ministers and citizens for weeks and months.......So....of course, the country was not very well managed and not prospering because the young king wasn't doing anything substantial and useful......So, the wiser minsters worked up a plan to help him........they gave him a ring with the words"this too will pass" and made him look at it everyday. So, whenever he gets depressed, he would look at the ring and tells himself "this too will pass"... Whenever the country is prospering, he would look at the ring and tells himself this too will pass"......So in the end, whenever he gets depressed, he doesn't lose hope because he knows that by bearing it for a period of time, the difficulty will pass......and he doesn't get too high-headed when the country is prospering because he knows, "this too will pass" and he continues to be viligiant over his duties. In this way, the country prospers with his stable emotions and attitude to life which accords to the law of nature.......
Are we doing it the same to our "country"(mind)? Whenever some crises in life happens to us, we get caught up in depression and when the happy moments come we just take it for granted and forget about planting the causes for more happiness in the future. So, i hope this phase "this too will pass" which reminds one of impermenancy will help my friends.
Unconditional love
There is on the other hand, another aspect of love....Love which is not bounded with conditions......Love which does not hurts......Love which only gives without ever wanting to have anything in return......This is , unconditional love towards another......
I found that many people I've seen, they get hurt because of love. Sometimes its because their mates do the wrong things at the wrong time....Sometimes its because their mates do some things which they cannot accept.....Sometimes it just because they don't FEEL like watching a monkey show, but their mates keep jumping around teasing or scolding them......Well, if we really want to get a perfect mate, we should just get a TV with the remote controller on our hands all the time (*laughs*)...... If we can realise that feelings, emotions and thinkings are impermanent, then there's no meaning to try to control and grasp our mate's thinking towards us, feelings towards us, wanting them to be happy all the time but when they get sad we get sad too........
But, if we can show them all the love and care(care and concern and affection) towards them, no matter if they reciprocrate and love us or not....If we have this knowing that whether they love us back or not is impermanent and is not definite even if in the end they will have been with us for a long time, we will have lesser suffering whenever our mates turn their backs on us because ITS THE WAY ITS SUPPOSE TO BE ACCORDING TO THE LAW OF NATURE. It's impermanent. This is wiser and truer love isn't it? Rather than trying to control and grasp our mate's feelings, thinkings to make them stay with us, trying means and ways to get love results.........There's no true sincerity in this.....Only greed and attachment.......
Also, if we want others to love ourselves, its only reasonable that we should make ourselves lovable and the first thing to make ourselves lovable is to love ourselves, no matter how much rubbish we have inside of us.....But it doesn't mean that we don't change the rubbish inside. Rather, if we can change our character and attitudes to being better, more positive, more happy and peace natured, more virtuous as a woman/man, more balanced emotional intelligence and less mind games with our mates, naturally we would have be planting the seeds (causes) for us to be lovable. Even if they don't, we're having such a great and happy time improving ourselves and loving ourselves without attachments and expectations that we don't need them anymore, whether they're there or not..... We did not choose to have rubbish inside us...Who doesn't want to be pure minded and with great character and appeearence since we were born. However, these are things we cannot control because phenomena happens to us because of various complicated cause and effects. We cannot choose to be a chinese or an indian. Our past causes made us this way and past causes also made happy and bad things happen to us........ So, since only now then we know more about the law of cause and effect and impermanence through The Buddha's Teaching, we have courage to embrace our negativities and because of impermanence, we have hope in changing for the better because things will not always be this way. "This too will pass".
Also another problem I see in couples nowadays are that they just want want want.......But very few couples think about give give give.....to their mates. With wanting with attachment, there would be controlling and greed......And with this wrong cause, there will be suffering when we do not get what we want.......Isn't that the same case in life. When we want many things with attachments, but when we do not get, we suffer disappointments, depression and some even suicidal thoughts. But things are just impermanent isn't it. Sometimes we get, sometimes we don't get..... Whats wrong? The only thing wrong i see is that we're trying to make human waste smell nice(*laugh*) . Human waste will always be smelly isn't it? This is the way of nature.....When we want things to be permanent but they change because the law of nature is impermanent, suffering is inevitable. So when our attitude defies the law of nature, we have mental suffering because of that. Wrong causes and wrong expectations and wrong attitude. If there is unconditional giving of love to others no matter the result or no matter they reciprocrate in return, we would not have such problems. If we can love others no matter their past is good or dirty, we would be truly loving them as they really are and not in love with our concepts of "cleaniness". Some may call this unconditional love stupid because it doesn't give any results and one-sided.....Precisely! When we do not want any result from our love and care for others, this would be truer love isn't it? Rather than the love of the result from giving....
All i want to say is that, if we really love others, we just want them to be well and happy. The concept of love is to want the ones we love to be well and happy isn't it. If they have found someone better, won't it be great for them to have found someone better and more happier with than us. We should be happy for them and still send them our love and concern....If they're happy with us now, who cares about their past since now we can show care and concern for each other. Thats more important isn't it, the well-being of that person and not us. If we can't do that, there's definitely some greed and attachment around and if we do not relinquish and let go of these attachments, we're bound to suffer. Because greed and attachments are causes of suffering according to The Buddha's teaching. If we can do that, we're sending selfless love to all beings.
But inevitably, there will be moments in life where we're just overwhelmed by our negative emotions and thoughts. So what should we do at that time? DON'T DO ANYTHING. DON'T TRUST YOUR FEELINGS, EMOTIONS, AND THOUGHTS. Here i would like to share a few stories....
Once there was a monk who had been walking under the hot sun for a long time.. Then he happened to walk past the beach....Though monks were not supposed to swim for fun, it was a hot afternoon and he had been walking under the sun for a long time. So he decided to go in for a dip. However, that beach was famous for its strong low tide under current. So after a while he realised that he was being pushed out towards the sea by the current.......So what did he do? He just relax and do nothing....and let the current push him out from the shore because he was very far from the shore at that time and the current was very strong. So it was until a while before the current subsided and then when he realised that the current had subsided, he swam with every bit of his remaining strength towards the shore and he managed to reach the shore.
Din we sometimes just get overwhelmed by our negative emotions or when disastorous things happen to us? So in that case, what should we do? Well the best and most effective way of handling such hopelessness is to DO NOTHING and let it pass. "This too will pass"~ Remember? Just relax and lie down and bear with it.....How many of us have made wrong and rush decisions when our mind and feelings were polluted with negative feelings and thoughts. Also there's another story about anger....
Once there was a king who reign in India. And then one day suddenly, a big ugly smelly offensive monster appear out of a sudden on his throne when he was away. So the guards and the ministers were taken aback and they appeared with sharp swords and spears and shouted to the monster to get out. With each offensive threat they made to the monster, the monster just gets bigger, and more smelly...than the smell of a fart after one eats durian, and more offensive in its speech.....than the complains made by BMT recruits who kanna night duty and stay in. (*laughs) Then the king came in, and this was a wise king. So when he saw that the monster just gets bigger and bigger, he stepped forward and said, Hello mr monster, how're you doing? Why din you come earlier? Did anyone get a cup of tea for you? Would you like peppermint or chamomile? With that, the monster gets a bit smaller.....And the ministers and guards, when they saw this, they knew what was going to help and they started to treat the monster in a nice way.....some offered pizza....MONSTER SIZE(*LAUGH) some helped to massage the feet.....someone did reiki on the monster.........some sang and danced for the monster......So with each kind act, the monster gets smaller and smaller and smaller.......until it just disappears.......
Many times in our life, as we look inside ourselves, din we always see the anger monster, greed monster, revenge monster, jealousy monster, controlling others monster coming up in our mind? What do we do with these monster that just come out of a sudden from nowhere? Do we treat it with hostility? or do we treat it with loving kindness and compassion? How is it possible, according to law of nature of cause and effect that unwholesomeness will overcome unwholesomeness to give us peace and happiness in our life.......In the law of nature, only love and patience can overcome anger...........So, similarly, only wholesome qualities can overcome unwholesome qualities......Therefore, the next time these monster come up to the door of your heart, invite them in, treat them nicely and invite them for a "monster party"! (*laughs). Well, they're impermanent in nature isn't it. So just let them come and go as they want, and do nothing with them....neither resist nor try to grasp and control them. Have a loving and understanding attitude towards them and then, they will go when their time is up.....Its just so simple......Dun get dragged by them by the nose..........Phenomena comes because there is condition....phenomena goes because the conditions for it disappears........."this too will pass" Dun worry too much about them. Its the same attitude of unconditional love that we show outside to others and inside to our defilements and bad habits and good habits whenever they come up..... Unconditional love can be practiced anytime, anywhere.......inside of us or to others.
A lot of things to share....one night isn't enough to finish typing.....i'll just share the last story here.......
Once, there was a monk who was building a wall......He did his best and he was very satisfied with his work. However, he saw that ONE of the bricks was not properly laid.......He was soooooooooo upset that he could not go for almsround or meditate. His mind just kept thinking about that ONE brick.......So one day, when there were visitors, they praised the wall for being nicely laid. The monk, was present and he was soo suprised. He asked them whether they saw the ONE brick which was laid inproperly.....So they told him that THAT brick was laid inproperly, but there the rest of the 99% of the bricks are okay......
Didn't we always in life, look at that ONE brick or two which was laid inproperly, but neglected the rest of the 99% of the wonderful bricks that we have within ourselves and happening to us.......Everytime we have problems, our minds tend to narrow down and just look at and magnify that ONE BRICK......But we have never thought of remembering the other 99% of the good bricks that we have laid. Similarly, when we look at our problems within ourselves, isn't it always that we always pay so much attention to the ONE brick that we have and forget about the other 99% good bricks that we've laid........It just makes people depressed and negative isn't it........Isn't it just be better to be contented with the 99% good bricks rather than turning around on that ONE brick? Not that we should not improve on it....but being sad and negative about it doesn't work.....Sometimes, improvements isn't just about changing our bad habits.....Improvements in life are also about improving our good habits and qualities we have within us isn't it.........Thats why its no wonder why sometimes people are just so down, because they keep seeing the bad side of themselves and the things outside which are happening them......But they never realistically tell themselves "hey theres good side also leh!!" and look at the good side of themselves and the things happening to them.........Therefore, I sincerely hope that my friends who are in trouble at some point of time in life, can remember the 99% good bricks, which have been laid out by them when they accidentally laid the ONE brick incorrectly........
Coming to the end, I wish to send phases of loving kindness to my friends who have problems.....Hope this Dhamma will help them in their lives, present and future.....
May all beings be well, peaceful and happy,no matter what happens to them~
May all beings be able to face all obstacles in life, in accordance with Dhamma~
May all beings be free from suffering!
THE END :D
Yepp hope you like it :D
"this too will pass"...
he asked me read this blog post he wrote
a very nice one(:
wanted to share so yea here it is.
it's LOOOONGGG but its really nice
so yea take some times n read it ba! :D
STARTS HERE :D:D
Felt like writing some things which may or may not relieve some friend's suffering. I may not be in the most qualified position to write about these topics because i might not have been through what they have gone through. But just pure intention to help them, with some simple reflections and changes in attitude towards life, relationships and crises. May this sharing help them.....
Love cover a very big part of our lives. Love for ourselves, love for our parents, friends and mates. But, do we really, know how to love, without hurting ourselves and others. Firstly I would like to say about two types of love. Conditional love, and Unconditional love.
Conditional love;
"I love you from the bottom of my heart........I love you forever....." We find these words coming frequently to our ears when we're in love with our mates. But, what does the love here means? Does it mean that we love them only if they love us, or do the way we want them to do, or love the feelings that we have inside us when we're with them? What are we in love with? The feelings when we're with them or they themselves no matter how stinky, rotten or smelly they are (after they finished a half marathon, *laughs*). The definition of love means to care for, to show friendliness or affection for another.....Many times in our life, we love the feeling when we're together or we love them coz they just make us happy with their monkey jokes (*laughs). I used to be a monkey also (*laugh*). Anyway thats why when whatever they do do not match with our feelings, or when we don't expect monkey shows but monkeys just run around jumping here and there, we suffer...we cannot endure it and get involve in a quarral. JUST because of feelings........See the impact of feelings? I'm not trying to say that when we love someone we do not have feelings, but the attachment to the feelings (which is impermanent) is the problem because we are grasping hold to something which is impermanent, which will disappear......but our attachment doesn't want it to disappear.......
When someone expects whatever is impossible as possible, they will surely fail their expectation and become disappointed because there is the law of nature, impermananc.....And when one doesn't want to face the reality of the law of nature happening around us, many suffer. Also.....with this conditional love attitude, many couples suffer......because it becomes a love game of controlling and wanting. Wanting my wife to be slimer....wanting my husband to be more sensitive......wanting my husband to be from a rich family........wanting him/her to make me feel this way or that way..........wanting my husband/wife to be only faithful to me.......wanting my husband to have a clean history of abstinence of sex before me.....wanting my mate to only be with me no matter he/she's happy or not..........My friends, THESE ARE IMPERMANENT AND HAVE A POSSIBILITY TO HAPPEN~Welcome to the real world....
I would like to share a story here at this point.....There was a young king, who had a problem of extreme emotions...... Whenever the country had a problem he could not solve and was hopeless, he would just go back to his room and sulk up and sob and get depressed for weeks and months......So when there was a crisis, all he could do was to get sooooo caught up in his emotions and just sulk up and get depressed.......On the other hand, when the country was prospering, he would party with his loyal ministers and citizens for weeks and months.......So....of course, the country was not very well managed and not prospering because the young king wasn't doing anything substantial and useful......So, the wiser minsters worked up a plan to help him........they gave him a ring with the words"this too will pass" and made him look at it everyday. So, whenever he gets depressed, he would look at the ring and tells himself "this too will pass"... Whenever the country is prospering, he would look at the ring and tells himself this too will pass"......So in the end, whenever he gets depressed, he doesn't lose hope because he knows that by bearing it for a period of time, the difficulty will pass......and he doesn't get too high-headed when the country is prospering because he knows, "this too will pass" and he continues to be viligiant over his duties. In this way, the country prospers with his stable emotions and attitude to life which accords to the law of nature.......
Are we doing it the same to our "country"(mind)? Whenever some crises in life happens to us, we get caught up in depression and when the happy moments come we just take it for granted and forget about planting the causes for more happiness in the future. So, i hope this phase "this too will pass" which reminds one of impermenancy will help my friends.
Unconditional love
There is on the other hand, another aspect of love....Love which is not bounded with conditions......Love which does not hurts......Love which only gives without ever wanting to have anything in return......This is , unconditional love towards another......
I found that many people I've seen, they get hurt because of love. Sometimes its because their mates do the wrong things at the wrong time....Sometimes its because their mates do some things which they cannot accept.....Sometimes it just because they don't FEEL like watching a monkey show, but their mates keep jumping around teasing or scolding them......Well, if we really want to get a perfect mate, we should just get a TV with the remote controller on our hands all the time (*laughs*)...... If we can realise that feelings, emotions and thinkings are impermanent, then there's no meaning to try to control and grasp our mate's thinking towards us, feelings towards us, wanting them to be happy all the time but when they get sad we get sad too........
But, if we can show them all the love and care(care and concern and affection) towards them, no matter if they reciprocrate and love us or not....If we have this knowing that whether they love us back or not is impermanent and is not definite even if in the end they will have been with us for a long time, we will have lesser suffering whenever our mates turn their backs on us because ITS THE WAY ITS SUPPOSE TO BE ACCORDING TO THE LAW OF NATURE. It's impermanent. This is wiser and truer love isn't it? Rather than trying to control and grasp our mate's feelings, thinkings to make them stay with us, trying means and ways to get love results.........There's no true sincerity in this.....Only greed and attachment.......
Also, if we want others to love ourselves, its only reasonable that we should make ourselves lovable and the first thing to make ourselves lovable is to love ourselves, no matter how much rubbish we have inside of us.....But it doesn't mean that we don't change the rubbish inside. Rather, if we can change our character and attitudes to being better, more positive, more happy and peace natured, more virtuous as a woman/man, more balanced emotional intelligence and less mind games with our mates, naturally we would have be planting the seeds (causes) for us to be lovable. Even if they don't, we're having such a great and happy time improving ourselves and loving ourselves without attachments and expectations that we don't need them anymore, whether they're there or not..... We did not choose to have rubbish inside us...Who doesn't want to be pure minded and with great character and appeearence since we were born. However, these are things we cannot control because phenomena happens to us because of various complicated cause and effects. We cannot choose to be a chinese or an indian. Our past causes made us this way and past causes also made happy and bad things happen to us........ So, since only now then we know more about the law of cause and effect and impermanence through The Buddha's Teaching, we have courage to embrace our negativities and because of impermanence, we have hope in changing for the better because things will not always be this way. "This too will pass".
Also another problem I see in couples nowadays are that they just want want want.......But very few couples think about give give give.....to their mates. With wanting with attachment, there would be controlling and greed......And with this wrong cause, there will be suffering when we do not get what we want.......Isn't that the same case in life. When we want many things with attachments, but when we do not get, we suffer disappointments, depression and some even suicidal thoughts. But things are just impermanent isn't it. Sometimes we get, sometimes we don't get..... Whats wrong? The only thing wrong i see is that we're trying to make human waste smell nice(*laugh*) . Human waste will always be smelly isn't it? This is the way of nature.....When we want things to be permanent but they change because the law of nature is impermanent, suffering is inevitable. So when our attitude defies the law of nature, we have mental suffering because of that. Wrong causes and wrong expectations and wrong attitude. If there is unconditional giving of love to others no matter the result or no matter they reciprocrate in return, we would not have such problems. If we can love others no matter their past is good or dirty, we would be truly loving them as they really are and not in love with our concepts of "cleaniness". Some may call this unconditional love stupid because it doesn't give any results and one-sided.....Precisely! When we do not want any result from our love and care for others, this would be truer love isn't it? Rather than the love of the result from giving....
All i want to say is that, if we really love others, we just want them to be well and happy. The concept of love is to want the ones we love to be well and happy isn't it. If they have found someone better, won't it be great for them to have found someone better and more happier with than us. We should be happy for them and still send them our love and concern....If they're happy with us now, who cares about their past since now we can show care and concern for each other. Thats more important isn't it, the well-being of that person and not us. If we can't do that, there's definitely some greed and attachment around and if we do not relinquish and let go of these attachments, we're bound to suffer. Because greed and attachments are causes of suffering according to The Buddha's teaching. If we can do that, we're sending selfless love to all beings.
But inevitably, there will be moments in life where we're just overwhelmed by our negative emotions and thoughts. So what should we do at that time? DON'T DO ANYTHING. DON'T TRUST YOUR FEELINGS, EMOTIONS, AND THOUGHTS. Here i would like to share a few stories....
Once there was a monk who had been walking under the hot sun for a long time.. Then he happened to walk past the beach....Though monks were not supposed to swim for fun, it was a hot afternoon and he had been walking under the sun for a long time. So he decided to go in for a dip. However, that beach was famous for its strong low tide under current. So after a while he realised that he was being pushed out towards the sea by the current.......So what did he do? He just relax and do nothing....and let the current push him out from the shore because he was very far from the shore at that time and the current was very strong. So it was until a while before the current subsided and then when he realised that the current had subsided, he swam with every bit of his remaining strength towards the shore and he managed to reach the shore.
Din we sometimes just get overwhelmed by our negative emotions or when disastorous things happen to us? So in that case, what should we do? Well the best and most effective way of handling such hopelessness is to DO NOTHING and let it pass. "This too will pass"~ Remember? Just relax and lie down and bear with it.....How many of us have made wrong and rush decisions when our mind and feelings were polluted with negative feelings and thoughts. Also there's another story about anger....
Once there was a king who reign in India. And then one day suddenly, a big ugly smelly offensive monster appear out of a sudden on his throne when he was away. So the guards and the ministers were taken aback and they appeared with sharp swords and spears and shouted to the monster to get out. With each offensive threat they made to the monster, the monster just gets bigger, and more smelly...than the smell of a fart after one eats durian, and more offensive in its speech.....than the complains made by BMT recruits who kanna night duty and stay in. (*laughs) Then the king came in, and this was a wise king. So when he saw that the monster just gets bigger and bigger, he stepped forward and said, Hello mr monster, how're you doing? Why din you come earlier? Did anyone get a cup of tea for you? Would you like peppermint or chamomile? With that, the monster gets a bit smaller.....And the ministers and guards, when they saw this, they knew what was going to help and they started to treat the monster in a nice way.....some offered pizza....MONSTER SIZE(*LAUGH) some helped to massage the feet.....someone did reiki on the monster.........some sang and danced for the monster......So with each kind act, the monster gets smaller and smaller and smaller.......until it just disappears.......
Many times in our life, as we look inside ourselves, din we always see the anger monster, greed monster, revenge monster, jealousy monster, controlling others monster coming up in our mind? What do we do with these monster that just come out of a sudden from nowhere? Do we treat it with hostility? or do we treat it with loving kindness and compassion? How is it possible, according to law of nature of cause and effect that unwholesomeness will overcome unwholesomeness to give us peace and happiness in our life.......In the law of nature, only love and patience can overcome anger...........So, similarly, only wholesome qualities can overcome unwholesome qualities......Therefore, the next time these monster come up to the door of your heart, invite them in, treat them nicely and invite them for a "monster party"! (*laughs). Well, they're impermanent in nature isn't it. So just let them come and go as they want, and do nothing with them....neither resist nor try to grasp and control them. Have a loving and understanding attitude towards them and then, they will go when their time is up.....Its just so simple......Dun get dragged by them by the nose..........Phenomena comes because there is condition....phenomena goes because the conditions for it disappears........."this too will pass" Dun worry too much about them. Its the same attitude of unconditional love that we show outside to others and inside to our defilements and bad habits and good habits whenever they come up..... Unconditional love can be practiced anytime, anywhere.......inside of us or to others.
A lot of things to share....one night isn't enough to finish typing.....i'll just share the last story here.......
Once, there was a monk who was building a wall......He did his best and he was very satisfied with his work. However, he saw that ONE of the bricks was not properly laid.......He was soooooooooo upset that he could not go for almsround or meditate. His mind just kept thinking about that ONE brick.......So one day, when there were visitors, they praised the wall for being nicely laid. The monk, was present and he was soo suprised. He asked them whether they saw the ONE brick which was laid inproperly.....So they told him that THAT brick was laid inproperly, but there the rest of the 99% of the bricks are okay......
Didn't we always in life, look at that ONE brick or two which was laid inproperly, but neglected the rest of the 99% of the wonderful bricks that we have within ourselves and happening to us.......Everytime we have problems, our minds tend to narrow down and just look at and magnify that ONE BRICK......But we have never thought of remembering the other 99% of the good bricks that we have laid. Similarly, when we look at our problems within ourselves, isn't it always that we always pay so much attention to the ONE brick that we have and forget about the other 99% good bricks that we've laid........It just makes people depressed and negative isn't it........Isn't it just be better to be contented with the 99% good bricks rather than turning around on that ONE brick? Not that we should not improve on it....but being sad and negative about it doesn't work.....Sometimes, improvements isn't just about changing our bad habits.....Improvements in life are also about improving our good habits and qualities we have within us isn't it.........Thats why its no wonder why sometimes people are just so down, because they keep seeing the bad side of themselves and the things outside which are happening them......But they never realistically tell themselves "hey theres good side also leh!!" and look at the good side of themselves and the things happening to them.........Therefore, I sincerely hope that my friends who are in trouble at some point of time in life, can remember the 99% good bricks, which have been laid out by them when they accidentally laid the ONE brick incorrectly........
Coming to the end, I wish to send phases of loving kindness to my friends who have problems.....Hope this Dhamma will help them in their lives, present and future.....
May all beings be well, peaceful and happy,no matter what happens to them~
May all beings be able to face all obstacles in life, in accordance with Dhamma~
May all beings be free from suffering!
THE END :D
Yepp hope you like it :D
"this too will pass"...
2011-01-12
OH BTW MR CALVIN TAN ROCKS
maybe gp isn't tt bad after all hehe
He's really friendly and funny haha
He looks damn young eh but he also teach few years le wor!
He was complaining he need stay till 350 every thurs n fri coz of us
Haha then he say tt room veeerryy bad
Cursed room
Haha then coz liou jing n miranda both sprained legs
He was hoping it will last for a year LOL
Then can go first storey haha
Played a small game with us too just now
And linked it to gp...haha it was ok la
Laughed a lot haha
And we still dunno IS HE MARRIIIIED??
Well that topic came up a bit haha
But he dun answer hahahhaa
And we are super curious HOW OLD IS HEE haha
He's nice and fun la overall haha:D great:D
maybe gp isn't tt bad after all hehe
He's really friendly and funny haha
He looks damn young eh but he also teach few years le wor!
He was complaining he need stay till 350 every thurs n fri coz of us
Haha then he say tt room veeerryy bad
Cursed room
Haha then coz liou jing n miranda both sprained legs
He was hoping it will last for a year LOL
Then can go first storey haha
Played a small game with us too just now
And linked it to gp...haha it was ok la
Laughed a lot haha
And we still dunno IS HE MARRIIIIED??
Well that topic came up a bit haha
But he dun answer hahahhaa
And we are super curious HOW OLD IS HEE haha
He's nice and fun la overall haha:D great:D
Hmmmm
Haiz still in school now it's lunchtime(:
Just now before cll lesson I saw peng lao shi
Let's call her pls for now^^
I called her
Then she say go find her chatchat when I free pols
Scare me ehhh haha
I tot got what thin la maybe results or sth
After cll lesson with goh xinhui I went find pls lor
Coz I free period ma
So she brought me to the lep room to chatchat....
Well in staff room she told me she marked my 手记 already
Which is something like journal. That I handed in only ytd
So I sort of guessed what she wan say le...
Coz in the journal this time got three posts
One about my family...
I wrote coz tt day my parents quarreled again
I was irritated haha
One more say must work harder liao
One more about my results
Yupps so she talked to me about the first post
Family thing lor
Personal haha(:
But it was really nice of her
She told me her family also problematic de
Coz a lot siblings then parents dun care de girls including her la
Only like guys ma last time de
Then they were very poor nothing eat
Any money also mum take from them de
Very poor thing
Parents also always quarrel etc
Yea so she was saying...
Well atmosphere a bit...weird ba
A bit emo hahhaa
Then I felt teary lols
Haiyo after tt she tell me
Like must think ah etc
Try to change myself
Change the family a bit etc
Then in the end really got tears fell haha
By the time say finish I really crying le
Though I was smiling an laughing a bit still
Trying not to cry ma
Coz I have no idea why I was crying at all-.-
I mean yea my parents are annoying and upsetting sometimes
But now it's fine la
Ok well everytime think of the bad times ah also wan cry la-.-
But I dunno eh just naturally wanted cry just now haha
ANYWAY
So she helped me take tissue from staff room
Then I left liao after thanking her
I can't thank her enough man I mean it was nice of her la
To care and try to help
She say got problem can tell her too haha(:
So i went toilet wash face lor
A bit la coz wearing contacts can't wash properly
A bit can tell I cried la but ok eyes not red
No one realised
I only told wanshan...a bit when we went buy drinks
But she damn bochap sia haha
Whatever told jos too(:
Then here I am posting haha:P
Yea just recording a small incident of my life(:
Just now before cll lesson I saw peng lao shi
Let's call her pls for now^^
I called her
Then she say go find her chatchat when I free pols
Scare me ehhh haha
I tot got what thin la maybe results or sth
After cll lesson with goh xinhui I went find pls lor
Coz I free period ma
So she brought me to the lep room to chatchat....
Well in staff room she told me she marked my 手记 already
Which is something like journal. That I handed in only ytd
So I sort of guessed what she wan say le...
Coz in the journal this time got three posts
One about my family...
I wrote coz tt day my parents quarreled again
I was irritated haha
One more say must work harder liao
One more about my results
Yupps so she talked to me about the first post
Family thing lor
Personal haha(:
But it was really nice of her
She told me her family also problematic de
Coz a lot siblings then parents dun care de girls including her la
Only like guys ma last time de
Then they were very poor nothing eat
Any money also mum take from them de
Very poor thing
Parents also always quarrel etc
Yea so she was saying...
Well atmosphere a bit...weird ba
A bit emo hahhaa
Then I felt teary lols
Haiyo after tt she tell me
Like must think ah etc
Try to change myself
Change the family a bit etc
Then in the end really got tears fell haha
By the time say finish I really crying le
Though I was smiling an laughing a bit still
Trying not to cry ma
Coz I have no idea why I was crying at all-.-
I mean yea my parents are annoying and upsetting sometimes
But now it's fine la
Ok well everytime think of the bad times ah also wan cry la-.-
But I dunno eh just naturally wanted cry just now haha
ANYWAY
So she helped me take tissue from staff room
Then I left liao after thanking her
I can't thank her enough man I mean it was nice of her la
To care and try to help
She say got problem can tell her too haha(:
So i went toilet wash face lor
A bit la coz wearing contacts can't wash properly
A bit can tell I cried la but ok eyes not red
No one realised
I only told wanshan...a bit when we went buy drinks
But she damn bochap sia haha
Whatever told jos too(:
Then here I am posting haha:P
Yea just recording a small incident of my life(:
2011-01-10
GPGPGPGP
Our new gp teacher! MR CALVIN TAN!!!
i didnt know who he is!
heard his name before but dunno is who
we were worried he will be scary
or lousy cher
then damn sianz
gp die.
though most would be better than ms ong :P
(oh my ms ong permed hair sia!why so many ppl perm hair!!)
then this morning
after assembly
i dunno y la but i was looking somewhr else
when i turn back
saw a very young male teacher standing in front of me LOL
i was quite surprised eh
he said hi LOL i said hi la haha
then ask if is 30/10 i say ya
then ask no guys ar i say have. one.
he laughed haha then he asked
whether our class is noisy rowdy or what
then i say ok la. sometimes la. haha
then he nodnod then walk away sia
i was still stunned HAHAHAHAHA
HE DAMN RANDOM EHHHH
BUT VERY FRIENDLY LA :D:D
and just five minutes ago
when i typing this
I REALISED
HE'S THE CUTE TEACHER I MENTIONED
IN THE INTERESTING GP LECTURE POST!!!!
COOL SIA :D:D:D
after that i heard from someone that
mr calvin tan who is our new gp teacher
is very young look our age de
then dunno who help me link
that cher in the morning is him!
LOL COOL :D:D
YAY GP GOT HOPE:D:D:D:D:D:D
i didnt know who he is!
heard his name before but dunno is who
we were worried he will be scary
or lousy cher
then damn sianz
gp die.
though most would be better than ms ong :P
(oh my ms ong permed hair sia!why so many ppl perm hair!!)
then this morning
after assembly
i dunno y la but i was looking somewhr else
when i turn back
saw a very young male teacher standing in front of me LOL
i was quite surprised eh
he said hi LOL i said hi la haha
then ask if is 30/10 i say ya
then ask no guys ar i say have. one.
he laughed haha then he asked
whether our class is noisy rowdy or what
then i say ok la. sometimes la. haha
then he nodnod then walk away sia
i was still stunned HAHAHAHAHA
HE DAMN RANDOM EHHHH
BUT VERY FRIENDLY LA :D:D
and just five minutes ago
when i typing this
I REALISED
HE'S THE CUTE TEACHER I MENTIONED
IN THE INTERESTING GP LECTURE POST!!!!
COOL SIA :D:D:D
after that i heard from someone that
mr calvin tan who is our new gp teacher
is very young look our age de
then dunno who help me link
that cher in the morning is him!
LOL COOL :D:D
YAY GP GOT HOPE:D:D:D:D:D:D
2010-10-18
Appreciation
SO LONG NVR POST HERE LOL
always post at my private de forgot here hahahahha
anyway!
today pe damn suck!!!
ran to east coast and back
maybe coz too long nvr run le
maybe coz breakfast
i couldnt run
ran with carol there
walked almost half the way
reach there almost died
a bit nauseous
coming back
i 90% walk lols.
couldnt take it la
almost vomited eh
walkwalk still ok
when stop at traffic light
felt super nauseous
reached sku left a bit chiong back lor
walked to the bags there sat down
when getting up to leave
nauseous again
ugh damn ugh haha
stupid pe!!
stupid ecp!
felt so uncomfortable just now
still need change into uni eh! tsk.
gp ar i realised the ques i wrote
I WAS THE ONLY ONE IN CLASS WHO WROTE
lols i already regretted anyway
coz its quite tough
i think i off topic le tskk zzz
anyway my post title today
APPRECIATION!
today pw op
wanshan group and veron group.
i wrote comments for them while i listened
questioned a lot stuff
picked up stuff
commented quite a lot.
wrote down on paper ma
after wanshan they all finished
i passed to them
they looked so touched wow.
i just...wanted to do lols.
scared bored or sth ba or just suddenly feeling nice hahahaha
didnt think they would be so happy haha
i passed to wanshan she see le
give ying en
ying en call me and say thank you looking rly surprised eh!
LOL i was so touched by their act of appreciation.
i appreciate their appreciation haha.
veron's grp
i passed to jiaying
she look at it then looked 'WOW' too hahahaha
then she asked who write de
i say me
and she said tahnk you sincerely too! wow....
i was surprised.
i nvr tot it was tt big deal at all...
i was so happy hahahahaha
it really feels great to be appreciated.
though i nvr meant for it lols((:
glad they liked it. glad they found it useful
i still scared they feel offended or sth lols :P
always post at my private de forgot here hahahahha
anyway!
today pe damn suck!!!
ran to east coast and back
maybe coz too long nvr run le
maybe coz breakfast
i couldnt run
ran with carol there
walked almost half the way
reach there almost died
a bit nauseous
coming back
i 90% walk lols.
couldnt take it la
almost vomited eh
walkwalk still ok
when stop at traffic light
felt super nauseous
reached sku left a bit chiong back lor
walked to the bags there sat down
when getting up to leave
nauseous again
ugh damn ugh haha
stupid pe!!
stupid ecp!
felt so uncomfortable just now
still need change into uni eh! tsk.
gp ar i realised the ques i wrote
I WAS THE ONLY ONE IN CLASS WHO WROTE
lols i already regretted anyway
coz its quite tough
i think i off topic le tskk zzz
anyway my post title today
APPRECIATION!
today pw op
wanshan group and veron group.
i wrote comments for them while i listened
questioned a lot stuff
picked up stuff
commented quite a lot.
wrote down on paper ma
after wanshan they all finished
i passed to them
they looked so touched wow.
i just...wanted to do lols.
scared bored or sth ba or just suddenly feeling nice hahahaha
didnt think they would be so happy haha
i passed to wanshan she see le
give ying en
ying en call me and say thank you looking rly surprised eh!
LOL i was so touched by their act of appreciation.
i appreciate their appreciation haha.
veron's grp
i passed to jiaying
she look at it then looked 'WOW' too hahahaha
then she asked who write de
i say me
and she said tahnk you sincerely too! wow....
i was surprised.
i nvr tot it was tt big deal at all...
i was so happy hahahahaha
it really feels great to be appreciated.
though i nvr meant for it lols((:
glad they liked it. glad they found it useful
i still scared they feel offended or sth lols :P
2010-09-11
EPIC:D
HAHAHAH DAMN FUNNY :D:D
it's been a long time since a suaning session like this
and im totally enjoying myself hahahahaha
go fb see!!!! its the epic suaning session
damn funny hahahahaha lala~
it's been a long time since a suaning session like this
and im totally enjoying myself hahahahaha
go fb see!!!! its the epic suaning session
damn funny hahahahaha lala~
2010-09-01
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!:D
Happy Teachers' Day to allllll teachers!
Every teacher deserves to be praised and rewarded definitely(:
No matter how little effort is put in, it's still an effort.
And every of that little effort have the potential to affect someone's life!
That's how holy and crucial a teacher's job is :D:D
Hence, i hereby bow in due respect to all teachers! (excluding some perverts etc)
I respect all teachers for all that they do for their students
I respect them for all the patience and effort put in
I respect them for showing any little care or concern for students
I respect them for showing appreciation for students' efforts too!
A teacher's job is definitely NOT easy since
students nowadays are getting harder and harder to control.
But that makes teachers more respect-able and excellent haha :D
With all that they do, some students never notice.
That's a sad thing for teachers
so I hereby represent all appreciative and grateful students
and thank ALL teachers who ever did anything nice for their students!
Thank you for all your guidance, patience and efforts!
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!
Every teacher deserves to be praised and rewarded definitely(:
No matter how little effort is put in, it's still an effort.
And every of that little effort have the potential to affect someone's life!
That's how holy and crucial a teacher's job is :D:D
Hence, i hereby bow in due respect to all teachers! (excluding some perverts etc)
I respect all teachers for all that they do for their students
I respect them for all the patience and effort put in
I respect them for showing any little care or concern for students
I respect them for showing appreciation for students' efforts too!
A teacher's job is definitely NOT easy since
students nowadays are getting harder and harder to control.
But that makes teachers more respect-able and excellent haha :D
With all that they do, some students never notice.
That's a sad thing for teachers
so I hereby represent all appreciative and grateful students
and thank ALL teachers who ever did anything nice for their students!
Thank you for all your guidance, patience and efforts!
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!
2010-08-22
DECLARED BANKRUPTY
SO POOR LE LAAA :(
SKU KEEP SUCK MONEY FROM USSS!!!!
econs book: $9
yearbook: $9.50
class photos: $13
errr what else.
CLEP farewell: $5
sth like tt. cant rmb liao.
1 week pay all these leh
(econs book is last week la.)
1 week pay...$27.50!!!! siao de :(
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
SKU KEEP SUCK MONEY FROM USSS!!!!
econs book: $9
yearbook: $9.50
class photos: $13
errr what else.
CLEP farewell: $5
sth like tt. cant rmb liao.
1 week pay all these leh
(econs book is last week la.)
1 week pay...$27.50!!!! siao de :(
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
2010-08-09
my days
HELLO
friday national day SO FUN :D
so high la hahahahaha
that mr ang ar siam attention totally hahahaha
mr chan so cute la hahahahaha
i dun like mr chua so bhb like tt...-.-
but zhekang they all all say he damn nice and dammn pro
say he used to take h3 maths AND econs lols
whatever i dunno him la dun care hahah :P
after that we went lunch and watch movie
just six of us.
veron elaine fanye liou jing yuyan and me
but fanye didnt watch the movie wor
she ownself walkwalk o.o
watched DESPICABLE ME!
haha not bad la quite funny.
after that went tampines sports hall lor
BADMINTON
but veron left so left 5 of us.
rotate for doubles lor.
quite fun eh :D
elaine pro la hahaha
fanye also!
followed by liou jing
then me and yuyan :P
sunday.
went jr house...de functions room
zp and jr go play bball
so i just follow them go there
watch them play haha
and take lottts of pics and videos heh :P
after that 4 strangers came and join them
sec 4s i think.
they quite good leh.
esp one very pro.
after that they left left the pro
he play with zp just 2 of them coz jr rest ma
he tried to teach zp some stunts haha
and then when he ask zp age ar
he dun believe zp sec 4 sia hahahahahaha
so funny la :P
he keep asking "SERIOUSLY?" "REALLY AR?" "ZHEN DE MA?" LOL
coz zp too short la haha kiddish face also haha
that guy quite tall also ma...
oh ya.
SYDNEY FORGOT ME LEH I SO SAD LA
last time she like to stick to me de
always play with her etc
THEN SHE FORGET ME LE WTH )#($U(@*#Y%(**%&
ytd saw her ma
then i go look in her face say HI!
then she ask "who's that" "who're you"
i stun.
WHAATTTT??????
SO SAD CAN :(
i think only 1 yr nvr see or less than 1 year leh!!!
she 5 years old that time know her
since then will play once in a while
she used to like me
like to stick to me
now what!?!?!?! now she..8 years old.
zixu same age as her
rmb me de leh
still like me haha
coz meet more often ba maybe
but i prefer sydney though she quite spoiled...
she 5 years old already had DS now she p2 got phone le.
lols. amazing eh?
now the generation...
LOL
(mr ang don't spoil ur kid like tt hor
stop ruining the future generations man... :P)
anyway hahahaha
at night went jr house
they watch tv ma so i go use com
coz my phone died
then need contact elaine and cher
coz of today plans ma
anyway so talk to cher on msn
MR ANG SO SUPER IRRITATING
ULTRA IRRITATING! LALALA~
*curse mr ang to get whole head white hair by age of 35*
then went home.
SIANZ LA SUPPOSED TO HAVE BADMINTON AFTER PW MEETING today
but aiya cancelled
i was so looking forward to it de hahaha
nvm la NEXT TIME!!!
so today went for pw meeting.
went macs for lunch first ma
then elaine de grp came join us
after lunch we split lor
my group + sarah went starbucks split jobs
after that
MINI TOONS HAVE 45% DISCOUNT TODAY! (and minibits and miniprincess)
for just ONE HOUR LEH
LOL
so we went shopping HAHA
bought stuff at minibits
paid for zhenyan's necklace coz she no money today
i bought a necklace for my mum bdae too
and some rubber bands.
then mini toons nth much so didnt buy
after that sarah they all all left
left me and zhenyan
we go t3 LOL
went mini toons at that side
i bought someone's present too
and cola sweet hahahaha thats about all i think
i lost my handphone pouch de CUTE keychain
so wanted buy BUT NO MORE LE SO SAD LA :( hahaha
i was the last customer who received the 45% discount! LOL
but queue DAMN LONG LA like half and hour or so lor
then went minibits again
bought a box to put my mum's necklace
promotion was over by then
but i got membership card ma
so cheap box become cheapcheap la. hahahaha
and then after dragging for so long finally went home
i went tm de mini toons
wanted to check if the keychain there have anot
but there also out of stock :(
wanted to buy another one
but i no more cash le:(
min $15 purchase to use credit card sianz
so i didnt buy.
next time ba.
still need go there some other time de
coz got more presents to buy.
all presents de not for myself :( hahaha
but i had fun haha :D
friday national day SO FUN :D
so high la hahahahaha
that mr ang ar siam attention totally hahahaha
mr chan so cute la hahahahaha
i dun like mr chua so bhb like tt...-.-
but zhekang they all all say he damn nice and dammn pro
say he used to take h3 maths AND econs lols
whatever i dunno him la dun care hahah :P
after that we went lunch and watch movie
just six of us.
veron elaine fanye liou jing yuyan and me
but fanye didnt watch the movie wor
she ownself walkwalk o.o
watched DESPICABLE ME!
haha not bad la quite funny.
after that went tampines sports hall lor
BADMINTON
but veron left so left 5 of us.
rotate for doubles lor.
quite fun eh :D
elaine pro la hahaha
fanye also!
followed by liou jing
then me and yuyan :P
sunday.
went jr house...de functions room
zp and jr go play bball
so i just follow them go there
watch them play haha
and take lottts of pics and videos heh :P
after that 4 strangers came and join them
sec 4s i think.
they quite good leh.
esp one very pro.
after that they left left the pro
he play with zp just 2 of them coz jr rest ma
he tried to teach zp some stunts haha
and then when he ask zp age ar
he dun believe zp sec 4 sia hahahahahaha
so funny la :P
he keep asking "SERIOUSLY?" "REALLY AR?" "ZHEN DE MA?" LOL
coz zp too short la haha kiddish face also haha
that guy quite tall also ma...
oh ya.
SYDNEY FORGOT ME LEH I SO SAD LA
last time she like to stick to me de
always play with her etc
THEN SHE FORGET ME LE WTH )#($U(@*#Y%(**%&
ytd saw her ma
then i go look in her face say HI!
then she ask "who's that" "who're you"
i stun.
WHAATTTT??????
SO SAD CAN :(
i think only 1 yr nvr see or less than 1 year leh!!!
she 5 years old that time know her
since then will play once in a while
she used to like me
like to stick to me
now what!?!?!?! now she..8 years old.
zixu same age as her
rmb me de leh
still like me haha
coz meet more often ba maybe
but i prefer sydney though she quite spoiled...
she 5 years old already had DS now she p2 got phone le.
lols. amazing eh?
now the generation...
LOL
(mr ang don't spoil ur kid like tt hor
stop ruining the future generations man... :P)
anyway hahahaha
at night went jr house
they watch tv ma so i go use com
coz my phone died
then need contact elaine and cher
coz of today plans ma
anyway so talk to cher on msn
MR ANG SO SUPER IRRITATING
ULTRA IRRITATING! LALALA~
*curse mr ang to get whole head white hair by age of 35*
then went home.
SIANZ LA SUPPOSED TO HAVE BADMINTON AFTER PW MEETING today
but aiya cancelled
i was so looking forward to it de hahaha
nvm la NEXT TIME!!!
so today went for pw meeting.
went macs for lunch first ma
then elaine de grp came join us
after lunch we split lor
my group + sarah went starbucks split jobs
after that
MINI TOONS HAVE 45% DISCOUNT TODAY! (and minibits and miniprincess)
for just ONE HOUR LEH
LOL
so we went shopping HAHA
bought stuff at minibits
paid for zhenyan's necklace coz she no money today
i bought a necklace for my mum bdae too
and some rubber bands.
then mini toons nth much so didnt buy
after that sarah they all all left
left me and zhenyan
we go t3 LOL
went mini toons at that side
i bought someone's present too
and cola sweet hahahaha thats about all i think
i lost my handphone pouch de CUTE keychain
so wanted buy BUT NO MORE LE SO SAD LA :( hahaha
i was the last customer who received the 45% discount! LOL
but queue DAMN LONG LA like half and hour or so lor
then went minibits again
bought a box to put my mum's necklace
promotion was over by then
but i got membership card ma
so cheap box become cheapcheap la. hahahaha
and then after dragging for so long finally went home
i went tm de mini toons
wanted to check if the keychain there have anot
but there also out of stock :(
wanted to buy another one
but i no more cash le:(
min $15 purchase to use credit card sianz
so i didnt buy.
next time ba.
still need go there some other time de
coz got more presents to buy.
all presents de not for myself :( hahaha
but i had fun haha :D
2010-07-30
exhausted. drained.
It's been a really busy two weeks...
now then come blog.
well super busy lor
everyday very late come home de
first with leo the I&I
after that busy with pw.
then today i guess im resting haha
gotta start doing work le.
haiz.
lots to catch up on!
these 2 weeks ar
everyday damn late sleep leh
suuuper tired :(
chem lecture nvr survive awake before
today slept like around 30-40 mins LOL
on and off la
last 10 mins then awake and listen lols
but i could catch what was going on still la
thankfully
hahahaha
coz i woke up when cher ask us try a question
at the end of the lecture notes.
a very simple question la
can do la at least. im not totally lost.
i caught impt stuff k :P
tt's the gd thing about on and off sleeping :p
but then ar
maths lecture bad.
starting to sleep for maths lectures :(
seriously.
too tired la
esp coz is first few periods
i havent wake yet
after first few usu i can stay awake de
maths lecture thurs de is first period leh
sot ar
sure sleep ma
but maths worse than chem
i dunno what was taught.
erm ok la since it's mostly written there
but i didnt catch most of it
mr ang say the way mrs tan teach not very gd
coz not clear though
ying en veron they all listened
but also couldnt get it anyway -.-
haiz super tired!!!!
everytime so late come home le hor
and then want do work ma
and then will keep falling asleep at my desk.
lols. eyes auto shut down de lols
oh ya zhenyan told me a joke today.
she ask: what's the meaning of brain dead?
answer is: the left brain has nothing right
and the right brain has nothing left HAHA
well i found it funny hahahaha
ok talking about zhenyan
PW!
it sucks man.
i dunno where to start
i shall not describe la.
summary: nothing is going well.
im at a loas of how to continue.
i damn fail lor
the game i made dammmn fail
as a leader also so fail :(
haiz.
yepp tt's about it.
and my mum is seriously #)(%(@&%(*&$
haiz.
im like so super tired le leh
and she has to be like this.
so not understanding tsk.
she scolded me for coming home so late everyday
for these few weeks leh
wth lor
like i want la
i so late ar i ownself super tired
and not very catching up with work leh
make me want to try harder...
coz i scared.
im dropping again...
cant let that happen.
so though i come home late
and super tired
i still try to stay awake
fail la but still try ma
try to do as much work as i can...
and yet she said
i do so much work also nvr do well what
i was like speechless?!?!
wth
she so pro she go study la
always like tt
wan me do well
then this one cannot that one cannot.
wan do well need sacrifice a lot leh
yet she doesnt allow me to do anything.
go out study also might not let
wan so educational stuff or whatever also cannot
as long as need money or a lot of time etc
then cannot.
even if it helps.
ah whatever.
change change.
ms ang my new maths tutor!
our class combine with 29 and 31 ma
then band into 3 maths class.
ours is first one called "entusiastic"
SUPER dumb name HAHAHAHA
anyway
yea ms ang teach
coz we lagging behind quite a bit ma
so she's like bullet train now
DAMN fast...................
im not catching up well in my tutorials!
and there's so much more work to do...
this weekend.
tmr got csc talk at yishun jc.
need wake up so early!!!! :(
deprived of sleep le leh still like tt...
then need do...
chem benzenes tutorial
pw...EOM!!
and plan for written report liao :(
haiz. just the thought of pw irks me now.
maths...tutorial 21 and 20 poyo.
cll...hmm read up? nth much i think.
econs erm wait. got hw...errr oh ya
market structure issues tutorial ws...
csc well got shou ji from last term LOL
last term need 8 this semester need 10
total need 18 more term 2-4
but i only got like...3-4 now.
SO MUCH more to do.
but i have no inspiration at all..................
haha.
i shall try to be more cheerful nowadays hahaha
thurs ar
morning mum totally ruined my mood
before i left for sku
so i was in a dull mood
but as the day went on
i got better haha
mood improved.
i was all smiley and cheerful
all the way
until i got home.
and then it went to horrible.
it became worse than morning -.-
mum left harsh words behind
before she left with my dad go out
zzz gd. alone at home
can cry at ease
wanted to shout man
she's so unreasonable...
i've been working hard
and coming home late everyday
and draining myself
coz of sku
NOT PLAY
how can she scold me for no reason like tt...
ridiculous
but no matter what happens
she ALWAYS thinks she's right.
she always say i do wrong thing dun say sorry
but i have NVR heard her say a word of sorry...
NVR. seriously. not to me or dad anyway.
simeple reason.
she thinks she's ALWAYS right.
ah whatever.
i cant bring myself to burst her bubble...
now i shall just constantly tell myself
to smile and be happy :D:D:D:D
ignore her. haha...
wait for her go back normal
ignore all her hurting words...
i shall not hear them...listen but not hear...
i want to smile at every day
and start working.
and let jc pass soon.
and then hopefully get into a gd course in uni
and become an adult soon.
coz she told me im not yet 21
she still can interfere with me...
now then come blog.
well super busy lor
everyday very late come home de
first with leo the I&I
after that busy with pw.
then today i guess im resting haha
gotta start doing work le.
haiz.
lots to catch up on!
these 2 weeks ar
everyday damn late sleep leh
suuuper tired :(
chem lecture nvr survive awake before
today slept like around 30-40 mins LOL
on and off la
last 10 mins then awake and listen lols
but i could catch what was going on still la
thankfully
hahahaha
coz i woke up when cher ask us try a question
at the end of the lecture notes.
a very simple question la
can do la at least. im not totally lost.
i caught impt stuff k :P
tt's the gd thing about on and off sleeping :p
but then ar
maths lecture bad.
starting to sleep for maths lectures :(
seriously.
too tired la
esp coz is first few periods
i havent wake yet
after first few usu i can stay awake de
maths lecture thurs de is first period leh
sot ar
sure sleep ma
but maths worse than chem
i dunno what was taught.
erm ok la since it's mostly written there
but i didnt catch most of it
mr ang say the way mrs tan teach not very gd
coz not clear though
ying en veron they all listened
but also couldnt get it anyway -.-
haiz super tired!!!!
everytime so late come home le hor
and then want do work ma
and then will keep falling asleep at my desk.
lols. eyes auto shut down de lols
oh ya zhenyan told me a joke today.
she ask: what's the meaning of brain dead?
answer is: the left brain has nothing right
and the right brain has nothing left HAHA
well i found it funny hahahaha
ok talking about zhenyan
PW!
it sucks man.
i dunno where to start
i shall not describe la.
summary: nothing is going well.
im at a loas of how to continue.
i damn fail lor
the game i made dammmn fail
as a leader also so fail :(
haiz.
yepp tt's about it.
and my mum is seriously #)(%(@&%(*&$
haiz.
im like so super tired le leh
and she has to be like this.
so not understanding tsk.
she scolded me for coming home so late everyday
for these few weeks leh
wth lor
like i want la
i so late ar i ownself super tired
and not very catching up with work leh
make me want to try harder...
coz i scared.
im dropping again...
cant let that happen.
so though i come home late
and super tired
i still try to stay awake
fail la but still try ma
try to do as much work as i can...
and yet she said
i do so much work also nvr do well what
i was like speechless?!?!
wth
she so pro she go study la
always like tt
wan me do well
then this one cannot that one cannot.
wan do well need sacrifice a lot leh
yet she doesnt allow me to do anything.
go out study also might not let
wan so educational stuff or whatever also cannot
as long as need money or a lot of time etc
then cannot.
even if it helps.
ah whatever.
change change.
ms ang my new maths tutor!
our class combine with 29 and 31 ma
then band into 3 maths class.
ours is first one called "entusiastic"
SUPER dumb name HAHAHAHA
anyway
yea ms ang teach
coz we lagging behind quite a bit ma
so she's like bullet train now
DAMN fast...................
im not catching up well in my tutorials!
and there's so much more work to do...
this weekend.
tmr got csc talk at yishun jc.
need wake up so early!!!! :(
deprived of sleep le leh still like tt...
then need do...
chem benzenes tutorial
pw...EOM!!
and plan for written report liao :(
haiz. just the thought of pw irks me now.
maths...tutorial 21 and 20 poyo.
cll...hmm read up? nth much i think.
econs erm wait. got hw...errr oh ya
market structure issues tutorial ws...
csc well got shou ji from last term LOL
last term need 8 this semester need 10
total need 18 more term 2-4
but i only got like...3-4 now.
SO MUCH more to do.
but i have no inspiration at all..................
haha.
i shall try to be more cheerful nowadays hahaha
thurs ar
morning mum totally ruined my mood
before i left for sku
so i was in a dull mood
but as the day went on
i got better haha
mood improved.
i was all smiley and cheerful
all the way
until i got home.
and then it went to horrible.
it became worse than morning -.-
mum left harsh words behind
before she left with my dad go out
zzz gd. alone at home
can cry at ease
wanted to shout man
she's so unreasonable...
i've been working hard
and coming home late everyday
and draining myself
coz of sku
NOT PLAY
how can she scold me for no reason like tt...
ridiculous
but no matter what happens
she ALWAYS thinks she's right.
she always say i do wrong thing dun say sorry
but i have NVR heard her say a word of sorry...
NVR. seriously. not to me or dad anyway.
simeple reason.
she thinks she's ALWAYS right.
ah whatever.
i cant bring myself to burst her bubble...
now i shall just constantly tell myself
to smile and be happy :D:D:D:D
ignore her. haha...
wait for her go back normal
ignore all her hurting words...
i shall not hear them...listen but not hear...
i want to smile at every day
and start working.
and let jc pass soon.
and then hopefully get into a gd course in uni
and become an adult soon.
coz she told me im not yet 21
she still can interfere with me...
2010-07-18
12/7
It's been so long since i've posted here, eh?
It's been long since mr ang posted on his blog too haha :D
guess everyone's busier, eh?
anyway
i had LOTS like LOTS to say
since it's been real long.
but now i shall just summarise hols part la.
well i did study.
but i slacked quite a bit too.
ok. quite a lot.
so. basically i was totally unprepared for the exams.
hence the results.
till now,
gotten back...
maths- 70%
chem-45%
cll-59%
yepp tt's about all...i think.
will get back econs and csc tmr
and gp on thursday.
well. haiz.
ok. econs.
i have no confidence of getting even 10%
seriously. or at most 15%. nothing more.
no exaggeration involved at all.
they dun quite believe me la.
but then.
cher's been going thru the essay answers these few days
haven finish but i looked at it already.
hence i know what i wrote and i know where i stand.
haiz.
i feel like saying some stuff
some usual stuff i would have said
but i noe i shouldnt
i have no right to anyway.
my fault totally.
i didnt prepare for econs.
almost totally didnt.
least i studied for was csc followed by econs.
well i studied first few chapters quite well though
esp elasticity.
i didnt touch GI at all
and everything about GI came out -.-
regret.
last tuesday talked to mr ang ma
and well of coz he was disappointed with my results
particularly maths.
many tot my score was not bad le
but im not satisfied with it either.
i lost a lot of marks that i did not have to.
a lot.
cher say mrs tan also disappointed wor :X
argh.
im really so sorry.
i failed myself too.
hence, i was so motivated that day haha.
this is the first time i felt so motivated...
and i got a feeling i will work hard this time.
and i did study that day
and for the rest of last week
i didnt even watch 宫心计 which was sth sort of must-watch de haha
last week i completed tutorials 16-18
and then i realised veron also finished tutorial 18.
argh cannot!!!
i must do more!!!
and then it was the weekends
haiz.
i dunno why but i was damn tired on sat
so i didnt do much work.
just did 2 csc articles and prepared for cll lesson
and a bit of maths
and then i fell asleep lols
i slacked thru the whole night man.
damn damn.
dad asked me go sing ma :X haha.
so i sang k at home for like 3 hrs -.-
lols.
then sunday
pw meeting.
we did work!
well we almost finished out storyboard
and i did almost half of the prototype of our game le.
used a lot anime elements
love it man :D
had been working on it this afternoon
before i come here post this too...
anyway then after that
my mum dun let me on com after dinner
so i couldnt continue doing...
she totally dun believe i will work hard leh.
tt is so demoralising.
she totally dun trust me
but i dun blame her la
coz i dun rly deserve her trust yet
to her la anyway
coz she always catch me slacking
she caught me watching show ytd lols.
but i was just resting a bit ma :X
she nvr sees me studying.
last week i study so much she everyday 11pm come home -.-
aiya anyway she totally dun believe me.
sunday night she took my ipod away to play
dun let me watch show ma.
then i felt so super guilty for slacking
so i did maths.
did tutorial 18 poyo and then read up on maths
finished reading parametric curve chapter
and then started on tutorial 19 lor
but i dunno how do some.
everytime i stuck on a question
i will keep thinking keep thinking.
and then usually i'll stop doing my work soon -.-
anyway then i do until 12+
mum scold le so i went sleep lor.
today school
ying en veron wanshan both watched world cup ytd sia
hahahaha then well they slept so little
poor thing :P
mr ang too HAHAHA
cher's beloved holland lost!
LOL
most people i asked is support spain de
so they were relatively happy haha
well shermaine also watched world cup ytd
and she loves holland apparently.
haha
awww its just world cup!
they will have another chance 4 yrs later HAHAHA
aiya at least get second ma! not bad le! :D
i nvr watched world cup o.O
if i had a chance i would actually
but my parents dun watch
so i nvr did.
i wont be allowed to stay up to watch it definitely
and i dunno any team so whatever
just listen to them talk about it haha
quite entertaining. :P
ahhhh anyway must work hard!!!
i MUST work hard!
today in school
i was talking to ying en
telling her i rly wanna mug liao.
i told her
i used to be in a science class
i used to be gd.
i used to be in top 10 even in science class
even in the top few classes.
i used to be in top 100 in school.
not very high position but at least always top 100 la.
now....haiz.
wth is this kind of results???
esp econs.....................
hence
i
have
to
buck
up.
i
know.
honestly.
i dun wan disappoint anyone again.
it felt really bad.
really bad.
but then.
ytd i was thinking.
now i study coz i know i should
i have to.
its like im forcing myself to study u know...
it doesnt help me to focus entirely at all
my brain easily drifts
ok. not really drift
just that i keep telling myself i must study :X
it will have effect still
but it wont have the best effect definitely.
best would be if im studying coz i like it
or just coz i want to.
more of a WANT then a MUST.
tt would be really gd.
i dunno what i should do too.
how should i achieve that?
anyone enlighten me? i'll think about it too...
PW.
our gpp havent exactly been approved
but cher say most probably can. no big prob
tt's y we started on it ma
now we're progressing rly well.
almost half done le leh
we're doing so great :D:D
haha im so happy la
BUT THEN
now got new individual task!
need do EoM sia
evaluation of materials
INDIVIDUAL!! ARGH :(
waste of time la
sure need spend so much time on it again.
and today got an email from sku.
econs lecture tt time also was mentioned
about elective programmes in term 3!!!!
so cool leh hahaha
i wan join!
i wanted join songwriting
but i realised need write melody.
i can't
so...forget it.
im considering about
"Entrepeneurial marketing"
"Get Connected"
and "Creative Problem Solving"
can put 2 choices and 1 will be selected.
well i think is creative problem solving
clashes with my lessons
dun think can skip lessons
so probably wont go for that.
but...
should i even apply?
i think it's interesting
and useful.
rly nice programmes.
but then.
would it be better to use the time on studying?
i have no idea...
haiz. have to consider.........
It's been long since mr ang posted on his blog too haha :D
guess everyone's busier, eh?
anyway
i had LOTS like LOTS to say
since it's been real long.
but now i shall just summarise hols part la.
well i did study.
but i slacked quite a bit too.
ok. quite a lot.
so. basically i was totally unprepared for the exams.
hence the results.
till now,
gotten back...
maths- 70%
chem-45%
cll-59%
yepp tt's about all...i think.
will get back econs and csc tmr
and gp on thursday.
well. haiz.
ok. econs.
i have no confidence of getting even 10%
seriously. or at most 15%. nothing more.
no exaggeration involved at all.
they dun quite believe me la.
but then.
cher's been going thru the essay answers these few days
haven finish but i looked at it already.
hence i know what i wrote and i know where i stand.
haiz.
i feel like saying some stuff
some usual stuff i would have said
but i noe i shouldnt
i have no right to anyway.
my fault totally.
i didnt prepare for econs.
almost totally didnt.
least i studied for was csc followed by econs.
well i studied first few chapters quite well though
esp elasticity.
i didnt touch GI at all
and everything about GI came out -.-
regret.
last tuesday talked to mr ang ma
and well of coz he was disappointed with my results
particularly maths.
many tot my score was not bad le
but im not satisfied with it either.
i lost a lot of marks that i did not have to.
a lot.
cher say mrs tan also disappointed wor :X
argh.
im really so sorry.
i failed myself too.
hence, i was so motivated that day haha.
this is the first time i felt so motivated...
and i got a feeling i will work hard this time.
and i did study that day
and for the rest of last week
i didnt even watch 宫心计 which was sth sort of must-watch de haha
last week i completed tutorials 16-18
and then i realised veron also finished tutorial 18.
argh cannot!!!
i must do more!!!
and then it was the weekends
haiz.
i dunno why but i was damn tired on sat
so i didnt do much work.
just did 2 csc articles and prepared for cll lesson
and a bit of maths
and then i fell asleep lols
i slacked thru the whole night man.
damn damn.
dad asked me go sing ma :X haha.
so i sang k at home for like 3 hrs -.-
lols.
then sunday
pw meeting.
we did work!
well we almost finished out storyboard
and i did almost half of the prototype of our game le.
used a lot anime elements
love it man :D
had been working on it this afternoon
before i come here post this too...
anyway then after that
my mum dun let me on com after dinner
so i couldnt continue doing...
she totally dun believe i will work hard leh.
tt is so demoralising.
she totally dun trust me
but i dun blame her la
coz i dun rly deserve her trust yet
to her la anyway
coz she always catch me slacking
she caught me watching show ytd lols.
but i was just resting a bit ma :X
she nvr sees me studying.
last week i study so much she everyday 11pm come home -.-
aiya anyway she totally dun believe me.
sunday night she took my ipod away to play
dun let me watch show ma.
then i felt so super guilty for slacking
so i did maths.
did tutorial 18 poyo and then read up on maths
finished reading parametric curve chapter
and then started on tutorial 19 lor
but i dunno how do some.
everytime i stuck on a question
i will keep thinking keep thinking.
and then usually i'll stop doing my work soon -.-
anyway then i do until 12+
mum scold le so i went sleep lor.
today school
ying en veron wanshan both watched world cup ytd sia
hahahaha then well they slept so little
poor thing :P
mr ang too HAHAHA
cher's beloved holland lost!
LOL
most people i asked is support spain de
so they were relatively happy haha
well shermaine also watched world cup ytd
and she loves holland apparently.
haha
awww its just world cup!
they will have another chance 4 yrs later HAHAHA
aiya at least get second ma! not bad le! :D
i nvr watched world cup o.O
if i had a chance i would actually
but my parents dun watch
so i nvr did.
i wont be allowed to stay up to watch it definitely
and i dunno any team so whatever
just listen to them talk about it haha
quite entertaining. :P
ahhhh anyway must work hard!!!
i MUST work hard!
today in school
i was talking to ying en
telling her i rly wanna mug liao.
i told her
i used to be in a science class
i used to be gd.
i used to be in top 10 even in science class
even in the top few classes.
i used to be in top 100 in school.
not very high position but at least always top 100 la.
now....haiz.
wth is this kind of results???
esp econs.....................
hence
i
have
to
buck
up.
i
know.
honestly.
i dun wan disappoint anyone again.
it felt really bad.
really bad.
but then.
ytd i was thinking.
now i study coz i know i should
i have to.
its like im forcing myself to study u know...
it doesnt help me to focus entirely at all
my brain easily drifts
ok. not really drift
just that i keep telling myself i must study :X
it will have effect still
but it wont have the best effect definitely.
best would be if im studying coz i like it
or just coz i want to.
more of a WANT then a MUST.
tt would be really gd.
i dunno what i should do too.
how should i achieve that?
anyone enlighten me? i'll think about it too...
PW.
our gpp havent exactly been approved
but cher say most probably can. no big prob
tt's y we started on it ma
now we're progressing rly well.
almost half done le leh
we're doing so great :D:D
haha im so happy la
BUT THEN
now got new individual task!
need do EoM sia
evaluation of materials
INDIVIDUAL!! ARGH :(
waste of time la
sure need spend so much time on it again.
and today got an email from sku.
econs lecture tt time also was mentioned
about elective programmes in term 3!!!!
so cool leh hahaha
i wan join!
i wanted join songwriting
but i realised need write melody.
i can't
so...forget it.
im considering about
"Entrepeneurial marketing"
"Get Connected"
and "Creative Problem Solving"
can put 2 choices and 1 will be selected.
well i think is creative problem solving
clashes with my lessons
dun think can skip lessons
so probably wont go for that.
but...
should i even apply?
i think it's interesting
and useful.
rly nice programmes.
but then.
would it be better to use the time on studying?
i have no idea...
haiz. have to consider.........
2010-06-22
You're Beautiful
AHHH THEY ARE SO DISTRACTING!
cham la slack too much le :(((
no mood study leh :(
zzzz still slacking.
oh no. next week jcts le.
should go study NOW!
ok. after i finish this. haha.
finished watching you're beautiful last weekend.
it's fab man hahahahaha
<3333 jang geun suk and lee hong ki!
esp jang geun suk HAHA
oh my they are sooo distracting!!!
i was melting listening to their songs la
damnnnn nice~
i copied the notes and was singing along
hahahahahhaha :P
argh have to conc liao la :(
haha.
but it rocks la seriously :P
haiz.
ok back to planet earth........................
face the irritating stuff.
well i did do work lor.
just that. well it's not enough.
haha.
gotta put in double triple effort la.
or maybe in ten folds will work better -.-
cham la slack too much le :(((
no mood study leh :(
zzzz still slacking.
oh no. next week jcts le.
should go study NOW!
ok. after i finish this. haha.
finished watching you're beautiful last weekend.
it's fab man hahahahaha
<3333 jang geun suk and lee hong ki!
esp jang geun suk HAHA
oh my they are sooo distracting!!!
i was melting listening to their songs la
damnnnn nice~
i copied the notes and was singing along
hahahahahhaha :P
argh have to conc liao la :(
haha.
but it rocks la seriously :P
haiz.
ok back to planet earth........................
face the irritating stuff.
well i did do work lor.
just that. well it's not enough.
haha.
gotta put in double triple effort la.
or maybe in ten folds will work better -.-
2010-05-31
worse sia...
i tot ytd was bad
today was worse
they both saw me cry lols.
bad.
really. lols.
i had so much to write here
but it's hard to get everything back.
i dun wan to anyway.
basically
my dad is a SUPER petty person
ytd dun wan spell camera for him only leh
then he went crazy today
so small thing...tsk
mum found out so much money(class de) with me
so she asked me why i go i/c money stuff etc
say i not responsible coz money cannot just lie on the table.
dangerous.
but it's home leh so she say she almost threw it away
lols they can leave my things alone.... -.-
then dad also join in
wth one line mum one line dad continuous
zzz -.-
then i say u think wan go uni rly just need results ar
then my mum shut up
my dad wth got worse.
say what i think he dunno anything ar etc
ya what. he rly doesnt know what.
then i go bathe
cried so super hard in there
come out ar
he ask me hand over my atm card sia
give lor big deal
then he ask for phone n ipod
WTH U CRAZY AR
i sot then give him la.
over my dead body man.
so i hold both on my hands tightly dun let him take
he say he'll get it anyway
wahtever u can try.
my mum then come into my room
close door
lecture me tsk.
haiz.
haiz.
haiz.
haiz.
烦阿烦，活着真烦...haiz.
then dinnertime
i wanted charge my ipod
but scare dad go take it
so i go lock it in my cupboard and
keep key in my pocket lols
i was being careful lor...
im not the only one who's become
very dependent of my ipod...
wanshan and elaine also LOL
today damn funny.
5 mins before chem lecture started
wanshan asked for my ipod
i was like WTH??? few mins left only leh!!!
i was thinking she's crazy
then elaine also ask
LOL???? HAHA damn funny...
anyway i slept thru half the lecture lols.
in front awake behind awake middle sleeping.
as usual.
:P
oh where was i.
erm ya dinner
after dinner he tell me
next time use com do work
off msn
cannot watch shows
latest 11.30pm must off
if not he going cut cable again.
wth lor.
*rolls eyes* x10000000
it feels so familiar
must be the 1000 times im hearing stuff like that.
*rolls eyes again*
then after dinner he gave me back my atm card.
he's so him man.
it's so his behaviour
EVERYTIME also like that.
few days later
after he appeased le ar
come tell me he scold me he also not happy de
stuff like that.
crap la.
so not happy then dun do it la.
why get angry over such a dumb thing man
make me cry until i cant see properly now lols
ok not that bad just eyes a little bit more tired
than it already is....
haiyo...
everything is bad like tt...
and ar
i dunno y la
now HOLS leh
ppl can relax and watch shows
and still do work what
why cant i?
why do my parents expect me to do work the whole day???
tt's so unfair.
they keep comparing me with others
then why dun they compare themselves? o.O
haiz
tt's too high expectations for them man...
today was worse
they both saw me cry lols.
bad.
really. lols.
i had so much to write here
but it's hard to get everything back.
i dun wan to anyway.
basically
my dad is a SUPER petty person
ytd dun wan spell camera for him only leh
then he went crazy today
so small thing...tsk
mum found out so much money(class de) with me
so she asked me why i go i/c money stuff etc
say i not responsible coz money cannot just lie on the table.
dangerous.
but it's home leh so she say she almost threw it away
lols they can leave my things alone.... -.-
then dad also join in
wth one line mum one line dad continuous
zzz -.-
then i say u think wan go uni rly just need results ar
then my mum shut up
my dad wth got worse.
say what i think he dunno anything ar etc
ya what. he rly doesnt know what.
then i go bathe
cried so super hard in there
come out ar
he ask me hand over my atm card sia
give lor big deal
then he ask for phone n ipod
WTH U CRAZY AR
i sot then give him la.
over my dead body man.
so i hold both on my hands tightly dun let him take
he say he'll get it anyway
wahtever u can try.
my mum then come into my room
close door
lecture me tsk.
haiz.
haiz.
haiz.
haiz.
烦阿烦，活着真烦...haiz.
then dinnertime
i wanted charge my ipod
but scare dad go take it
so i go lock it in my cupboard and
keep key in my pocket lols
i was being careful lor...
im not the only one who's become
very dependent of my ipod...
wanshan and elaine also LOL
today damn funny.
5 mins before chem lecture started
wanshan asked for my ipod
i was like WTH??? few mins left only leh!!!
i was thinking she's crazy
then elaine also ask
LOL???? HAHA damn funny...
anyway i slept thru half the lecture lols.
in front awake behind awake middle sleeping.
as usual.
:P
oh where was i.
erm ya dinner
after dinner he tell me
next time use com do work
off msn
cannot watch shows
latest 11.30pm must off
if not he going cut cable again.
wth lor.
*rolls eyes* x10000000
it feels so familiar
must be the 1000 times im hearing stuff like that.
*rolls eyes again*
then after dinner he gave me back my atm card.
he's so him man.
it's so his behaviour
EVERYTIME also like that.
few days later
after he appeased le ar
come tell me he scold me he also not happy de
stuff like that.
crap la.
so not happy then dun do it la.
why get angry over such a dumb thing man
make me cry until i cant see properly now lols
ok not that bad just eyes a little bit more tired
than it already is....
haiyo...
everything is bad like tt...
and ar
i dunno y la
now HOLS leh
ppl can relax and watch shows
and still do work what
why cant i?
why do my parents expect me to do work the whole day???
tt's so unfair.
they keep comparing me with others
then why dun they compare themselves? o.O
haiz
tt's too high expectations for them man...
2010-05-30
im in a killing mood
let me murder someone
argh nvm that won't help
damn it la
i dunno what to say even.
crap.
relax...
haiz.
anyway.
ytd co concert
it was great.
they did a gd job
gave flowers to sarah elaine joscelin
havent pay mr ang back yet hehe. :P
as an erhu player
i specially took note of erhu only
they did pretty well la.
quite pro
but it just takes practice
it's all like this
erhu especially is not that that difficult.
it just takes practice :D
i miss my erhu................... :(
but i still wont go touch it de la :P
oh ya b4 concert.
mr ang send us go SCH from bedok interchange
veron damn bad with directions hehe
told her meet at bus stop oppo interchange
then she go wrong one -.-
anyway then coz cher drive us past bugis
so hehe we made him stop there
then we went food court for dinner
i went bossini say hi first
but only say charleen (morning went parkway say hi
on my way home from translation competition too! haha)
the rest went home le
think sook han was inside but i didnt wait la
i left for my dinner :D
and then veron couldnt find where they were sitting at -.-
LOL damn funny.
she actually has a tracking device in her phone
so that she can be found if she gets lost
LOL damn bad with directions apparently
then cher didnt noe how go SCH from there
see directory sia
i also seesee la but didnt manage to help
he found his way arnd. sianz.
cannot laugh at him hehe :P
after co concert he bring us home
he dropped shermaine first
then he changed cd to s.h.e. songs!! :D:D
not bad he got quite a lot! :D
he wanted to drive me home from expressway
but i dunno that way.
so i tried guiding him the way i know
the way dad usu goes o.O
not exactly but ya i was sort of on the right track
but he didnt trust me -.-
tsk~
i only made 1 mistake!!
oh and a few minor ones hehe :p
i ok with directions de lor!
usually la anyway.im better than a lot ppl.
tt's gd enough :p
but shermaine's pretty gd! haha
today morning
edited gpp that zhenyan sent me
it's still no gd.
so send shermaine
she didnt edit sia
wth lor.
it's NOT perfect can.
cant they put in more effort??
i BET $100000 this wont be approved yet.
aiya what they wan me do sia
argh dun care.
i going to submit it le.
we'll just keep editing the gpp till end of pw
and fail it together.
yay let's all die together~
we'll need a big enough coffin.
then afternoon
dad asked me go sing karaoke lols.
coz home got system.
he started singing la i went bathe
come out then my turn hehe
but i sing not nice
anyhow la.
quite fun though.
sang jj songs and s.h.e. songs
the system not very gd
coz the database not as gd as outside de
but it's free :D
and music not bad
dad on aircon summore
so haha not bad le la :P
then mum walk past me say
u a lot of time ar still playplayplay...
wth.
i so wanted to roll my eyes.
she also what
whole day complain say very tired
so much work to do
no time to rest
say we bully her
she do until no free time
then why is she always with my ipod? -.-
why is she always with my ipod IN FRONT OF TV
AND SITTING ON THE BED?
while i doing work.
lala~yea she's SOOOOO poor thing.
my life is 1000000 times better man
i bully her all day that i suck.
whatever. i cant be bothered
no matter how much i would have cared
it would all fade when things
are repeated SO MUCH.
after dinner i watching show on my ipod
then she scold me.
zzzz hols just started leh :(
cannot slack at all meh
EVERYTIME i slack a bit she also like that
no life man.
jc life is not a life anyway
but still.
argh irritating.
then my dad beside me using com
WORSE STILL
noisy leh
mum scold me he still add fuel
JOKINGLY.
ya like i care he jokin or not.
it still is adding fuel.
my mum always like that de
happy a while then like that
happy a while then like that
repeat that 100 times
and u'll get my point.
life is the same everyday.
she's like this everyday.
sianz. whats so difficult about being happier?
why cant she learn to let go of small things
and see just the big pictures
why cant she care about what she REALLY should
and ignore things she shouldnt?
she doesnt understand me at all. :(
is she really my mum?
morning i telling her
co concert got invite dance ppl to dance
then she ask me accusingly
so u also went down to dance la?
i was like wth???
what kind of person m i to her?!?!?!
crap.
argh.
seriously.
to her. im a
terrible person
terrible student
terrible daughter
haiz. yea la.
i know.
i suck.
fine i get your point.
my ipod full le memory full
yet i didnt delete the games she want
coz i know she want to play
today i go buy the full version for her summore
but she doesnt know anything man
if she really think im that bad ar
maybe i should be that bad to prove her right?
maybe she will be happier seeing me rebel.
wth.
she scold me for slacking le
and then took my ipod to play with watching tv now leh
sianz.
yesyesyes i noe
im a jc student
i got exams after hols.
but CAN'T I PLAY AT ALL?????
i want my life back!!!!
it's hols after all.......
i will study.......really.....
but before that...... :(
wan me study hard then leave me alone man.
im not totally without self discipline ok!
but i need to be in the right mood
then i can chiong
at least
i FINALLY get a BREAK from school leh
and she wants to deprive me of that little break.
even thurs last day of sku damn tiring
thanks to mardi gras
then friday got pulled out by her go temple
nvr do anything
ytd go competition then concert
ytd i go dinner then dirtied my white pants ma
this morning she ask me to wash it leh
i totally rolled my eyes lor
she didnt see it la coz i was back facing her
i kept quiet didnt say anything
i felt like screaming but whatever
coz after that she ask me about sku again
and ask me buck up etcetc
yea i should
then u leave the rest to urself can anot.
tsk.
maybe she's a superwoman in disguise
tt's y she expects her daughter to be one too.
when i was young
my family was happier...
dad will help mum with things at home
mum did sort of everything..with dad's help la
but she nvr did complain
we went out more often
though they quarrelled so often.
quarrels started increasing over the years.
dad now dun help at all
mum doing lesser yet she's complaining more
clothes are getting washed at half the speed of before
tables are wiped half as often
her work is half of before
she goes out with her fren double of before
but her complains is x4 of last time.
PLUS she expects me to do even more
when MY WORK is increasing now.
yay.
i should quit school
and do household chores at home
so they can both retire.
haiz.
usu parents tell others
about how great their kids are
no matter how bad they are
they wont make them sound that bad
my mum so opposite.
all she talks about is bad stuff
and makes me sounds damn damn bad.
i dunno what i do sia seriously.
i didnt commit any heavenly crime
i didnt do anything bad or what on purpose
i try my best to help her
i try to be gd le.
im just a lazy pig.
what's wrong with that?
im her child.
so it's not entirely my fault.
EH WAIT.
TMR IS MONDAY.
DARN.
BAD. VERY BAD.
SIANZ.
TMR GOT SKU.
i wan to sleep and not wake up tmr.......................................................................................................................................................................
argh nvm that won't help
damn it la
i dunno what to say even.
crap.
relax...
haiz.
anyway.
ytd co concert
it was great.
they did a gd job
gave flowers to sarah elaine joscelin
havent pay mr ang back yet hehe. :P
as an erhu player
i specially took note of erhu only
they did pretty well la.
quite pro
but it just takes practice
it's all like this
erhu especially is not that that difficult.
it just takes practice :D
i miss my erhu................... :(
but i still wont go touch it de la :P
oh ya b4 concert.
mr ang send us go SCH from bedok interchange
veron damn bad with directions hehe
told her meet at bus stop oppo interchange
then she go wrong one -.-
anyway then coz cher drive us past bugis
so hehe we made him stop there
then we went food court for dinner
i went bossini say hi first
but only say charleen (morning went parkway say hi
on my way home from translation competition too! haha)
the rest went home le
think sook han was inside but i didnt wait la
i left for my dinner :D
and then veron couldnt find where they were sitting at -.-
LOL damn funny.
she actually has a tracking device in her phone
so that she can be found if she gets lost
LOL damn bad with directions apparently
then cher didnt noe how go SCH from there
see directory sia
i also seesee la but didnt manage to help
he found his way arnd. sianz.
cannot laugh at him hehe :P
after co concert he bring us home
he dropped shermaine first
then he changed cd to s.h.e. songs!! :D:D
not bad he got quite a lot! :D
he wanted to drive me home from expressway
but i dunno that way.
so i tried guiding him the way i know
the way dad usu goes o.O
not exactly but ya i was sort of on the right track
but he didnt trust me -.-
tsk~
i only made 1 mistake!!
oh and a few minor ones hehe :p
i ok with directions de lor!
usually la anyway.im better than a lot ppl.
tt's gd enough :p
but shermaine's pretty gd! haha
today morning
edited gpp that zhenyan sent me
it's still no gd.
so send shermaine
she didnt edit sia
wth lor.
it's NOT perfect can.
cant they put in more effort??
i BET $100000 this wont be approved yet.
aiya what they wan me do sia
argh dun care.
i going to submit it le.
we'll just keep editing the gpp till end of pw
and fail it together.
yay let's all die together~
we'll need a big enough coffin.
then afternoon
dad asked me go sing karaoke lols.
coz home got system.
he started singing la i went bathe
come out then my turn hehe
but i sing not nice
anyhow la.
quite fun though.
sang jj songs and s.h.e. songs
the system not very gd
coz the database not as gd as outside de
but it's free :D
and music not bad
dad on aircon summore
so haha not bad le la :P
then mum walk past me say
u a lot of time ar still playplayplay...
wth.
i so wanted to roll my eyes.
she also what
whole day complain say very tired
so much work to do
no time to rest
say we bully her
she do until no free time
then why is she always with my ipod? -.-
why is she always with my ipod IN FRONT OF TV
AND SITTING ON THE BED?
while i doing work.
lala~yea she's SOOOOO poor thing.
my life is 1000000 times better man
i bully her all day that i suck.
whatever. i cant be bothered
no matter how much i would have cared
it would all fade when things
are repeated SO MUCH.
after dinner i watching show on my ipod
then she scold me.
zzzz hols just started leh :(
cannot slack at all meh
EVERYTIME i slack a bit she also like that
no life man.
jc life is not a life anyway
but still.
argh irritating.
then my dad beside me using com
WORSE STILL
noisy leh
mum scold me he still add fuel
JOKINGLY.
ya like i care he jokin or not.
it still is adding fuel.
my mum always like that de
happy a while then like that
happy a while then like that
repeat that 100 times
and u'll get my point.
life is the same everyday.
she's like this everyday.
sianz. whats so difficult about being happier?
why cant she learn to let go of small things
and see just the big pictures
why cant she care about what she REALLY should
and ignore things she shouldnt?
she doesnt understand me at all. :(
is she really my mum?
morning i telling her
co concert got invite dance ppl to dance
then she ask me accusingly
so u also went down to dance la?
i was like wth???
what kind of person m i to her?!?!?!
crap.
argh.
seriously.
to her. im a
terrible person
terrible student
terrible daughter
haiz. yea la.
i know.
i suck.
fine i get your point.
my ipod full le memory full
yet i didnt delete the games she want
coz i know she want to play
today i go buy the full version for her summore
but she doesnt know anything man
if she really think im that bad ar
maybe i should be that bad to prove her right?
maybe she will be happier seeing me rebel.
wth.
she scold me for slacking le
and then took my ipod to play with watching tv now leh
sianz.
yesyesyes i noe
im a jc student
i got exams after hols.
but CAN'T I PLAY AT ALL?????
i want my life back!!!!
it's hols after all.......
i will study.......really.....
but before that...... :(
wan me study hard then leave me alone man.
im not totally without self discipline ok!
but i need to be in the right mood
then i can chiong
at least
i FINALLY get a BREAK from school leh
and she wants to deprive me of that little break.
even thurs last day of sku damn tiring
thanks to mardi gras
then friday got pulled out by her go temple
nvr do anything
ytd go competition then concert
ytd i go dinner then dirtied my white pants ma
this morning she ask me to wash it leh
i totally rolled my eyes lor
she didnt see it la coz i was back facing her
i kept quiet didnt say anything
i felt like screaming but whatever
coz after that she ask me about sku again
and ask me buck up etcetc
yea i should
then u leave the rest to urself can anot.
tsk.
maybe she's a superwoman in disguise
tt's y she expects her daughter to be one too.
when i was young
my family was happier...
dad will help mum with things at home
mum did sort of everything..with dad's help la
but she nvr did complain
we went out more often
though they quarrelled so often.
quarrels started increasing over the years.
dad now dun help at all
mum doing lesser yet she's complaining more
clothes are getting washed at half the speed of before
tables are wiped half as often
her work is half of before
she goes out with her fren double of before
but her complains is x4 of last time.
PLUS she expects me to do even more
when MY WORK is increasing now.
yay.
i should quit school
and do household chores at home
so they can both retire.
haiz.
usu parents tell others
about how great their kids are
no matter how bad they are
they wont make them sound that bad
my mum so opposite.
all she talks about is bad stuff
and makes me sounds damn damn bad.
i dunno what i do sia seriously.
i didnt commit any heavenly crime
i didnt do anything bad or what on purpose
i try my best to help her
i try to be gd le.
im just a lazy pig.
what's wrong with that?
im her child.
so it's not entirely my fault.
EH WAIT.
TMR IS MONDAY.
DARN.
BAD. VERY BAD.
SIANZ.
TMR GOT SKU.
i wan to sleep and not wake up tmr.......................................................................................................................................................................
2010-05-28
:((((((
what she wan la seriously
just that once
ONNNCEEEE i nvr pick up her call
then my phone sot
i didnt noe got missed call
so they bought my ticket to sg flyer.
i didnt even say i can go or i wan to go leh
then they bought my ticket
and expect me to be going meh
why should i
wan go anytime also can leh
co concert is just this 1 day leh.
go with them also sianz le la
at most give me the ticket
next time i wan go i can just get my fren go with me
whr got waste the ticket.
not like must throw away or sth what
sg flyer wont fly away ok!
wth.
i wan buy flowers for elaine they all
got anything wrong meh
she very mean leh.
only she can care for her friends
only her friends impt ar.
elaine is my best friend in class
and joscelin is my best friend like best friend...
two impt friends both performing tmr
and its co summore
of coz cannot miss la
why doesnt she understand?
she can go out with her friend whenever she wants to
and leave me n my dad alone
she can use money as she like with her friends
do whatever she wants
and then come scold me for putting my friends b4 family
scold me waste money
the flowers are NOT a waste of money
for goodness sake.
she say i now anyhow spend money
dun save money le.
but now dad give me atm card ma how save...
though she doesnt noe la.
she promised to buy my contacts de
how long le...almost half a yr le.
tt time ask her then she ask me ownself save money go buy.
i shouldnt have trusted her.
of coz she wouldnt wanna spend money on sth like that.
everything is unnecessary to her apparently.
but that's HERRR
i dun think that way
why everything must listen to her
i already very gd le leh :(
she was saying she very nice to let me go le
she can dun let me go de
i also can dun listen what
even she dun let.
i can still go de lor
but i didnt buy ticket yet that time
i waited till she gave her approval.
it's always like this.
i try to listen to her as much as possible.
and she takes everything for granted.
she sees only the bad things
and neglect everything else.
then why should i be a gd gal?
she doesnt see it anyway
she doesnt care anyway..
:((((((((((((((((((((
what a waste of water.
just that once
ONNNCEEEE i nvr pick up her call
then my phone sot
i didnt noe got missed call
so they bought my ticket to sg flyer.
i didnt even say i can go or i wan to go leh
then they bought my ticket
and expect me to be going meh
why should i
wan go anytime also can leh
co concert is just this 1 day leh.
go with them also sianz le la
at most give me the ticket
next time i wan go i can just get my fren go with me
whr got waste the ticket.
not like must throw away or sth what
sg flyer wont fly away ok!
wth.
i wan buy flowers for elaine they all
got anything wrong meh
she very mean leh.
only she can care for her friends
only her friends impt ar.
elaine is my best friend in class
and joscelin is my best friend like best friend...
two impt friends both performing tmr
and its co summore
of coz cannot miss la
why doesnt she understand?
she can go out with her friend whenever she wants to
and leave me n my dad alone
she can use money as she like with her friends
do whatever she wants
and then come scold me for putting my friends b4 family
scold me waste money
the flowers are NOT a waste of money
for goodness sake.
she say i now anyhow spend money
dun save money le.
but now dad give me atm card ma how save...
though she doesnt noe la.
she promised to buy my contacts de
how long le...almost half a yr le.
tt time ask her then she ask me ownself save money go buy.
i shouldnt have trusted her.
of coz she wouldnt wanna spend money on sth like that.
everything is unnecessary to her apparently.
but that's HERRR
i dun think that way
why everything must listen to her
i already very gd le leh :(
she was saying she very nice to let me go le
she can dun let me go de
i also can dun listen what
even she dun let.
i can still go de lor
but i didnt buy ticket yet that time
i waited till she gave her approval.
it's always like this.
i try to listen to her as much as possible.
and she takes everything for granted.
she sees only the bad things
and neglect everything else.
then why should i be a gd gal?
she doesnt see it anyway
she doesnt care anyway..
:((((((((((((((((((((
what a waste of water.
feeling lazy
feeling lazy haha
today 1+ then wake up sia
and is coz my cousin called me
(my mum asked him call de la)
too tired ytd le la haha..
today shall just slack~
ytd mardi gras
too long to elaborate on.
basically i was in charge since elaine wasnt arnd
quite stressful but ok la
overall quite fun though super tiring.
think we made a loss. not sure yet. o.O
thanks EVERYONE for making my day (:
today 1+ then wake up sia
and is coz my cousin called me
(my mum asked him call de la)
too tired ytd le la haha..
today shall just slack~
ytd mardi gras
too long to elaborate on.
basically i was in charge since elaine wasnt arnd
quite stressful but ok la
overall quite fun though super tiring.
think we made a loss. not sure yet. o.O
thanks EVERYONE for making my day (:
2010-05-24
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